Unsent messages to GABE

im sorry but i’m tired of waiting for a hypothetical future for you to want me again, i need someone who thinks i’m worth the risk, i can’t break my heart again fighting for someone who just wants me when it’s convenient, i hope you know i’ll always love you, and you were always worth the risk to me

You broke me and you didn't even notice. It's so hard to move on when I'm broken. And you're not even worth it. It's okay tho cuz I got w ur bsf (still miss u tho)

You did everything right, and I'm sorry if I hurt you. I cared about you, but I couldn't love you like you wanted me to.

if you asked me what happened with us, i wouldn't be able to admit that you broke my heart without even knowing it. all the little pieces are still on the ground, and every time you come near me you crush them more with your obliviousness. still, i will let you because you’re the only one who has ever asked for the truth.

i hate being friends. how am i supposed to be just friends with someone i’m in love with? i wish you had let me go when we ended things, i’d rather lose everything than have to sit here and lose you slowly

I swear I saw you walking on the turn near my apartment. did you think of me when you walked past my building? does it still haunt you as much as it haunts me?

You taught me what love shouldn’t be, and I regret being with you. I became a weaker person with you and I wish I’d never met you

You hurt me in so many ways, yet i cant get over you if you see this please message me at least as mates :/

it’s crazy how fast i felt content and at peace with you. i love your gapped tooth smiles and upbeat melancholy energy. we will be okay.

you make me the happiest person in the world and whenever you name pops up on my phone i can’t stop smiling every time i’m the luckiest girl in the world and i would do everything to keep you

was there anything i could’ve done to make the distance matter less? anything that would’ve made me worth the risk of fighting through it? anything i could’ve done those ten months to have made u love me just enough to really want me? anything that would’ve made u tell me not to go? anything that would’ve made you tell me we could fix it?
anything that would mean we’d be talking rn and i wouldn’t be staring at the ceiling wondering how i went wrong? i would’ve done anything. instead i’m talking to this stupid fucking screen. i miss you man.

you dont really know me but you are so amazing i wish i could be with you but im to afraid you wont love me