sorry i didn't live up to your expectations. i hope being your perfect little doll was enough for you until you got bored of me and gave up. i told you my dreams and you said they werent good enough.

You were the person who I wanted to show the best sides of me. I wanted to be you and do everything you did, I loved to watch you work. Now I hate my own face which is a spitting image of you and I’ve become the very thing I hate the most. You.

Not my first love, but definitely my first heartbreak. You taught me love is more important than your own children. I hope you one day realize it.

I’m sorry I was such a brat...I miss you so much..I wish you where here with me mommy...it’s getting harder to do it everyday but I hope you would be proud of the person I’m becoming...I made it to 18 for you. -Love aways and forever Faithy

U really know how to traumatize people especially ur kids. But I think that has todo with the fact that u have ur own trauma to work thru.

why do u hate me so much. i love you with my entire heart yet you never stop calling me a disappointment

Why didn’t you do more to help me you were always eager to help him why not me? I always knew he was your favorite so I guess that explains why.

Why did you choose him over me? I'm your child, I thought you would always take care of me. I miss the old you

you hurt my feelings a lot and you don’t care about my feelings and it kinda hurts and i just want you to care about me lmao

alr so i actually want to leave ngl i want to leave and move with ky she treats me way better than you ever did and ever will tbh i can’t wait to turn 18 so i can leave this stupid fucking house y’all literally treat me like shit and i’m sick of it and you don’t care ab anything dad says to me even tho yk it hurts and when i was telling you ab what zijo and mirzet said you didn’t care even tho i wanted to cry i feel really strong for never snapping at you like all my friends do when they are mad at their parents but just know i really hate living with you and i never want to see you again after college

i wanted to end it all last night. leave you forever. but you came in while i was sleeping, kissed me on my forehead, and told me you loved me. you don’t say that often, but you saved my life. for now..

If there is no god, know the day I die I lived through heaven...and that I gave it hell and even tho it hurt, that’s living.

You were supposed to be there for me when I needed you the most. You broke me more than you will ever know. I hope you’re happy

You were my first love, mom. But you never taught me how to love myself. But How could you? You never once wanted to be you, for your entire life.

17 years ago today you held daddy’s hand and left this world. I will forever miss you. There’s so much I wish I could say to you. Every time I see sunflowers I know it’s you. I love you mom

Mom I love and appreciate you so much, I may not be the best daughter but I’m trying my best I wish I could pour out all my emotions to you and I wish I could take all the pain away from you, I hear you crying yourself to sleep and I’m so sorry that you have to go through that I wish I could take it all away from you...I’ll always love you mom

Sorry im not good enough. Sorry I cut myself. Sorry i felt the need to do that and you assume its for attention. Go ahead send me to fucking military school because im such a monster but you made me this way. Why are you such a bitch. You tell everyone I have a great fucking life and then wonder why i have so many mental illnesses. I cant wait to get out of this house and out of your life. And you saying you didnt do anything wrong then there wouldnt be a reason why i want to leave at 14.

I know you have good intentions but you are toxic. Red nail polish is not inappropriate and teaching a 7 year old that is fucking gross.

you're so strong. i love you forever. you deserve so much more than what you've been given. im sorry he's such a douche. im sorry i cant do more for you. youre my rock i love you endlessly.

I'm sorry for making your life so hard lately and i'm sorry for pushing it too far. I wish I was a better kid and I'm sorry I'm not. You may not be the best parent, but you deserve better then me. You might blame yourself at first and it is your fault . I hope this eats you alive, I really do. Yeah I'm a shit kid, but at least I didn't force my kid to experience mental health issues at the age of 9 just because I couldn't realize that I was a fucking problem like some people. Dad has told you, my brother has told you, and now I have told you how awful of a person you are. You've ruined our lives and no I'm not being overdramatic. A kid my age shouldn't have to worry every second of the day because I'm second that if I breath to loud you'll yell at me. I'm sorry and even though I'm saying these shitty things I love you.

"it made you strong" i was just a kid i shouldn't have been taking care of my little sister i just wanted parents to be around

mom, i love you, but you hurt me. you gave me a tough childhood. I try to think of the happy moments, but the dark ones cloud it. i'm sorry, i wish i could love you with all of my heart.

i wish you would have listened to me when I told you how I was feeling the first time because I've never felt worse then I do now

thank you for being the best you can be for me. you're truly an amazing parent. im trying to become more open to you about my mental health but its hard. its hard to explain and i don't want to worry you. im sorry you've been treated like shit by a lot of people, including me. im still growing up and say stupid shit to you i don't mean and i hope you understand that. thank you for being so understanding and not being a crazy strict mom, i love you very much.

how tf do you not notice the change in me? Literally its written all over my face that im not okay. please take a hint, i want help.

i know ur being strong for us- but sometimes it’s ok to b sad..and sometimes, lately actually, i feel that way too

i know ur being strong for us- but sometimes it’s ok to b sad..and sometimes, lately actually, i feel that way too

thank you for trying to make me strong. i know you tried your best. but it wasnt good enough i guess. this isnt goodbye, just see you later. well if god still loves me after i do this. just know it wasnt your fault. the world is too cruel for me. love you mommy.

No, this isn’t a romantic love. But a love that I needed, and never received. For that I will never forgive you.

No, this is not a romantic love, but one I so desperately needed. I loved you mom, unconditionally. And the conditions nearly killed me, but still I loved you. Even when I felt so unloved. I don’t think I will ever be able to forgive you for making me feel unlovable.

You scare me, I hate that you control my life and I’m trying my best in school I’m not like Mia, I can’t get straight a’s without studying. I need you to support me and be able to talk to me when I’m upset you shouldn’t be a main source of my stress and add to my depression. I feel worthless and like a slut when you say some things to me and you don’t know how much it hurts, I’m happy with him I’m sorry u don’t love him but I do and you have to accept that, I want to be with him. I’m so scared of you and this isn’t how it’s supposed to be

U make me feel like crap but your mom mother so i have to love u but u think so low of me and it hurts your words do hurt your so un reasonable

i just wanted you to care. i needed space to breathe but I couldn't with you constantly yelling at me.

i might appear fine, but i'm falling apart inside. i wish you would wake up and realize i'm not your happy child anymore.

i looked up to you. i hate you at times but i care and love you so much i wish you would show some affection.

Even though you told me to starve and kill myself and showed affection by only buying me things I still love you.

You were supposed to love me and keep me safe, but instead of that you broke me. The first person I ever truly loved.

you see these arent really for my first love but they are to the people who have hurt me and sadly youre one

I hope one day you realize how much your opinions hurt. if you knew about me you would hate me and I feel like I can never be myself

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect daughter you’ve always wanted. I’m trying my best but I just can’t do it anymore. Ever since I started online school I lost all my motivation to do anything.I just want to leave this world so I can finally be happy. I’m scared of failing you.

imagine if it was my last call, but you didn't answer just because you thought i was a bad daughter...

I want to hate you but of course I never will, I know how much you've been through. But wouldn't you realize that words have big effects

i wish i could just crawl into ur bed and hug u. i wish u would tell me everything is going to be okay. i wish u loved me and im sorry for disappointing u. im trying so hard but im so tired. i dont know how much longer i can do this

you break my heart every time you yell at me, your actions tell me just how much you hate me, and i miss us being friends

I'm sorry if I annoy you when my depression gets the better of me. I don't mean to. I'm trying. I swear.

what changed from when i was your empathetic little girl, into calling me a sociopath. i did nothing to you

Hi mom! I just wanted to say that i love you and that I am so grateful to you. You are my bestfriend and you are perfect

I just wanted you to smile at me, but instead, I got you to hate me. Did I go too far with trying to impress you? Because now, I cannot bring myself to do anything at all.

I'd like you to realise that I am not okay.
I'd like you to notice what I'm really feeling under my mask.

yeah,im 17 n i want to bake christmas cookies with you, yes maybe i am acting like a child, n maybe its because i've never had a childhood like other kids n i just want to do things with you like other kids did with their mothers.