Unsent messages to SEAN

You make me really happy. You have no idea how much you help the people around you. always stay. i love you dearest x

i have not stopped thinking about you since we met. i can't see myself with anyone else even if we are just friends. i have never met a person like you, we are the same person but complete opposites. you are my favorite person even if i do not show. i care about you and want to see you live a happy life, even if that isn't with me.

I never got to tell you but I liked you for 5 years on and off even though you liked jazmin know that I will always support you and that I love you

Sometimes I wonder were you really my first love or was I just too young to have experienced real love yet

it’s never been a case of not wanting you in my life. i’ve been through some hard times and i didn’t want you to worry about me. if our lives are truly better apart then that’s the way it has to be. i wish only the best for both of us. ily

i have a crush on you, i dont know you or even know your real personality behind a screen but i guess i like the way you type

you’re not even my fl but i loved you so much . you hurt me so bad & you put me in such a horrible place . i’m so glad i left you alone.

sean, we were young but still so special to each other. it seems hard to believe but i feel like our love was real. if it wasn’t, why do i still miss you, after all this time? when i said i hope we could be friends again someday, i meant it.

I wish I could love you like you loved me. I wish I didn’t have to leave. I guess we only needed each other for those three years.

when I opened my eyes after kissing you the world was in grey, but looking at you brought back all the colour

I kinda like u but idk how to say it, and I don't wanna ruin our friendship. I'm just scared of getting rejected.

i’d never felt this way about anyone until i met u. u made me feel special and protected and showed me what it is like to be loved. i just wish u would’ve have given us the chance.

merry christmas! this time of year i always think about you. well i think about you all the time, just especially this season. ew feelings are gross. missing you a little extra this year. i hope your laughter is genuine, truly.

What we had wasn’t even worth a conversation and I’ll never forgive that. Losing you left me broken but I know it needed to happen. I just wish it didn’t happen like that. Take care.

hi sean. i miss you and i think of you everyday. i just wish i could go back in time to relive that december with you. i hope you're doing okay.

i really thought you loved me, which i think is the hardest. if you didn't love me, why did you even bother getting with me??

you are so good at fooling me. i thought you cared. you were so good at acting as if you did. or maybe you viewed me as a friend, regardless you should've told me. why didn't you tell me?? you lead me on. leading me on was not the right move.

we could've still been friends despite our breakup, but the fact that you went after another girl not even a week after we broke up hurt me. i don't control or own you, and i understand you can like who you like, but you couldn't have waited?? you couldn't have waited to jump back into another relationship???

i'm going to get over it though. i will be okay, it's just going to take some time. i just wanted to hear how you made me feel. i hope she treats you well though. because i know that you deserve happiness. keep working for your dreams, i believe in you.

you really made me happy i didn’t show it but you were one of the reasons i looked forward going into school i miss you and i took our time for granted

i was finally enough for someone but you're 3000+ miles away. you saved me. since i never told you this, i'll tell you now. i was falling in love with you. im going to miss you. im gonna miss how whenever i laugh you tell me how much you love it. or how when you get excited you scrunch your nose and shake your head from side to side. or how before we ended the call, you would kiss the phone. i have never met someone so genuine and loving. so kind and caring. so accepting and gentle. you're everything i could ever ask for, and i to you. this hurts more than so many things. i feel like ive already lost a piece of me. the best piece of me, yet we haven't known each other for long. sean taylor i am falling in love with you

i pretend to be someone else when im with you. my feet are bleeding walking on eggshells for so long.

This was the colour of the sky when i took the train home after spending the night in town with you. I can never hold back the tears everytime I go for a run at 5am and glance upwards only to be reminded of what it felt like when I still believed that you loved me

I love you thank you for always being there for me I miss you and your humor I wish you didn't live so far away

i lied. i said i moved on but i didn’t. i not only love you, but i’m still in love with you and it’s the most painful thing having to watch it all fade. i know i have to though. what i would give to feel you close to me again

You keep me around because I’m your guilty pleasure. I keep coming back because I’m emotionally attached. In the fact end our demise will come from guilt and pain. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do and I’m scared to ask you what we have.

I often wonder if you think about me like I think about you and not In a sexual way but a “wow she’s unbelievable” sorta way!

I have soo many unspoken words. I have to resist the urge in telling you how I feel and it drives me insane. You are also all I think about and always in my head it also does my head in but things are far too complicated to even say anything so I feel it’s better to reply bluntly hoping you know exactly how I feel. I can feel the tension when were together and I know for fact you do. You’ve told me but I’ve no idea what you plan is. I feel like it’s just sex for you. Like once we’ve seen each other naked and what not we’ll be strangers and I don’t want that!!

I wish things weren’t so complicated. I wish I could feel your skin and I wish I could tell you how I feel! I think about you constantly too.

hey bestie

last semester was really hard for me bc i felt like i had no friends but i’m really glad i had you because if not i’d be depressed. i’m glad we can always joke around or ft whenever we’re bored even if we have nothing to say. you’re a really good friend and we need to hang out soon so come home lol. idk what if do without you but i just really appreciate everything you’ve done for me and you’ve literally done sm without even knowing it. anywaysss i’ll ft you later today lol -your bsf juliet

after our first kiss you held me and told me you never wanted to lose me, but I ended up losing you. I miss u

Maybe you still think of me in the way i do of you. Perhaps we'll meet again when we're both ready and more mature. i wish nothing but the best for you.

i hope one day we’ll be able to rekindle the special friendship we once had. i miss you so much, and i really wish you were still here to make me laugh and to tell me all of your amazing stories. i really hope you’re doing well :)

dear sean,

i know i probably don't mean to you as much as you mean to me and that really sucks, because im falling for you even though i already have one, but i cant help it. your just so amazing, your so sweet, even though sometimes your not. whenever you call me beautiful i remember it and replay it in my mins 24/7. it kinda sucks that you dont call me that anymore, that you always ask why i'm bored and calling him, that you never text me first and so on. i understand that i'm not important and im probably just some side chick but why'd you have to mean so much to me. i literally told everyone about you, my best friends and my family. your just that important to me. every time i call you, it's always me asking and you always leave me on read and it's so darn annoying like if your losing interest or think i'm annoying just tell me. it's not that hard. i know it may hurt my feelings but i can take it.

i liked u for five years. u probably knew bc i made it pretty obvious. u were my first love. and i think ull always have a special place in my heart. we don’t talk anymore but i hope ur happy and doing well. ill always love u.

hi, you have no idea how much I miss you and how you make me feel all warm and happy inside. I'm sorry that I'm scared, I just don't really believe in love...

every time someone breaks your heart it breaks mine. i hope some day u realize how much i care abt u. if you see this just know that im running out of time, i cant sit around waiting forever, it hurts too much, i need an answer.

my head hurts from thoughts filled with you. i want to hear your laugh and i want to feel your lips and i want to be your best friend please just say yes

even tho i will probably always feel connected to you (& your family) i respect that you didn’t have a place in your heart for me after all. i wish it didn’t take so long for me to figure things out. i still don’t regret any of our memories together. and just so you know, you were a great first boyfriend.

It would have never worked but I truly felt something deep for you. I will always wonder if you felt the same.

I miss you, I really do. It looks like you’re better now and I’m happy it’s just that I can’t take my mind off of you. I hate that.

i miss you more than you’ll ever know. we seem to have missed our chance and i just haven’t been able to find my way back to you. even tho i’ve tried. i wish you could be the one to find me. i need you.

hi. i miss you, and i still love you after all. i have never once thought about breaking up. i love you.

we were best friends for 2 years and now we don't talk, ive loved you for years. i still remember learning your favourite song which we would always sing together. i miss you so fucking much.

you’re not who i thought you were. you’re cold and you’re kind of an asshole. i don’t think you have the mental or emotional capacity to love a woman like me. it was nice while it lasted i guess

I trusted you with everything, we talked everyday, now I'm even lucky to get a whole face snap. I miss you I really do but you probably don't miss me

Thank you for realizing that I’m not actually okay when I say I am, u seem to be the only one to notice.

Why did you have to progressively treat me worse then act surprised when I said I wasn't happy anymore

i messed up and didnt mean to like you lol... i do tho :I so ill say that here since i can never tell you i fell for an online friend haha. thanks for showing me the bands i love now and talking to me til unholy hours :)

if i had the confidence i would have said something, because i’m sure you feel the same, but then quarantine happened. so here’s to what could of happened.

I find satisfaction in you being unable to forget all of the pain you caused me. You better treat her right this time.

when i first texted you i didn’t know you were going to take such a big toll on my emotions, life, and feelings. although i’m glad i texted you, i’m also sad of what we have become so far... i miss us being on ft all day and night on the weekends, going to sleep otp waking up to you snoring lol, the little things to make me feel better abt myself. but now it seems like things are slowly fading, i feel like the things you pulled me in to make me like/love you; you stopped bc you thought you were able to keep me just by stopping what uou did that made me the happiest girl, i wish you knew how that made me use to feel genuinely.

You were not my first love, nor I am unsure if I will ever reach a point in my life were I do find it. You’ve been on my mind for years and i can’t seem to make it stop although I try desperately for it to. It’s funny bc i don’t want to be in a relationship. Look at me I’m a mess, but daydreaming seems so nice. I think that I’m reaching a point where things may start brightening up for me. For right now I wish to be alone with no loneliness. I hope you’re happy w her. She rlly is Heather. I just can’t help but wonder if I ever crossed your mind.