Unsent messages to MOM

i wish u would believe me when i told u i was so sad. i’m trying to ask for help and ur making it worse.

Mamá:Porfa solo quiero que estés bien y pares de fingir, habla conmigo, soy tu hija, no te quieras quitar la vida nunca más, aunque ya pasó tiempo de esto lo sigo recordando y se me parte el corazón ver como no fuí suficiente.

Mamá:Porfa solo quiero que estés bien y pares de fingir, habla conmigo, soy tu hija, no te quieras quitar la vida nunca más, aunque ya pasó tiempo de esto lo sigo recordando y se me parte el corazón ver como no fuí suficiente.

fuck you. youve put me thru hell. i want to not be effected by the shit u say but i cant help it. you degrade me every fucking da y. i understand im not perfect but that is no reason to be so gd mean to me. im a kid but some how im not allowed to be one. i just dont understand

You opened your eyes to look at me today, I didn’t think I’d ever get to see your beautiful brown eyes again.

hi mom. i’m bisexual. ik u won’t accept me so ig you’ll never know. oh i like this really pretty girl. her names lavender. one day i want her to be mine mom.

I’m sorry mom, can we stop ignoring each other? It’s been 2years now and I miss you.
Now its too late

I get that now I seem miserable to you but how do you want me to feel since you have taken the most important person out of my life

thankyou for making me feel like i will never amount to anything.. thankyou for making my demons even worse... thankyou so much..

Why would you said those things about my body? Now I can’t eat, it’s hard no to count the calories of everything and I wish u could’ve told me something nice

My last words to you were “I love you night, see you tomorrow” but I never got that tomorrow with you as you passed away

why did you hurt me... I thought mothers were supposed to love their children with everything they have

I wish you would have told me how hard life was on you before i pushed you away. I didn’t know, i miss you a lot. I never said i love you did i? i’m sorry

You hurt me more than you could ever imagine, you were supposed to believe in me. It’s sad that the first heartbreak I’ve had was from you, but I still wish you the best

Sometimes i wish you didnt care as much as you do. I know its wrong, but i just want to make my own mistakes

i might appear fine, but i'm falling apart inside. i wish you would wake up and realize i'm not your happy child anymore.

U make me feel like crap but your mom mother so i have to love u but u think so low of me and it hurts your words do hurt your so un reasonable

You were my first love, mom. But you never taught me how to love myself. But How could you? You never once wanted to be you, for your entire life.

i wanted to end it all last night. leave you forever. but you came in while i was sleeping, kissed me on my forehead, and told me you loved me. you don’t say that often, but you saved my life. for now..

sorry for never being enough. sorry for being too complicated and for fighting all the time. I was defending myself from you. and I will do it till I'm gone from this house.

I love you but at times I hate you because I feel like I can't be myself. I feel like I cant tell you anything about me. You hate my friends and at times I feel like you hate me.

im sorry im a problem and not a person. you dont know that i still self harm but i dont want to upset you.

mom... im trying i really am. im not jst lying on my bed or sitting on my chair doing nothing. im actually doing work can u pls get ur facts right before coming at me. im really doing my best :( i swear i wont ever be this kind of parents. i fucking wont. i will try my best to make sure i am my childs bestfriend they wont be scared of me like how im scared of you. thats my promise.

I'll always love you and always be grateful for how much you sacrificed for me. But I don't know if I'll ever forgive you for not taking the boy who sexually assaulted me out of my life. I was only 12.

I'm sorry for being so angry most of the time. I swear I don't try to make it harder for you, although I know I did today. I am so grateful to be able to call you my mom, and so proud of you after all you have went through, you have still remained strong. I promise to better my attitude and give you back everything you have given me and more. You deserve it.

hi mom
you are the wisest person i’ve ever met. even though i put you through a lot i hope you know how much i love and respect you. you are one of my favorite people to chill out with. you get me. thank you for being you

Hey, mom. I'm so tired to be who I'm not. I just want to be free, have my own decisions. But I can't tell you that because it would have been disrespectful to you since you raised me all alone and I can't pay you back except to be successful. But just let me be who I want to be mom. I Love You.