Sometimes I wonder were you really my first love or was I just too young to have experienced real love yet

I'm sorry I was so crazy to you. I was dealing with a lot. I did really like you and will always have good memories of our time together. I hope your happy in Cali.

I never got to tell you but I liked you for 5 years on and off even though you liked jazmin know that I will always support you and that I love you

talking with you at the desk is my favorite part of each day. i cant make it any more obvious. like me back plz

i have not stopped thinking about you since we met. i can't see myself with anyone else even if we are just friends. i have never met a person like you, we are the same person but complete opposites. you are my favorite person even if i do not show. i care about you and want to see you live a happy life, even if that isn't with me.

I really do love you and it hurts to know your drifting away , I think about you all the time but I try not to cry everyday.
You meant everything to me I want you to know and I will never stop loving you xxxx my seany boy

you were my first crush! and you left so soon, now I find that we're both athletes and I hope- pray- to see you again at the olympics :)

I sometimes wonder about what life would have been like if we didn’t lose what we had. Looking back I realize it was special. I thought we’d always be there for each other. And then it was gone. Do you ever miss us? I know you said you have regrets about how things ended up. I do too. I’m sorry we didn’t talk and make things better. I hope we get a chance some day.

Sometimes I think of how we used to be. I think of the way you were comfortable with me, more than anyone else. I think of the jokes we would make. I think of how I admired your smarts and the way you thought. But then I remember that you changed. You took jokes too far and valued your pride more than me. I think we had something, but we aren’t the same people anymore.

i will never understand how you claim to always love me but yet let the love we share slip through your fingers without a fight when the love got too difficult to hold.

you were my best friend you helped me get through all my tough shit i don't know exactly what i did to make us separate but i would like to find out soon maybe

hi, you have no idea how much I miss you and how you make me feel all warm and happy inside. I'm sorry that I'm scared, I just don't really believe in love...

I rly think my mind is playing tricks on me. We don’t talk anymore. Like at all. But...is it possible you are trying to reach out to me? I’m literally crazy for thinking this. There is no way. You stopped caring about me a looong time ago. I’ll just take this time to wish you well, Sean. I rly hope you’re doing well.

why did you cheat on me so much. You just used me and cheated on me but i believed that you loved me bc that’s what u said :/

you’re not who i thought you were. you’re cold and you’re kind of an asshole. i don’t think you have the mental or emotional capacity to love a woman like me. it was nice while it lasted i guess

why wasn’t i good enough to fight for? i fought for you every damn day. even when you hurt me, i still wanted you.

i liked u for five years. u probably knew bc i made it pretty obvious. u were my first love. and i think ull always have a special place in my heart. we don’t talk anymore but i hope ur happy and doing well. ill always love u.

i lied. i said i moved on but i didn’t. i not only love you, but i’m still in love with you and it’s the most painful thing having to watch it all fade. i know i have to though. what i would give to feel you close to me again

I know it’s wrong of me but I wonder if you knew how much I really liked you? I miss you, far too much.

5 years and I still feel the same. I can't cope with the 5 years you have with her. I've always tucked you in a pocket of my hurt and you are slowly burning me.

You broke me. You won't stop trying to torture me even though it's been months. Leave me alone and let me live my life please.

Im sorry for needing time for me, I wish that you didn’t take that as an opportunity to find someone new though. It hurts, but I understand. We said we would always be there.It was my fault for ending things, I just wish we stuck to our word. Love you always & more after that

You were an asshole, whatever. Actually you were so detestable that after you cheated on me I started to realize how much of a loser you were. Also you're a ginger. So fuck you.

I love you thank you for always being there for me I miss you and your humor I wish you didn't live so far away

the person i thought i knew for 2 years doesn’t seem to exist. i don’t understand how you could lie to me for so long

its not fair that you dont miss me when all i think about is you, your hugs, words even the hurtful ones, your smile. why couldnt you just care about me

dear sean,

i know i probably don't mean to you as much as you mean to me and that really sucks, because im falling for you even though i already have one, but i cant help it. your just so amazing, your so sweet, even though sometimes your not. whenever you call me beautiful i remember it and replay it in my mins 24/7. it kinda sucks that you dont call me that anymore, that you always ask why i'm bored and calling him, that you never text me first and so on. i understand that i'm not important and im probably just some side chick but why'd you have to mean so much to me. i literally told everyone about you, my best friends and my family. your just that important to me. every time i call you, it's always me asking and you always leave me on read and it's so darn annoying like if your losing interest or think i'm annoying just tell me. it's not that hard. i know it may hurt my feelings but i can take it.

i hope she brings you all the happiness i never could. she couldn’t be more different from me, so that probably helps. turns out i wasn’t nearly enough. i never was and i’m sorry.

You make me really happy. You have no idea how much you help the people around you. always stay. i love you dearest x

you lied to me. and then you left me. you made it painfully clear you didn’t want me in your life. it felt like a death. i wasn’t allowed to love you or feel the same way about you. but, secretly i still missed you. i miss you still.

I thought you were the one, but it turns out we’re not meant to be. If I could take it all back, you bet your ass I would.

i know you'd never send one of these to me or anything. sorry i cried earlier btw, you just got to me.

This was the colour of the sky when i took the train home after spending the night in town with you. I can never hold back the tears everytime I go for a run at 5am and glance upwards only to be reminded of what it felt like when I still believed that you loved me

i pretend to be someone else when im with you. my feet are bleeding walking on eggshells for so long.

why did you text me the other day after so long, i hate to think that there's something you aren't telling me but i know that there is

how did you let go of me so easily after so long, that's what hurt the most. i just don't get it. i don't feel anything anymore, i've let you go but it took me a while, how did you do it so fast after everything we've been through? i don't want you anymore but i don't want anyone else either, i'm completely numb to emotion towards people. i just want someone to make me feel again and you ruined that for me. i can't trust anyone because you made me feel unlovable and for that i hate you.

Thank you for everything. Although things didn’t work out, I’m still happy we got to do what we did together

My own immaturity has hurt you immensely in the past and I look back on it now and regret everything.

yeah yeah ive already sent one of these but ig i gotta do another since the feelings came back ;-; thought i was content with being best friends but nooo im a greedy idiot... sorry. I like you. its really obvious so if youve noticed, *sorry.* keep ignoring it lmao, ill work on getting rid of the feelings. then again, you're really dense... anyway, dont ditch me :> i promise ill crush my emotions

i was finally enough for someone but you're 3000+ miles away. you saved me. since i never told you this, i'll tell you now. i was falling in love with you. im going to miss you. im gonna miss how whenever i laugh you tell me how much you love it. or how when you get excited you scrunch your nose and shake your head from side to side. or how before we ended the call, you would kiss the phone. i have never met someone so genuine and loving. so kind and caring. so accepting and gentle. you're everything i could ever ask for, and i to you. this hurts more than so many things. i feel like ive already lost a piece of me. the best piece of me, yet we haven't known each other for long. sean taylor i am falling in love with you

I really wish I was brave enough to say something, anything, because I’ve never felt safer being myself with someone than I’ve felt with you.

when i first texted you i didn’t know you were going to take such a big toll on my emotions, life, and feelings. although i’m glad i texted you, i’m also sad of what we have become so far... i miss us being on ft all day and night on the weekends, going to sleep otp waking up to you snoring lol, the little things to make me feel better abt myself. but now it seems like things are slowly fading, i feel like the things you pulled me in to make me like/love you; you stopped bc you thought you were able to keep me just by stopping what uou did that made me the happiest girl, i wish you knew how that made me use to feel genuinely.

when you said your last goodbye i died a little bit inside

i lay in bed in tears all night

alone without you by my side

but if you loved me, why’d you leave me?

Do you really not feel anything? After all those late nights, the inside jokes, the subtle touches. You showed me attention first but then when I pursued it you turned cold and indifferent. You can’t tell me you didn’t feel anything back there. I just wish you could be honest with me about how you feel and what happened.

One day you’re going to realize I loved and could’ve loved you the best and I don’t know if I’m going to be there for you to suddenly take back. I understand you dont want me or circumstances aren’t right but I truly wish things would go back to the way they were before I confessed. Why can’t they? Just tell me that. Why are you being so cold now.

I find satisfaction in you being unable to forget all of the pain you caused me. You better treat her right this time.

i hope one day we’ll be able to rekindle the special friendship we once had. i miss you so much, and i really wish you were still here to make me laugh and to tell me all of your amazing stories. i really hope you’re doing well :)

Maybe you still think of me in the way i do of you. Perhaps we'll meet again when we're both ready and more mature. i wish nothing but the best for you.

if i had the confidence i would have said something, because i’m sure you feel the same, but then quarantine happened. so here’s to what could of happened.

i messed up and didnt mean to like you lol... i do tho :I so ill say that here since i can never tell you i fell for an online friend haha. thanks for showing me the bands i love now and talking to me til unholy hours :)