Unsent Messages

I often find myself thinking about what could of been and how things could be different if certain things didn’t happen. I want to apologise for my mistake. I’m writing this because I need to and I need to find closure. I’m hoping you never find this and not like you will know if it’s you or not but if it resonates with you then that’s enough. I wish nothing but good things in your life. I want you to find happiness, find love and stay strong through everything you may go through that may be challenging. I care about you so much, you got me through a really tough time with a past relationship and I fear I would still be there if it wasn’t for your help. I need to let go of the thought of you and I will, in small steps, because a part of me doesn’t want to let go. I miss parts of you in my day to day life. You’re such a free spirit and I admired that in you; either that or it was just lust. That’s the thing I often find myself thinking on, do I still actually have feelings towards you? Or is it just because I never got past the ‘lust’ side of things. I wish I could text you this but I can’t. And you know what kills me? I’m in a relationship and still find myself thinking of you. I don’t want to. I suppose I just want you to be happy and find your bliss. All the best David, maybe we may bump into each other in the future.