you'll never see this, but i still think of you every day and it's hard to stop that. it's my fault for thinking that you were going to be the version i had of you in my head.

sometimes i feel like i don't matter at all to you, except i find myself running back. you already told me months ago that you no longer have feelings for me, and i am working to accept that and move on but it is so hard when everything reminds me of you. often i wonder if you ever even liked me at all. i don't know what to believe anymore. wherever you are i hope you are happy. i miss you and all the time we spent together, you made me feel special. unlike anything i've felt, ever, but i hope i can find that again with someone else. you're everything and more but, you and i are over. thank you for everything.

oh god you dont know the effect you have on me, the way you just sleep on my shoulder or chest and hold my hand when french class gets boring, the way you enjoy teasing me while i tease you too, the way you act touchy to only me and no one else your friends are surprised by that fact lol i didnt even notice it till others did, the way you flirt when someone ships us, the way that you trust me with your deepest secrets, the way you laugh, oh and how your hair just perfectly goes fits your body, how your milky brown eyes light up when talking about a thing you love, the way your nose scrunches up when someone teases you and you cant tease them back, the way your voice sounds so smooth and soft while also sounds rigid and firm like a person who isnt scared to hurt anyone that hurts a helpless person, and ik that your straight and we won't ever be a thing, but you were the first person ive ever liked hell maybe even loved, and now you cant see this because your out of my life now, i know i wont forget you, you may though which does scare me but thats fine, hopefully someday we can meet again and rekindle our friendship, but till then good luck life.

I like you and I know it's more than that but I just wanna know if you feel the same , I wanna stop worrying . you're the reason I smile everyday you make me the happiest I wanna make you happy too I want to be your person

Hey... thank you for always being there and bringing light into my life. I hope you never lose your light. love u

i js wish yk na you'd give me one last change to make things right cuz i only want you honestly :/

Love you so much Pookie x. You’re such a blessing in my life x. Miss you❤️

the moon is beautiful, isn‘t it ?

Was all we had for nothing? You will be the love I’ll no longer know, but the love I used to know.

I wish I was better for you, and I wish you were better for me.

i’m so sorry i was such a jerk. i hope you don’t hate me now bc i know i will love you forever

I care about you so much, I wish I was enough for you

I wish you didnt use me because I had so much hope for us

I’ll be waiting, even when you move on. I’ll wait for you my love. I promise.

not talking to u at school absolutely sucks

i like you more than friends oh wait I love you more than friends
iloveyou I'm so obsessed with you

I’ve never met anyone like you. I still miss you so much, maybe I always will. Please be there

Grief is all I have left of you, so yes

I do hold on to it.

You have Him, and I'm so glad you do. your so much happier. I just wish it was me.

Your the black cat to my Orange cat. I love the videos you send me about cats.

I love you, I was scared to say it before and lost you.. now I regret not saying it

If you ever need me I’ll always be here, Godspeed.

Nobody has replaced you as my best friend nobody can and will

I miss you so much. You were my first love but I think I need to move on. Maybe one day we’ll happen

ik it was back in September but i still really like you and i wish we could try again

I wish I could hug you rn, stay safe❤️

Im sorry but I have to move on from you it hurts me bad having to do this i still think about you

I love hearing you sing. I could listen to you sing all day. I’m so excited to make music together.

I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!! IM DO FREAKING GRATEFUL FOR YOU AND I LOVE YOU!!!!!

I don't know why you're so hot and cold with me. I wish you could just tell me if you are mad.

dear self, i’m so proud of you ❤️