Unsent messages to DAVID

Hey i know u hate me now probably? But i love u still after three years :( u will be the boy i will talk about to my daughter when she gets her heart broken. I will forever love u no matter what.

honestly I hate you because I still miss you. why did you pick her it’s been a month and I’m still here waiting for you and I would do anything to get a text that you miss me back. I just miss u bro and you don’t feel the same way anymore.

Me encanta ver cómo progresas y lo feliz que te mantienes en el proceso, llegarás muy lejos lo tengo claro.

I still think about you sometimes and regret how things ended between us. I hope u can still forgive me

Te equivocaste al elegirla a ella, yo me equivoqué por no luchar por ti, aún así gracias por todo lo que no sabes que me distes?

I love the way ur sitting next to me in class smile at me saying im stupid and making jokes with me abt our classmates

Something is drawing me to you. I keep thinking about you. I can't explain it, but I hope we'll find our way to each other. Thank you for opening up to me, even when we didn't know each other well. Im sorry I was so guarded. I wanted to tell you how I really felt. I hope I get another chance to.

llevo un año queriendo decirte unas cuantas cosas y nunca he tenido el valor d hacerlo. con esto no quiero otra cosa más q hacerte crecer como persona, pq a pesar d todo el daño q me has hecho t tengo cariño y quiero lo mejor para ti. no sé q te habrán hecho en el pasado para q trates a las personas q dices querer d esa manera, pero no es la manera. si t han hecho daño (q espero q no) no lo vas a solucionar tratando a los demás como t han tratado a ti. lo q deberías hacer es darte cuenta de q eres mejor q ellos y quererte A TI, y ya después intentar querer a otras personas. si sabes q no puedes tener una relación estable pq esa es tu forma de ser, no tiene nada d malo, simplemente no ilusiones a otras personas q te están queriendo y lo están dando todo x ti, para luego hacerles daño. quiero q sepas q aunq lo nuestro no fue para tanto (al menos para ti), para mi significó mucho. gracias a ti he aprendido a quererme más q nunca, tanto fisica como personalmente, pq ya x el solo hecho de q yo nunca le haría algo así a alguien, sé q soy mejor persona de lo q tu serás jamás. pero tambien me has hecho mucho mal. me cuesta confiar en las personas y creer q de verdad pueden llegar a quererme bien, no como lo hiciste tú, y x eso pierdo oportunidades de conocer a personas q podrían aportar muchas cosas buenas en mi vida. te digo todo esto no para q digas "ay pobrecita" y sigas con tu vida siendo la persona de mierda q eres, sino para q te des cuenta de q con lo q haces puedes hacer mucho daño, más del q tu te crees, pq la faceta de ti q le dejas ver a la gente es muy fácil d querer. t pido q no le hagas más daño a tu novia (más del q ya le has hecho) pq estoy seguro de q ella t quiere (al menos a la idea q tiene de ti) y no se merece q le hagas el daño q me hiciste a mi.

i will never forgive you. years and years of trauma and all you had to say was “sorry”. fuck you david.

Those moments of butterflies, of sweet thoughts, they meant the world to me. Thank you for all of that, see you never!

You were my first crush, I never said the words but i hope you knew and I hope that didn’t scare you. I’m sorry I fell for what I idolized you to be in my head. Wishing you the best.

Desde que te conocí me encantas, me encanta tu sonrisa, tus ojos, tu humor y básicamente todo de ti, seguro que no llegamos a ser nada... Pero solo quiero desahogarme y decirte que...te amo, realmente te amo, te necesito y me encantas, es increíble cómo puedes hacer que mi día mejore, da igual como de mal esté... Tu siempre lo mejoras.... Ojalá llegáramos a ser algo, pero se que es imposible.... Te quiero David....

you were one of my closest friends and I did everything I possibly could to help you. i just wanted you okay. that's all I wanted. you thought I got on your case just for the fun of it but I genuinely cared. i just want to see you happy and safe.

David my love, David my life.
I look at that cold room and i cry.
We were friends right?
Then, why do you treat me so poorly?
Tell me what happened.
Tell what changed
I'm here, forever.
I'll let you stay in my arms for the rest of my time, but please say something, or i will leave you forever David.
Anyways, thanks for teaching me how to love.

compi ,esto;
últimamente me pongo muy feliz cada vez q me mandas un mensaje. es más, siempre espero lo que me digas y mi día cambia pero, sabes, te siento un poco distante. mi felicidad cn tus mensajes es igual pero, no se, no se como decirte esto y más encima que me gustas y que me encantaría conocerte. eres una gran persona, siento que en cualquier momento me dejarás de hablar pero te deseo lo mejor.
sigue dibujando, haz mejorado bastante y me gusta ver tu progreso.
de verdad no se como decirte esto.
jaja.
te quiero mucho.
una pregunta, te parezco inmadura? o ya perdiste el interés por mi?

I still miss you, and I think a part of me will always love you but I think I'm finally happy again. Hope you're doing okay x

Ojalá me atreviera a decirte que eres lo único que me saca risas en el insti no lo soporto solo voy para verte y ojalá decirte también *te quiero*

me fui de ti para que te sientas mejor y siigas creciendo,pero aun te amo y me duele que ahora crezcas con otra persona te amo

Te extraño tanto, nada a sido igual desde que te fuiste. me siento muy sola sin ti, se que tu ya me olvidaste pero yo te sigo amando como el primer dia que entraste a mi vida. Espero algun dia el destino nos junte de nuevo. te quiero mucho y te mando n abrazo.

you are my father, but you don’t act like one. you look at me but it feels like you’re looking through me. sorry i wasn’t like my sisters

You really dont know how much U hurt me but its alright bc I learned from it and i finally know the real meaning of love.

this is the color of your tattoo I would trace as we would lay in bed. i thought that was the safest id ever feel. little did I know I was in bed with a monster. i hope you rot. i hope the next girl gets out before its too late. Im haunted by you. Sometimes even breathing hurts.

Aunque ya pasó más de un año espero que todo te vaya bien, seguramente logres hacer tu marca de camisetas que con tanta ilusión me contaste ese día y serás un gran cantante. Confío en ti y sé que tendrás éxito. Que te vaya todo bien en la vida.

Hola, yo se que hace mucho tiempo no hablamos, pero se que en este momento tu no estas pasando por un buen momento y de corazón me gustaría ayudarte y apoyarte en todo pero la verdad no se como acercarme a ti y no se si tu me permitirías estar para ayudarte, espero que aun me recuerdes de esa forma especial como lo hacías antes.
Perdón, ahora sinceramente me arrepiento de todo y espero que no me guardes ningún tipo de rencor. Te quiero, mucho y siempre estaré aquí.

Perdón por no ser hermosa y no tener un excelente cuerpo, cada mirada y cada intercambio de palabras eran como el cielo para mi, siento no poder decirte lo que siento
Te ame pero no puedo seguir haciéndolo

Nunca podré agradecerte lo suficiente. Me enseñaste a ver colores que no sabía que existían, y que no podía ni sabía ver.
Te amaré por siempre.

Perdón por no esa amiga que te mereces. Tampoco puedo ser tu novia, y no es porque seas mala persona, aún tengo que sanar mi corazón. Perdón por leer los menajes que borraste.

we talked about what kind of dog we would have in the future... a Pomeranian Husky... i guess not uh...

I was in love of the idea I had of you.
I miss the old you and it has been very hard since you’re not here.

hi, i know we havent talked a lot but you were very nice while we were together. I hope you dont turn out so cocky in the future

i didn’t like the outcome of our relationship but, if i had another chance to have you in my life, i would take that chance without a heartbeat.

Gracias por los momentos que me diste a tu lado, me hiciste muy feliz aunque lo nuestro no pudo ser :').

No sé por qué, pero contigo me siento segura y feliz. Espero que nunca te vayas.
- Te quiero mucho, L

I'm so mad at myself for not appreciating the time I had with you , now your just the boy that once took over my life but now is taking over my camera roll. Cause all I have now are the memories and nothing else other than OUR songs. I love you so much I just wish I had the guts to tell you in person when I had the chance to.

i’m gonna be honest idk if i can be your friend when i still have about these feelings for you. i know you need me to be but i can’t. everything’s changed. i just lay in bed wishing i gave you enough love to be confident that we could’ve worked. the only thing that mattered to me was our connection. i mean yeah the distance got to me sometimes but in the end it was worth it. i don’t know what to do. i don’t even know if i should be talking to you. you make me so happy but you’re the one i think about when i cry. the only thing i know is that i reallyreallyreally love you.

you asked me how i was today. when i had told you that i haven’t been feeling the best, you told me that you were always here for me to talk to.
what’s funny is that i almost fell for it again, allowing myself to think that you cared.

i’m scared to see you again. i’m scared I’ll feel all the same things & you’ll feeling nothing at all.

i wish u would’ve said u wanted to make it work bc u couldn’t lose me. i really thought u couldn’t lose me. i was so wrong

Im so sorry. I wish i could take back everything. You caught me at the wrong time.. I still love you, and god damn I miss you :( ngl I wish either we never ended or we never met

you were the start of many more heart aches to come. I just wish i had a sign or warning just to give up back then.

i’m so sorry i pushed you away. you deserve so much better, i’m sorry that it was the wrong time, and i know you hate me now but i hope one day we can do it all again. you were one of the only things keeping me alive and now your gone it hurts. i want to message you and tell you how i feel but i can’t because you don’t feel the same. i cant be selfish and keep holding you back. i’m sorry.

I love you and I'm sorry for hurting you. But I needed to realize it was hurting me too. We were meant to learn from each other but not end up together. I hope you find your happiness and feel better. I deserve to be treated with respect.

Can you just leave and not make me feel like I’m the only one who ever made mistakes? Just leave please.

Though we're separated, I think about you everyday and I hope you're thinking about me too. I still love you. The only way I get to see you again is through my dreams. I remember one of my dreams where I saw you standing right in front of me and we locked eyes on each other. You opened your arms with a huge smile on your face. I smiled at you too and ran into your arms. It felt as if we never left each other. I miss everything about you.

You used to be my yellow. Now you just make me blue. I haven't seen you in ages. I hope you miss me too.

I never knew words could stab you and drain your soul from within you but even after all the hurt, I'd still pick up the phone if you called because I think that (maybe) I still love you.
Romans 1:18

I still think abt u. Not as frequently since I don’t see u anymore, but occasionally, when I lay in bed, I start thinking abt all the what if’s we could’ve explored if we were together. I’ll probably never meet u again and u might’ve stopped thinking abt me but

when we first met i thought you were really cute but i didn't really pay attention to you, but after a few months i noticed that i was getting more and more attached to you. and now...well now its been 3 years and here i am sitting in bed writing and thinking about you, remembering every little moment we had together, remembering every night i stayed up crying my eyes out because i wanted you soo badly but you didn't even notice me. you hurt me. more than once but here i am. for some reason i am never able to get you out of my head. i still get stupid butterflies when im around you or even just thinking about you. i get excited whenever i see a notification from you, and i smile like a weirdo every time we talk or when im around you. i don't want to like you but for some reason when i start moving on and see you i start to fall all over again. yea you are just a stupid boy but idk... i just want to wake up one day and know that you are mine and i am yours. i just want to wake up one day with a good morning text from you. and yes ik 3 years is a lot but i still have hope for some reason, even tho deep down i know you will never come back and never feel the same way but oh well. but i hope that one day you will open your eyes and realize what you left behind. i hope you realize that no girl will ever want you as much as i did. i hope you realize that no girl will care about you as much as i did. maybe one day you'll come back for me. maybe one day you will realize how much you hurt me. maybe one day you will want me just as much as i wanted you. but just so you know when that day arrives i won't be there, ill have other better things to worry about. i just want you to know that you meant a lot to me. oh well maybe one day lol.

why weren't you open with me? Why confess your feeling and then disappeared without saying anything or WHY DATE ME IF U DIDNT LIKE ME AND ONLY PITTIED ME!!!! Do you know how horrible I felt after that...

dude ive liked you since the 4th grade can you stop being a dick to impress ur friends and like kiss me or some shit