Mom, you were the first person i ever loved, ever cared for, and ever missed, you have put me through hell , and im sorry but i do not forgive that, i want to so bad. Dad wants to take me, and i think i am going to let him, it is so hard to get go, i wish you would hear me, you talk down on dad and act like you are any better. I will always love you but i think its for the better that I live with dad until you get better, maybe i will be happy again, maybe not but you need to let me live my life if thats with you or not. I know you will always love me because well im ur only baby but you need to get better if not for me then for you.- your baby girl

i'm so sorry you arent happy. i love you so much please just hold on a little longer i know you can do it

Hey mommy I know I'm not your little girl anymore but if you would just check up on me every now and then you would know that I don't feel like I used to. I want to kms but I don't want to hurt you. I fell in to this really dark hole of depression in 2019 and I'm still dealing with it if I don't make it out just know I will forever love you mommy...

Hi mom you’re going to be my first love forever i know it hasn’t been easy raising me i know i gave you a hard time so many times but the love you showed me since i was born, i don’t think i can ever love someone that deeply i appreciate all you have done for me i can’t wait to go back home when this semester is over i miss you tons and hope you stay safe

I didn't eat today because I didn't want to leave my room. I asked Nana to get the mail because I didn't want to text you.

The way you're treating me is causing me close everything and everyone off i cant do this anymore you think it's helping me but its not it's hurting me and forcing me to be independent and in the long run just making me not need you.

I was 9. I told you what happened and you blamed it on me. Thank you for teaching me how to take care of myself.

thank u for letting me become independent after all the arguments u made me have with u. i will always love u just wish u loved me too :( u were suppose to be my yellow, my best friend but u didnt want to. im sorry for not being the daughter u want. im sorry im not as perfect as them :( if i could i would be someone else but i cant. im sorry for disappointing u, im just trying to stay alive each day and my school work isnt on that list, im sorry :( from the bottom of my heart i am so exhausted from the arguments. please just like me so i dont have to fear sobbing in my room cause u called me a disappointment

I wish you would accept the fact I don’t believe in god instead of making me a fool in every conversation we have about deep stuff

You never really loved me. You loved the idea of the perfect family and I was not. I blamed myself and I still do. I feel like killing myself everyday but I don't just because I want you to atleast be happy with the 'perfect family' reputation we now have and I will give as many fake smiles as it takes.

not my lover just want to rant ig ab my mom lol .words can’t explain how much your words hurt me and i just brush it off as if you said nothing . i’m sorry i don’t meet your standards , i’m trying i really am but nothing i do seems to satisfy you . i’m sorry i’m not like my brother i would just really love it if you stopped comparing us i’m trying my best . i’m trying my best to stay here every single day but yet you’re still yelling at me about dirty dishes . i’m sorry i disappoint you mom .

I dont hate you for what you did. But I do think it was unfair. I was just a child for fuck sake. I forgive you, but i cant forget.

My last words to you were “I love you night, see you tomorrow” but I never got that tomorrow with you as you passed away

I loved you, but you took that from me. You took my ability to love again, keep that part of me safe.

im sorry for being such a disappointment to you. i really tried my best but i don't see a future ahead of me.

I hate you— I hate you for all the times you said I was nothing,I hate you for putting everything before me, I hate you for watching my brothers beat me up and saying I asked for it, I hate how stupid you are, I hate you for never showing me how to love...

first loves don’t have to be romantic. i wish i would’ve told you i loved you before you decided to take your life.

first loves don’t have to be romantic. i wish i would’ve told you i loved you before you decided to take your life.

i hate you. you make me feel terrible about myself and make me feel like i dont matter. so why do i care so much what you think of me ??

why do you base my worth on superficial things like my sexuality, weight, or grades. why cant you just love me because im yours

Hey, mom. I'm so tired to be who I'm not. I just want to be free, have my own decisions. But I can't tell you that because it would have been disrespectful to you since you raised me all alone and I can't pay you back except to be successful. But just let me be who I want to be mom. I Love You.

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you are the wisest person i’ve ever met. even though i put you through a lot i hope you know how much i love and respect you. you are one of my favorite people to chill out with. you get me. thank you for being you

I'm sorry for being so angry most of the time. I swear I don't try to make it harder for you, although I know I did today. I am so grateful to be able to call you my mom, and so proud of you after all you have went through, you have still remained strong. I promise to better my attitude and give you back everything you have given me and more. You deserve it.

i’m sorry for all this shit you went through bc of me..just know i do love you and always did okay? you deserve so much more :( keep your head up queen i love you

i wish i didnt dissapoint you and i was enough for you to stay. i wish you were here right now. i really dont know what to do mom, why did you end it like this.

I wait for for the day when you realize you were the problem, that my trauma stems from you. I just wanted you to love me. I just wanted you to be happy to see your own daughter.

Black bc of all the clothes in ur closet. Are u mourning something that idk about? Is that why you’re so cold?

I don't understand how someone can be so cruel to their family. You tell your husband to leave and to take us with him. That you'll be better off without us. If you didn't want us, why did you even have us? You want your children to love you? Respect you? But then yell you don't want us and what? Except us not to hear? Fuck you, Tanya ❤️

i love you, but i wish you'd let me do my own things. i just wanna live. i don't wanna be bound to your rules anymore. i don't wanna be feeling guilty everytime i do something. i just want to be me.

i love you but idk how to show it. i hate you, but i love you. i really hate but i love you. idk how to explain it but i'm sorry

Hey mom, I'm not feeling okay. what I mean is I don't feel happy anymore. I'm just a child but so much as came through my life that it brings me down. I'm kind of thinking about killing my self. I don't really want to tho I just wanna see what goes on. I wanna know whos fake or not. I wanna get tested if I have anything wrong with me.

You say you know everything about me, yet you couldn’t realize I needed help to get off the sinking ship of my mind ;

They never said it couldn’t be a familial love. You hurt me. Just admit it and let me go. If you want me to be happy like you say you do, let me go.

i dont know why you ruined me life and act like you didnt i have felt happy bc of you since 2018 so thanks

You hurt me in a way I’m not sure can be prepared. When you found out I tried to kill myself, you told me “not to take too much” the next time I needed medicine. When I came out to you, you told me I was too young to know. You treat me like a child despite the fact that I’m 19. I love you, I love you so much, but I am afraid of you, because of how deeply you can hurt me.

I know you are cheating on my dad again i am so disapionted and you have no right to alawys to tell me what to do whith my body and my future when you have your own problems you have no right to tell i was born to dark you have no right to tell me i am gaining weight you had no right to yell at me for cry in my room saying that i was seeking fot attention you had no right to call my deppression fake and you had no right to tell my dad that i was failling my classses

i'm sorry that i'm not the child that you want and that i will never be. but i'm tired of putting you and everyone before myself. i'm tired of you constantly emotionally manipulating me into doing everything. you never loved me and it shows in every way possible, your words and actions. you always invalidated my feelings and made me feel like a piece of shit. i shouldn't be the one wanting to fix our relationship, i'm a fucking kid. my mom shouldn't be the one that i fear the most. you make fun of me for everything as if i didn't already notice and wish that it'd change. you'd say i was eating too much so i eat less and now you make fun of me and say that i'm afraid of getting fat. sometimes i wish that you would just fuck off and stop taking out your anger on me which if you havent already noticed, has hurt me in so many ways and i don't think i'll get better anytime soon. you should've gave me up for adoption since i clearly am not what you wanted.

I hope u will be an actress in your next lifetime. It just too late now. And i hope u will find very true love with maybe someone else who really cares about you, your emotions and your imagine. I will always love u, your first daughter.

You’re the first person I met and the first person I love. There’s one thing I want to tell you: you are the greatest mom ever.

I want you out of my life. Youre hurting me and all of us everyday. You were supposed to love me, not make me cry everynight. U made me hate. How can u say all this shit about me. I think you want everyone to hate me.

i thought if i said i love u enough it would make it true and it didnt. maybe i loved u once but not anymore. bye bitch

Hi mom so like you really nice to me lol nothing complain about only like a few things to complain not tha much overall your nice to now like we watch a movie every night and tha its fine ily mom ahahahah one thing is that stop comparing me to all the "clean kids"pls im 12 and do i clean like i get you used to chores when you was small ok im trying ahahah im done ly x



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Why would you said those things about my body? Now I can’t eat, it’s hard no to count the calories of everything and I wish u could’ve told me something nice

i love u sm but i think u've hurt me the most. my whole life i've tried 2 make u satisfied but it never seems 2 be enough 4 u, huh? ur words have hurt me. the things u call me circle my mind everyday, ik they're not true tho. i know who i am, i am NOT who u say i am. i wish 2 never be like u, im sorry. i also hate the fact that i came out 2 u and u cant even support me yet u can support ur 2 queer sisters. i love u with all my heart but i also hate u.

thankyou for making me feel like i will never amount to anything.. thankyou for making my demons even worse... thankyou so much..

i’m so sorry it had to end that way. i wish i could’ve said goodbye. i miss and love you more everyday.

i’m so sorry it had to end that way. i wish i could’ve said goodbye. i miss and love you more everyday.

mom... im trying i really am. im not jst lying on my bed or sitting on my chair doing nothing. im actually doing work can u pls get ur facts right before coming at me. im really doing my best :( i swear i wont ever be this kind of parents. i fucking wont. i will try my best to make sure i am my childs bestfriend they wont be scared of me like how im scared of you. thats my promise.

Mommy. I just want to cry while you hug me. I just don't want it to turn into a lecture and your judginess.

I HATE YOU. you fucked up everything and the sad part is you're so mentally unwell that you'll never know what you did.