Unsent messages to NATHAN

i loved you a lot. and i don’t know what you’ve told other people but our relationship wasn’t my fault. nathan you were my first example of love, you were a really shit example. i don’t like you anymore and i’m over us but i’m sorry of the other girls that you’ve dated and told lies to.

part of me prays you know about this website just so you see these, but the other part of me knows you don’t. i miss you though. come back to beaumont ?

thank you loving me at the same time i was trying to learn how to love myself. you are the reason i am where i am today, so thank you.

God o god do I love u dang I wish if u ever saw this you would hope it was me who wrote it but Ik that’s just fantasy

Hey, it's me again. The thing is sometimes I do miss you or the things we had. We always talked about our future together and dumb other stuff but it was all your fault that shit couldn't happen. You're so fucking ignorant and by god I felt like when we were in the "relationship" you were probably fucking some other bitch cause I did catch you "flirting" or some shit with a "friend" Why didn't I just end it there? That was strike fucking three and the way you talked to my friends/ responding to my friends and not me made me grow suspicion but of course again I gave you another chance. After we broke up, it seemed like you didn't even care and go ahead and played Roblox maybe that was your "getaway" but when I saw that, it made me think you couldn't give two shits about the relationship we had. Where the things you told me bullshit because now looking at it, it seems like they were. I gave you a second chance and you screwed that up as well. My god, why did my dumbass give you another chance? Maybe I was so fucking in love with you I brushed it off. "I really like you" well it didn't fucking seem like it. You were yet to prove that. I just can't believe I talked to my parents about you, they knew your name and how much I adored and love you. Now, your name isn't even brought up anymore. I hope you're happy. I told all my insecurities and secrets to you... and all of that just to go to waste. Again fuck you, I fucking hate you and I wish I never wasted my time on you.

i dont want to love you anymore. i want to get over the feeling of want. we had a good ride but is over now. though my heart tissue may always have an NM written deeply into it, one day it won't belong to you. I just watched the vow and they re-fell in love but i don't want that with you. a new love, i want our old love but i can't get that back and i think i'm just realizing that. i think i'm officially ready to move on. goodbye my handsome boy, don't forget about me.
-your gorgeous girl

A little part of me still thinks we’ll end up together, but you chose her. You’ve changed and I hate I don’t have you anymore.

no matter what happens, i’ll always love you. i know my baby is still in there. i’ll wait as long as i need too. i love you nate.. my forever.. the love of my life

you're my first real love. i don't think i knew what love actually was until i met you. i could look at ur eyes until i die.

wow you act so invested one minute then the next your practically ghosting me. bro it hurts ok. you deserve the world, and I love you heaps but honestly I hope you get hurt as much as you hurt me. i think I'm finally over you

we fell in love last year, but this year changed the both of us. you were my first love and ill care for you forever.

I should've given us more time. I think about everything we could've been if I didn't end things early. I miss you. Bv

I think you were the first guy I ever really liked. But you moved away and we lost touch and I can't help but wonder what would've happened if you'd stayed.

i hope one day you'll realize that i am the one for you. that i always have been. and when you do, just know i'll still be waiting for you.

i think i am over you. i really do, but if you called me at 3 in the morning, i would pick up in a heartbeat. i still love you but my feelings are just so confused right now i dont know.

I'm with him now but I still can't move on and I can't forget. It hurts to think how easy it is for you.

what is your goal here? you acted like you wanted me then switched up. i'm not playing this game again.

i want to fix things, i would rather fix things over and over again with you than ever be with anyone else, im in love with you and im so sorry, i hope we can figure things out

i hate the version of me who was so desperate for your love. Now you come back and that girl has gone

We’ve been through hell and back together. I act like I don’t care but deep down i’ll always love you

I really hope your family is healthy and happy and that you’ve all found Jesus. I really hope and pray for that.

I still want to tell you every little thing that happens. I wish I still could. I wish you hadn't ruined everything. I really wish i could forgive you

I know you dont care anymore but I miss laughing at our stupid jokes together so much Nate. If you ever see this please text me.

I still love you and a part of me will always love you beautiful, but it is time for me to let go and move on x

Why did you have to lose feelings? I wanted to give you the world. I never did anything wrong. I tried my hardest, but I guess I wasn’t enough for you.

You made me feel so stupid. Why did you make me fall for you then you decide I wasn’t enough anymore? Even after I told you how I don’t trust people and you go and hurt me more. You should have never said you liked me in the first place. Then you go and talk about other girls straight to my face. Then have the audacity to get jealous that I spoke to other boys only in a friendly way.

our friendship meant the world to me, but that was before i knew what type of person you are. im not mad at you. im disappointed that you decided to not change for the better. i miss who i thought you were. i guess this is how the universe wants us to be.

did it make you feel better? it didn't make me feel better. i miss you. come back to me. i see you in the stars.

she played your favorite song. her friends knew it by heart. i knew it too but I couldn't sing it. not without you singing it to me.

fuck I miss you.

i love you more than words can explain. i love everything about you. you’re perfect. i just hope one day you’ll be mine again. but for now, i’ll just wait for you, till the end of time.

god it’s so weird falling in love with you, it’s happening so fast and i both love it and hate it. you make me feel on top of the world & i want to make you feel the same way. i want us to work out and i’m gonna do my best to make that happen

I don't know why i'm writing this, but I feel the need to. I had a chance to talk to you a while ago and you didn't take it. That really hurt me, you really hurt me. I hope you're happy with the new life you have. You told me that I was your favorite person. I guess that was just a lie though since you called me annoying. I don't love you anymore and I don't miss you anymore either. I moved on. I hope that you can get over whatever is going on in your life that caused you to not want to talk to me. I deleted your number from my phone by the way so don't bother texting cause you won't get an answer. Goodbye forever and thanks for the memories.
Sincerely, your redheaded ex favorite person

you are my first true love
when i'm in your arms i feel the deepest tranquility and the softest love that has ever touched my soul
i'm excited to bring our dreams to life together because i want you to be the last love
i know i can take it there with you..
A

I still think about you and what we could've been. How different my live could've been. But I'm happy I let you go to find myself and my true friends. I wish we could be good again; but I doubt we ever will be.

i submitted one ages ago. if u see this then TALK TO ME cuz i am too nervy to say shit. i mean, ur my neighbour now and we havent spoken in like 5 years or 6 idek. Play minecraft with me. I will learn any game u wanna play just TALK TO ME BRO
from r

I sacrificed my own happiness for you, lost weight for you, lost myself, stuck up for you, and you’re too naive to realize, I’m dying in front of you, and I’m just as much to blame because I still love you

after we officially started dating i was ecstatic, i was so lovesick that i failed to realize that we weren’t in it for the same reasons. you see, i was in it for you. you and you only, you were everything and more, the only one i saw myself with, the one i’d spent so many sleepless restless nights thinking about. the amount of time i spent focused on you more than me is unbelievable. i was so caught up in the ideation of you and me, and this perfect relationship that i made up in my mind, which didnt even exist, i didnt realize that you truly didnt love me. you were bored, you didnt really love me like you said you did, but i was naive and i believed anything that came out of your mouth, i was so so stupid to let you become the only source of happiness for me, because when you finally left it broke me. for months and months i was shattered, broken beyond repair. even now im still shattered. so thank you, you were a lesson learned, im not thankful for you, im thankful for the lesson you helped me learn when you left.

i'll never stop loving u. u made me smile when no one and nothing else could. i wish u were mine forever.

i didn’t like my name until you said it . i didn’t like my body until you made me feel confident . i love and miss you so much .

Even though you didn’t have the maturity to be anything more than my best friend, and even though you hurt me, I’ll always have a place in my heart for you.

i’m so sorry for hurting you. but you manipulated me to get what you wanted from me and then you left..

ok so get out i dont like you and ur literally like awful. homphobic and transphobic and idk how you support trump because hes literally racist what. anyways i hope i forget about you, and jonathon too yall were weird.

I miss you so much. I wish I could have spent more time with you annoying you with Disney binge watches. Gone too soon. Everyone misses you so much and it sucks knowing you left feeling unloved by so many people. Love you always, can't wait until we meet again.

i miss u and it sucks, u trated me horribly in the relationship but i still want u. Ive always wanted u, when u were going thru hard time and when u were at ur highest. you only wanted me for nudes and sex. you didnt care abt me when i was at my low, you left me when i was at my lowest

thanks for showing me that all im worth is my body :) go fck urself, stop coming back to me when ur lonely, u only come back bc you know ill give u the attention, but u dont miss me

As much as I love having you in my life again, and as much as I love hanging out, I guess I’m struggling to draw a line between mates and something more when it comes to you. Which is why I think I might not be able to keep this up and be just mates… and I’m really really sorry.

i miss you. right person, wrong time, i think. i believe we'll reconnect someday. at least, i hope we do. i wish we'd had more time.

I don’t have the guts to talk to you about this but I really never feel like you love me. You don’t treat me like a girlfriend and I know that I’m your first but I just feel so unloved. And I still feel like my ex was the only person who ever has truly loved me. That mindset is partially my fault but it wasn’t there until you started treating me like I don’t matter to you... You not caring has caused me to feel like I have no chance at love ever again after I lost my first love. When we almost broke up I cried but like sometimes I’m confused if I should or not because I just feel so so neglected... I just want someone who loves me and doesn’t have to try to show it, they just do.

Si tan solo no me hubiera alejado, no hubiera sido tan cobarde e inseguro....Sería yo él que estarías mirando con amor en tus ojos y no a él...?

i miss being your friend. Im still not over what happened and its been a year. I don't think you care.