Unsent Messages

after we officially started dating i was ecstatic, i was so lovesick that i failed to realize that we weren’t in it for the same reasons. you see, i was in it for you. you and you only, you were everything and more, the only one i saw myself with, the one i’d spent so many sleepless restless nights thinking about. the amount of time i spent focused on you more than me is unbelievable. i was so caught up in the ideation of you and me, and this perfect relationship that i made up in my mind, which didnt even exist, i didnt realize that you truly didnt love me. you were bored, you didnt really love me like you said you did, but i was naive and i believed anything that came out of your mouth, i was so so stupid to let you become the only source of happiness for me, because when you finally left it broke me. for months and months i was shattered, broken beyond repair. even now im still shattered. so thank you, you were a lesson learned, im not thankful for you, im thankful for the lesson you helped me learn when you left.