sometimes i worry you only stuck around bc of my body, and part of me wants to stop giving you so much when you don’t even wanna be together, but the other part of me would rather disrespect myself then risk you leaving... some nights loving you is really hard g

your negligence will always be your worst trait, yet it’s so true to your character. i miss loving you.

You taught me what love shouldn’t be, and I regret being with you. I became a weaker person with you and I wish I’d never met you

i have a lot to say but here’s this~
i’m still here like i promised ok?
i love you and i will always.
eventually i’ll get over you and her.
i’m glad you’re happy.
i promised i’d be happy for you so i am.
even though you cut me out of your life, i still care.

i dont think you understand how much power you have over people. also, stop bashing my music taste else im gonna start listening to songs i made on garageband when i was 9 and tone deaf

I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have let you go. I thought I was going to find somebody else one of these days but I can’t. It’s always been you.

you're not my first love, but i don't know how to say these things.
i'm not good for you. i can't give you what you want, i've never been able to. it's past time you let go. thank you for all you've done.

ur a fucking ass hole and you have no heart I hope u fucking die and the devil curses ur life because u can die and no one would give a shit about u because I know I would not u fucking piece of shit

Well we haven’t talked in awhile and I think I needed to get this off my chest. I miss you in I believe a platonic way.. I miss laughing with you and you always made my day brighter. Hope you’re doing well and I hope we find our way back together.

I would give anything to be able to talk to you, to have one last hug. We used to talk every day and now it’s all just gone

I can’t do this without you. Every time I try to calm down I hear you telling me to take a deep breath. But you’re not here anymore

It’s the third day in a row that I’ve woken up without a good morning text from you and I can’t stand it happening one more time

You didn’t even ask if I was okay to drive home. But no matter how hard I wished, I was alone on the road

Didn’t you know that I needed you? How could you leave like that when you were the only thing holding me together?

Your words keep replaying in my mind the way the waves never stop crashing onto the shore. And I’m drowning.

I want to talk to you again, become friends again, and maybe start over again from the start. Yet the saddest part is that I know you'll never forgive me and that you'll never hit that unblock button. I want to let you know I still wear your hoodie that I haven't returned and I wonder if you still look at mine and think about me time to time. I miss your weird ass but I know you don't. And that's okay. I wish you the best... maybe one day I can talk to you everyday like we used to and catch up on our lives, but I guess these past days are just not one day.

do you still play our song on the piano? do you think of us? i played it last night. all i could think about was how you taught me how to play it, and when i finally got it, you kissed me and asked me to be yours. now i sit in the dark and play alone crying.

We have been talking a lot more and i have feelings for you again, i just thought you needed to know. If you don't feel the same I'm fine with that, we can just stay friends if u want.

looking through our pictures to help me sleep again, no matter what happens i’ll always be dreaming of you

I shouldn't have done that with you the other night. You don't even care about me. That was special to us and you never even texted me.

You’re a great dude, good looking, charming, tall, physically strong, one of my favourite people, good taste in like everything, you’re every girls dream guy. Love you man. - I wonder who... hmmmmm

i love ya all those random texts..random check ins all the memories but now thats all i have and it hurts

i regret ever getting with you jones. you were such an ass and were the gasoline to my dumpster fire mental health. its embarrassing that i even liked you before i got with you. i regret pretending the entire relationship.

ik we all joke that youre Tall Gabe but everyone knows youre so much more thant your height because youre just a super sweet guy that cares about all of his friends equally and thats kind of exactly how i want to be too :) i know youll treat ham right and i look forward to getting closer with you too

I love you stinker and I pray your genuinely doing good.I hope you find the happiness you deserve soon .Im so proud of you bubba,I miss you more than ever and i’m praying that when you come back we can be together,your so hard headed and i don’t mind it but i just wish you could see how bad i want to be with you i wish you could tell me how you feel i’m getting mixed signals .You told me you loved me and i was so happy you make me so happy and it makes me sad to know your not in the best place in your life.The nights i spent with you were the best sleeping next to you waking up next to you kissing you hugging you i wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.I know we found each other the way we did for a reason.You have such a genuine heart and if we don’t end up together I pray that you end up with a girl that’s gonna treat you like no other,you deserve the world baby and i’m just hoping i can give it to you i always wish you the best bebe

i wish i was brave enough to tell you how i felt. my heart hurts whenever i see you because i know you’ll never feel the same way about me.

I feel empty without you.
But I know you weren’t good for me, so I’m trying to let go, and that is okay.

you broke me. the way you didn’t trust me made me feel like the worst person on this planet. i wish you weren’t so toxic but i still wish you the best in life. just don’t ever come back.

why do you still say you love me two years after we met. after we’ve both loved other people? is the love that strong or are you a liar. i’ll never understand when you tell me the way you feel about me. why?. what is so different about me, i don’t understand.

i loved you, still do, will always. i tried so hard, we both made mistakes but i thought we would always work things out, i wasnt good enough, all i wanted was to feel wanted, i wanted to feel like you wanted to talk to me, now you ignore me and treat other girls better than i thought you could ever treat me, the amount of chances i gave you shows how much i wanted us to work, to last. you used me, destroyed my self confidence and made me hate everything about myself, yet i would still take you back with no hesitation, why am i not enough, was i ever enough? love, liv

I hope you find someone who deserves you. However even if you stay forever, that person will never be me

Hell started when I stopped seeing you in my dreams. What happened to the old you? He wouldn't have hit me.

My dad always plays “Gravity” from John Mayer in the car when I’m with him. He thinks it’s mine and his song, but I played it so much in the car with him because you recommended it to me when I was in my low and truly believed you were my soulmate. So now I can’t even listen to it without crying because you aren’t in my life anymore. You’re definitely a jerk. Goodbye Gabriel .

i don’t want to let go of you. i love you so much and always will. and i’m proud of you. thank you for everything

i would do everything again, the pain, the heartbreak, the tears, if it meant i had you. thank you for the best season of my life.

i hope you’re okay. i know what you did was hard. you did the hard thing. but it doesn’t make me love you any less.

i hate how you made me feel worthless for so long, but begged me to stay with you so you wouldn’t be alone.

almost a year later and i still cant stop thinking ab you ... i feel like im in love with the idea of you more than you but either way , ur the one on my mind 24/7 and i really wish we had at least ended it on good terms..

i miss you. and maybe you'll see this and think there's no way it could be me. please don't trust yourself on that. and yes, i want to hear from you.

I really hope you decide to stay, i dont want to lose you. im sorry you’re in pain, i wish i could take it away

i forgot about your birthday. maybe that’s a good thing tho. the excuse to text u is no longer.
hope ur doin ok.

i really despise you. i feel like you strung me along for months. when i tried to speak up about how i felt about our relationship, you’d shut me down and tell me you’re in love with me. i hate you so fucking much. you’d jokingly tell me to not hate you when i’d say ‘kam’, yet ghosted me two months before our one year anniversary. i deserve better. i’m letting you go and moving on. i hope your life goes well without me.

maybe don't tell your next gf that u never had butterflies for her and actually treat her like a human being :)

hello i miss you i wish we could've met but im dead now rip btw okay hye gabe i kove yi]o]] okay also [[][-]-------------

maybe you were my soulmate and maybe we were just too young to understand what that meant,,maybe it was the right person wrong time or maybe it wasn’t meant to work out for a reason

I’ll always love you. You were the first person that loved me and made me feel what it was like to be loved. You were my first everything and I’ll always have a place for you in my heart. I hope that you found happiness for yourself, I hope you keep achieving your goals, I hope you smile more, & I hope that everything is well with you. You graduated boot camp and I wish I could’ve congratulated you. As much as it hurts me and even through all the pain you gave me, I hope your happy with her too. I’m sorry for all the hurt I caused too. Thank you for everything, for allowing me to feel what it was like to be loved, for making me feel beautiful, for making me feel wanted, for making me feel special, for making me safe, for making laugh, smile, & thank you for all the good memories. I love you Gabe.

sorry for not accepting your oreos. i still am attached to you til this year. i like you a lot. you stay in the back of my head and sometimes i just can’t stop thinking about what we could’ve been. text me. pls?

I hate you so much right now but I care and like you so much and it sucks because u give me so many mixed emotions and it's pissing me off so much I wish you would just tell me why and what I mean to you so I know how to act around you and what to feel towards you

Not every experience is meant to last forever, and I’m so happy you didn’t. You never even said sorry.

i wish i had never moved, i know we’d still be together and we’d still be the couple everyone envied, ppl still tell me no one had rly seen a duo as in love as we were, but i did move, and now everything’s a mess but i’d rather try and fix the pieces with u then start again with someone new, i’m still not sure you rly want me but i’ll take the risk, i do wish i’d stop using this as a personal diary but it helps? cheers to another break! maybe after this one you’ll give me a second chance :)