Unsent messages to DAVID

to be honest, no matter how many times i watch you get in stupid fights, threaten people, go to rehab and juvie. ill always go back to you because no matter how bad people think you are. you were my yellow. and i miss that

I wish you didn’t have to move away so I could tell you that even know I can’t get you out of my head

i love you, even though i haven't told you. i wished for you on every shooting star. you make my life a better, fuller place. i think about you when i see the beach or a sunset. you did the right thing. i'll always be here to talk.

I knew that it was ending, but I didn’t want you to leave you so soon because not having you is scary

hi, i've been having mixed feelings after we blocked each other, which was really random and unexpected. we were (are?) really close friends (like you said) but now i'm confused on why we're like this rn. but at the same time i feel relieved because i don't have to worry abt what our topics should be and stuff (i guess it's because i still like you a little bit and i go crazy abt every little thing) i really want to talk to you and clear up on some things but i guess it's my pride stopping me from doing so and causing me to wait for a text from you. either way i miss texting you and that lil nickname you used to call me which always gave me butterflies. ik i barely start the convo and put little to no effort sometimes in our convos, but i smile at each and every text you send. i wonder if you'll ever hit me with a "sup" again and i hope you do. imy

tbh, you're the only one I've ever spent this much time and effort on. I feel like you're losing interest. But I could never.

i miss you more than anything. i wish it was the right time for us. i will love you for forever. please don't forget me.

i wish we we friends instead of dating when we didn't know each other. i was forced and idk why i listened to my friend. i regret it so much. i feel like we would of been such good friends. sometimes we talk but usually that's because of school since you're in my class this year. i just wish we can be friends because i miss the friendship we had. you're never gonna see this and i'll probably never tell you :/

este color simboliza el hilo rojo que nos une. es hora de responsabilizarme por esto, no me voy a dar por vencida. merecemos la pena. intentémoslo de nuevo de la manera que debemos. de verdad creo que eres el amor de mi vida. aun somos jóvenes, vamos a caernos y levantarnos, pero juntos. las mejores relaciones no duran porque no tienen problemas, duran porque los dos están dispuestos a arreglarlos. se que somos mas y podemos mas que todo esto. perdóname, te amo. no quiero perderte jamas.

I miss you so much. Your body and smile are so beautiful I melt every time I see you. Every time you hug me I fall into your arms, I need more of you, I need to come back to England and we need to have our special tea, please don't forget me

i miss you daves. where did you go? gina told me about what you said, and now i just wish i could get you back. i've been going to confession because i feel so bad. what happened? i need you, please

¿Mi amor donde estas? al otro lado del mundo estoy deseando volver a verte. de todos modos, te amo estúpido! Espero que veas esto porque no puedo hablar contigo, porque engañaste a mi hermana para que mi familia no me deje. Te extraño y anhelo tu toque.

I can't believe you left me for her... I thought you were my friend. You know what she did. Screw you, David.

hey mr. pope ;) you know the saying "if you love someone let them go"? well i did, but i never fully have let you go. i do love u, but we're YOUNG. when people are young and dating there's less of a chance for it to last when we're older. I don't want to date for heartbreak, and i'm just not ready for it. So I have to let you go. think about it, you can maybe meet the love of your life! i miss you so much and, wanna know what i realized? the only reason that i'm so vunerable in groups is becuase i feel safe with you. i feel like i can tell you anything, and you'll be there for me. I think about you a lot, and i always miss you. but i have to let you go. believe me, i don't want to but it's for the best. the reason why i'm doing this (even though i'm 99.9% sure you won't see it) is because I can't reach out to me. I told my parents and they're upset, and someone else wont let me. i miss you so much and i wish we could be together, and im sorry if i hurt you. that was never my intention. i was just trying to push you away so we wouldn't get attached and this wouldn't happen. im literally not allowed to talk to u, just us, so hi. praying for u and wishing u the best. i just needed to clear it up bc SOMEONE told me u were talking bad ab me behind my back. but i know u didnt mean it, you were just upset. so its time for the both of us to move on, and even though you'll never see this, wishing u the best with your writing

im so mad at myself for not opening my eyes before. ill wait til u feel ready to talk again. im sorry. i miss you so much

I still remember the first time I talked to you. We were paired together during team uno and I was scared to tell you a winning strategy.

it was all way too perfect until i fell sick and this disease changed my life, our life. i lost you but at least i'm slowly winning this fight.

it was all way too perfect until i fell sick and this disease changed my life, our life. i lost you but at least i'm slowly winning this fight.

We're talking again. I've missed you. A lot actually. I hope things work out, even if you dont ever have feelings for me

You know what hurts me the most? The possibility, that slim chance that we could have been happy. Together.

No one compares to you. I don't think I will ever be able to love again. You made me the happiest, but after you broke my heart you left me feeling lonely. I lost my best friend and the love of my life. I hope we'll meet again in the future, as I believe you are my soulmate.

i love you more than anything. you will always be my first love. my heart breaks knowing that we can’t be together.

You arent my first love, but I think I liked a fictional version of you, and when I found out more about real you I fell.

i see you in the pool. with your beautiful hair and your gorgeous eyes and glasses that fit you perfectly. i notice you david, everything perfect about you. look, i was wrong to go with the other guy, and i was wrong for everything else i have done to you to make you forget. but i cant shove my feelings until they don't exist. yes nathan and aiden are cute but they're not you! nobody's as perfect and sweet and kind as you. i wish you took a minute to notice me like i notice you.

i'm sorry i could never talk to you. you make me so nervous, and seeing you with other girls on our team made me lose hope. it's okay, I know they can make you happier than i ever could.

I respect that you hate me. I hate me too and I am sorry for being so toxic. Purple bc its my fave color.

I loved you, I loved you so very much and distance killed it... You made me feel the things I always wished I had felt, and then I felt them go away because we weren’t together anymore, and I sobbed... I sobbed to hard about this but it was the right choice. Maybe one day we’ll find each other again but for now this is goodbye, and distance is a bitch.

I want to talk to you a little bit more. I want to think back to the times we had. It was nice reconnecting, I miss it.

It’s weird that i still think about you. but you were the first person i ever loved, but you hurt me so much. i hated you for so long but now i just want you to be happy even though you never apologized or helped me. but please if you find her, treat her well and love her the way i loved you

Thank you for the happiest time of my life! I haven't been as joyful as I was with you since we ended things...

hi! i know you don’t know who i am, but i really really like you. like i’m obsessed with you. i know that i don’t have a chance since you have a girlfriend, but i’m not gonna stop trying. one day it will happen, and i believe that. thanks for reading :)

Your hurt me and took something dear to me that you didn't deserve. It's been years and you still can't get over the fact that I did something for myself by leaving. So you've tried to make my life miserable ever since by talking shit, and spreading your infectious lies. I could tell people about your dirty little secrets but I choose not to because I won't expose secrets like that. Fuck you

I think I’ll always care about you. I’m still in love with the idea of what we could’ve been. Te extraño y siempre vas a estar en mi corazón. Se que muy pronto nos dejaremos de ver. Mis ojos van a extrañar ver tu mirada y tú sonrisa. Mis oídos extrañarán tu risa y mis labios extrañarán tus besos por siempre. Cuídate y se feliz. Te Amo.

Do you remember that time you sorted out all of the blue skittles, dropping them into my hands one by one because you knew they were my favorite? I think about it all the time, and I’m not sure you even remember. No matter how this goes, I’ll always remember the attention you paid to the smallest details. I know I was loved. I hope you know that, too. You’ll always make me feel like glitter.

Wow I think you’re gonna be my biggest heartbreak and that’s so scary. I want you to love me as much as I love you.

i wanna say i miss u sm & ill always love u. u were everything i ever wanted & you’re perfect. i love every single thing about u. ur eyes & smile are my favorite. thankuu for made me feel loved & special. i really wish things would work out but it didn’t & all we had is gone now but ill never forget about u. ur the loml. i miss us but u moved on so fast like damn, i thought u never actually loved me.

i’m sorry for leaving and not getting to say our actual goodbyes. i would take you back in a heartbeat. but thank you for showing me what love is.

I would take you back if you could take back the last ten months. Now I have to doubt something that worked so perfectly.

Thank you for everything you did for me , I dont regret anything despite our ending. Hope we find our way back to each other one day i love you my first love

i don’t know what u are to me yet if ur a first love or if ur even a friend. cus even tho i know ur using me i still smile at ur texts and think about you 24/7 because out of everyone i know you make me happy for some reason

I honestly hope that you like me and we work out and we can just have a good relationship. If it's not meant to be then we'll end up figuring it out.

p.s I love you.

You know what hurts the most? The fact that I thought you actually liked me and I had a chance with you...

Thank you for showing me what real love is, I’ll never forget what we had. I’ll always care for you and wish you the best

You are a fact - like the sun rises and sets. A cord I can never cut. A bond that is - even if we’re not. I’ve stopped trying to fight it.

I often find myself thinking about what could of been and how things could be different if certain things didn’t happen. I want to apologise for my mistake. I’m writing this because I need to and I need to find closure. I’m hoping you never find this and not like you will know if it’s you or not but if it resonates with you then that’s enough. I wish nothing but good things in your life. I want you to find happiness, find love and stay strong through everything you may go through that may be challenging. I care about you so much, you got me through a really tough time with a past relationship and I fear I would still be there if it wasn’t for your help. I need to let go of the thought of you and I will, in small steps, because a part of me doesn’t want to let go. I miss parts of you in my day to day life. You’re such a free spirit and I admired that in you; either that or it was just lust. That’s the thing I often find myself thinking on, do I still actually have feelings towards you? Or is it just because I never got past the ‘lust’ side of things. I wish I could text you this but I can’t. And you know what kills me? I’m in a relationship and still find myself thinking of you. I don’t want to. I suppose I just want you to be happy and find your bliss. All the best David, maybe we may bump into each other in the future.

I just wish you cared enough to try to fix our friendship. I'm tired of being the only one who cares what happens to us.

I love u. I know u love me too. But ur not right for me. You're bad to me. I thought we were soulmates and one. Now Im not so sure

I coped by writing poetry about you...but my words are finally drying up. I think you’d be sad if you knew what that means.

I'm sorry. For every single thing. You said you'd wait, and I said not to. I miss what we almost were. I'll never forgive myself for fucking it up. I ruined the last chance we had, and I'm sorry for doing that to you.

I still think of you. I've moved on, loved others, but I still find myself wondering what I could have done differently. If our paths ever cross again, I'll always be open to a friendship with you. You are something unique. Never forget that, David D.