From: ABC
To: myself
Date: December 28, 2020, 7:23 am
im really toxic to be a relationship with someone. i could have no feelings towards them at all and be with them for years. i would feel to bad to end things and feel no romantic or emotional feelings. i like the idea of intimacy and the length of the relationship. i will love you, just not be in love with you and i hate that im like that. it breaks peoples hearts and there is no point of getting into a relationship if you dont see yourself with them in the future. we told eachother that we like eachother, but when i did that, it hurt the person that i loved the most. we're now talking and i think im regretting it. i like them, just not in that way anymore. i may get into a relationship with him because i dont know how to tell him i dont want to date him. than it may last years. and thats just years of hurting the other person that i love the most.
