Unsent messages to DAVID

I wish we had met a different time, maybe then?

you hurt me really bad man and i just hope you see one day that nobody will care about you the way i did. you gave up on us way too easily leaving me to believe nothing was ever real at all. thanks for everything

It felt like I could’ve made a home with you built with the lights out in a storm and creaky hardwood floors

Dad, you were a coward, as I now realise, but I will never stop loving you. I’m glad you found peace at last.

you are the absolute love of my life. i cant wait to live and see the world with you right by my side

You’re like a drug to me and I am like a ray of sun to you. You are my only drug and I cherish every second I have with you, every moment and every breath of yours is meaningful to me.

This one was my fault... I know I am sorry i hurted you and even though there is no "right way" i managed to pick the worst one... You don't deserve this i really hope you will realize that one day!!

Dos almas tan complementarias no pueden estar separadas. En la próxima realidad prometo hacer las cosas bien.

You’ll never see this, but I still love you. I left you mid last year and ever since I’ve only wanted you. I miss you. Us.

Thank you for being apart of my life. I will always value you. But fuck you for lying to me. It hurt. It hurt a lot. we both messed up and I'm sorry

Hola, solo quería decirte que eres lo mas lindo que me ah pasado y que eres el mejor, te quiero tanto y eres muy importante en mi vida, sabes... Me haces mucha falta, contigo me sentía tan bien, apesar de los meses que han pasado, te sigo queriendo como la primera vez, extraño ver tus lindos ojitos rasgados, extraño abrazarte, extraño sentirte, extraño hablar contigo y hacer cualquier locura, pero todo paso por algo, sabes... Yo no mentí al decir que eras el amor de mi vida, me hiciste ver las cosas de diferente manera, hice tantas cosas por primera vez, por primera vez me sentía bien con alguien, te amo y siempre lo are, siento que no voy a poder a amar a alguien tanto como te eh amado a ti, te extraño, pero se que tú estas bien y que no me nesecitas, solo quiero verte feliz aunque ya no sea conmigo, te deseo lo mejor del mundo, y como te prometi siempre. Hablemos o no, siempre voy a estar para ti. Cuidate

Se que nunca tuve el valor para decirte que no me tratas como quisiera como lo que me meresco y se que me echo la fuerte por años y no sabes el daño emocional que me has probocado

Despite the other girls and you're history, I was still here, supporting, listening and love you... and you didn't care anything, you just left me go.

i pushed you away and it was my fault, i know. i can still that light in your eyes, i can hear your laugh, and the way you look at me to see if i’m okay, pretendind you don’t care. it doesn’t matter, however. you are there with her, you are not mine, never was. i hope you are happy:) see you in another lifetime-

My first love, I loved you ever since we stopped playing that silly childish video game and started texting more on social media. When I first heard your voice, I was mesmerized. We don't talk anymore. You don't even know what I look like but your smile stays in my head and one day I hoped to hug you. I miss you we should talk more

i knew those 7 years of friendship weren't a waste of time. Hope you feel better now, also go to class.

The only way I felt your love was through how you hurt me. I now can’t trust what anyone says to me. I can’t believe I’m loved.

Si algún día llegas a leer esto al cual considere amor de mi vida, déjame decirte que extraño, que fuiste lo mejor que me paso en mi vida, y que si llegas a regresar algún día aquí te estaré esperando con mi amor mas sincero que te he podido dar.
Mientras tanto se feliz con la persona que llegue a tu vida a mejorarla, tqm! Estaré muy orgullosa de todas las metas que cumplas mi chico bonito :(.

Why did you never make time for me? You never prioritized me. Yet I still love and miss you. It’s been 9 months.

Even though you have probably finally figured out that you love me and I still hold a special place for you, I love myself too much to let you hurt me again without being 100% sure you won’t disappoint me.

I realise now how toxic I was because I couldn’t love you back. I regret not digging deeper...I’m sorry

you hurt me in the worst way possible, but i catch myself wondering what you are up to randomly.but then again, you’re a monster.

I can’t stand in my room anymore without feeling your presence. I can’t think about love or I feel ur hands on my body. I can’t let guys close to me or I flinch. That’s because of u. U took advantage. Fuck u

We didn’t get enough time together. I love you and I hope you’re doing well. I’ll always be your forever girl...

I miss the way I used to feel when I looked at you, I miss your smile, your eyes, everything about you. I didn’t want to hurt you. I still love you. I can’t get over you.You helped me find myself. You were the only good thing in my life and I did not realize until it was too late. Come back to me.

I was so blindly in love with you i didn’t realise how unhappy you made me. Yet still i would give everything to live it all again.

I gave you everything. My heart, my love, my attention. Through thick and thin you showed me your truly colors and left me. You are what made me realize that love isn’t enough.

I wish you just told me you were over me. I didn’t want to find out by seeing you with her and how much happier you looked. I went from being cared for and appreciated to irritating and unwanted. Thanks for the fleeting moments. I’m still grateful. I felt real again, just for a second. You helped me learn my self worth by showing me what isn’t right. Good luck with graduate school.

I still look for you in every blue
F-150 I pass. I wonder if I ever cross your mind like you do mine

helo lol . You are so stupid! Do you know that?? You make my heart flutter everyday at school but it hurts to see u with other girls. I know u like her but stop looking at me like that cause I will get the wrong idea. Just wanna be happy but how am i supposed to if I see u with her. Kinda delusional but what am I supposed to do. Im doing every evening scenarios about you you dumbass.

david, hi. this summer will make 2 years since i've last seen you. i hope i can see u again, but part of me hopes i never see u again. please know who this is. i think of u all the time. (lets go play that board game we played ;)

I still remember the way your lips felt on that night that you returned from England. I remember the fort that we built and the wine that we drank. Your drunken piano melodies will always be my favorite.

I was running so fast after you. I felt unnoticed, my heart was confused for months. I questioned everything I was doing and just kept pouring and pouring. I believe you are a good person. But you aren't the person who I wanted so badly to understand my heart. You couldn't understand me and how to prove your words. Im hurt.

I remember the green jacket you wore all the time. Green is my favorite color now. I wish I could hug you once more. Or draw on your hand like I used to before. Or look into your eyes, that happened to be green as well. I miss you, and I always wonder if you think of me as often as I think of you.

I trusted and loved you. You made me feel worthless. I deserve better and I know that, you can’t fool me.

No sé, como verbalizar, no sé ni como escribir, las ideas se desvanece al pensar en ti.
Te Ame, Te Amo y Te amaré.
Eres Suficiente...
Sólo cree en ti porque yo creo, creo en ti.

Do you still think about me? I remember the night we met, it was like a movie but i’m glad i don’t love you anymore. you were not good for me...

it’s almost been a month and I still haven’t washed the shirt I wore to your house. your scent still lingers..

i dreamt about you last night, we were happy. the only people in the world. its sad because i know that if you texted me right now i would drop everything, and i hate that. i hate that you make me feel that way. its not your fault, you dont know what you do to me. A

i fucking hate you for what you did to me. you promised you wouldn’t tell anyone and yet you did. it’s almost been a year and you still haven’t taken responsibility. i wish i saw back then that you were just using me. i pity whoever’s life you’re currently fucking up

i love you so mucuh its crazy but i feel like you dont love me anymore , or at least in the same way anymore , i just want you to be honest with me

i’ve never felt this way about another person before. certainly not as strongly as i feel for you. i hope you’re in my life for a long time, even tho i don’t think i’ll ever be good enough for you. your laugh, your smile, your eyes, i love everything about you. you’re my favorite person. every second i’m with you isn’t enough time and when i’m not around you you’re all i think about. i’ve never been great with showing my emotions or telling people how i feel but i hope you know just how much i care about you.

I should have never told you that I liked you. I should have just kept quiet and stayed good friends who only share class notes. I played it off cool when you rejected me but I was so hurt. And I hated myself because of that. You told me we could still be friends, but you distanced yourself from me ever since, and I don’t blame you. But thanks to you I know to not fall head over heels for every guy I meet, and that being friend and staying as friends can be the best that can happen. Thank you.

you messed up, you said it was me and you fucked everything up. you screamed in my face saying it was my fault. you used me and manipulated me. you were the one who called me a bitch, stupid, and weak. you were the one who mentally and physically hurt me. fuck you.

Por mas que no he querido aceptarlo eres la primera persona de la que me enamoré, contigo pasé momentos increíbles pero también dolorosos. Nunca sabré que mierda signifique para ti, pero a pesar de todo te doy las gracias por la ilusión que me hiciste vivir, no estábamos destinados a estar juntos, yo merezco mucho más de lo que tú me podías ofrecer. es imposible que leas esto, pero como un buen inicio de mi 2021 te quiero decir adiós definitivamente, gracias por esa amistad que me brindaste, por ese cariño. ADIOS

youre my person and youre sorta all i have right now so sorry if I'm clingy and i know i said i was gonna work on getting over my feelings for you because your girlfriend and you are very happy and very in love but i just wish i was in the same room as you right now but I've decided to not be sad and i think its working

I liked you for so long, I think I got to a point where I was in love with you. But you loved everyone except me. You never truly noticed me, or even seemed to care. It hurt, sometimes it still does, but I think I'm over you now. I love myself more

I miss you so much. I wish I got to hug you and say I live you one last time. Me and mom are having a really hard time right now. It's been 2 years now but it feels like it was yesterday when I found out I had lost you forever. Everyone misses you so much. I love you, please watch over me. My mental health is so much worse now and I no longer wanna be here. I just wish I could hug you or hear your voice again. I don't think you understand how hard it is being here without you. I lowkey feel like I lost a piece of myself when you died. You mean so much to me and I hope your having fun in heaven B. Happy New Years!

i love you more then words can explain. even though i’m not good enough for you, you were more then enough for me

I miss you :(
If we don’t get back together, we can always try again in the next lifetime. You’ll always be my special favorite person.