Unsent messages to DAVID

i have liked you for so long, but i’ve been too scared to tell you. You will never understand how much i do genuinely like you, i just need to know how you feel about me

I don’t know why you did what you did. You knew I was already in a relationship and you still forced me to kiss you. I didn’t want you to do it and I will never be able to forget it. At least my boyfriend is understanding and supportive. Now I have a child and am engaged to him. He’s 100 times better than you. He actually cares.

i had to tell my parents that you died. its better than trying to explain why you left when i dont even know.

Thank you for showing me kindness when my eyes were full of hope. But I didn’t know you’d take the hope when you left me and never came back.

I had to tell you how I was feeling, get nothing from you, and move on to realize that I never actually loved “you”. I loved the idea of you, and what it could give. Which ultimately I was doing myself. I learned how to be vulnerable and beyond that, I realized I had feelings for someone else that you were getting in the way of. I’ll cherish the fun we had while still knowing I am forever grateful I never actually dated you. You would’ve hurt me in ways much worse than you did. You were blind to what I could’ve given you, and I was blind to who was actually giving me love.

ik we were kids and ik u only texted me when u were high but it felt so right talking to u. idk why i felt embarrassed to tell my friends we talked. i miss u. ik we talked the other day but it wasn’t how it used to be. who knows when we’ll talk again. i haven’t seen u in almost 3 years but i drive past ur house like once a week. i miss you and i know you’re the first boy i’ve ever loved.

I hope she gives you everything I couldn’t and it hurts knowing you talk to her the way you talked to me. even though i’m over you now. if that makes sense?