Unsent Messages

I need to go somewhere. Not run away not die not anything just somewhere, somewhere that nobody knows. Somewhere where nothing is painful. Somewhere I can feel free and happy. Somewhere that does not exist. A perfect place for me. A universe where nothing is alive but me and nature. A place I can run and cry. Fly and lay where I want. A place I can fall in love and never get hurt. A place where all my worries just melt away. Where i can yell at the sky at the top of my lungs and no one can tell me otherwise. A place I can sit by the river and listen to music. A place I can fall, a place I can lay in a big field of dandelions and look at the sky and just let those feelings out and fall asleep. A place I can sing at the top of my lungs and sound horrible, but no one will hear me and say stop. A place I can be who I want and do what I want. A place where I can run and run and run and never stop because I do not have to. A place I do not have to worry about being a girl because of the men in the world. A place where I can wear what I want. Where I can go out and explore or take a walk at night without having to be scared, I am going to be kidnapped or killed or sexually assaulted. Where there is no school to stress me and no mom, dad, siblings to yell at me or make me feel worse. Somewhere, anywhere but here. A place I can finally breath. Where I can wear the prettiest dresses and the nicest shoes and walk around and feel like my life is complete. And as If there is something to live for. As if life was just a piece of cake. As if I just could let go.