all i want is for you to love me, please just tell me you're proud. i feel so bad for hating my friends for having a good relationship with their moms. why cant we be like that? what did i do that makes u hate me. I'm sorry I'm not enough for you, i don't know how to be. i am trying my best, you keep telling me its not good enough and i don't know how to make it enough. please just act like you care. all i want is to be told its okay and that you're proud of me. i cant do this anymore i need to be loved by my mom.

i’m sorry that i’ll never be good enough for you and that i’m not who you want me to be. i’m sorry that i constantly feel like a burden to everyone, i just wish that you liked me enough not to threaten to leave for every little thing i did.

I get that now I seem miserable to you but how do you want me to feel since you have taken the most important person out of my life

what happened? did you change or was I just too young to notice? I wanted to be you. I looked up to you. I'm disappointed in you mom. I'm sorry they both left you but don't take it out on your kids. I can't tell if I want to run away and never speak to you again or if I wanna crawl into bed with you. you hurt me. I thought I'd be crying to about boys but instead I'm crying to boys about you. you saw it and didnt even care. im done

you are pure like honey and i love you till the end of time but, our relationship will never be the same.

I hate you for making me feel worthless and undeserving of life. You ruined me and that is something I'll never forgive you for.

I’m sorry mom, can we stop ignoring each other? It’s been 2years now and I miss you.
Now its too late

fuck you for making me hate myself. fuck you and your religion. fuck you for not loving me bc of one thing i can't change.

I appreciate everyone you do every single day and I know you don’t see that but ily and hope you understand that I’m a teenager and I can be rude sometimes or get on your nerves but at the end of the day ily with all my heart and you mean so much to me.

I don’t want you to hurt yourself I know you don’t want to live but what would I do without you I can’t live without you I never will be able to please don’t leave me and my sisters no matter how bad it gets

mom
you know i love u so much. u don't believe me. i know that i never will be the perfect daughter, but i try it. everyday we fight about dumb things. but i don't mean it so. and i know that im not very good in school. but im trying it. i love this boy. hes from my school. i had never feel like this before. and sometimes i just think about him instead of learning or doing homeworke. but i will concentrate better. i swear. i love u so much! stay safe

im sorry im a problem and not a person. you dont know that i still self harm but i dont want to upset you.

once i'm 18, it's game over. i will have no contact with you and i will thrive. i'm not letting you push me down anymore. i'm not the scared little girl that i once was. change for the better or don't even bother contacting me. you're ungrateful and selfish, i want nothing to do with you. i still have love in my heart for you and that pisses me off. i want to hate you so badly because you are scum. you are fucking garbage. you treat everyone around you like shit. we are so tired of it. tired of you and your toxic behavior.

i wish i mattered to you. i wish that you treated me like I mattered. I wish that you cared about me and didn’t disown me. I wish that I had a childhood.

you've hurt me in so many ways. but i'm not sure what a lot of them are, or why they hurt so much. now we won't ever get to talk about it. i hope you know i genuinely do love you- a lot too. but i don't feel safe around you. at all. i know you'll probably never see this. take care of you and carlson. i'm sorry i'm leaving you- so soon as well.

I miss you. You're not dead, just a bitch. I miss the motherly things you do for me. Tuck me in again please.

hi mom. i’m bisexual. ik u won’t accept me so ig you’ll never know. oh i like this really pretty girl. her names lavender. one day i want her to be mine mom.

I told you I needed to leave because our family is toxic and I need a breath of fresh air, you instantly manipulated me into feeling guilty

fuck you. you have ruined my life. you have made me so fucking depressed. you don't deserve dad. your voice makes me cry. why do you think the way you do? you're one of the worst people i have ever met. you don't care about me at all. why do you pretend you do? you have made my life so miserable.
why would you do this.

You opened your eyes to look at me today, I didn’t think I’d ever get to see your beautiful brown eyes again.

Hi mom, today I didn´t go to school. There´s a note in the table. If don´t want to...don´t celebrate my funeral. Bye mom.

i absolutely hate you. you put me through so much pain and you make me wanna just disappear. you literally keep ruining my life. thanks :)
-thanks
your child.

I wish you would tell me i was good enough. i never feel good enough, all you ever do is tell me how i will never be good enough, you tell me how fucked up i am, but god damnit im trying.

I'm sorry I can't help you. I'm sorry I can't be who you want me to be. I'm sorry we grew apart, I still love you.

I know you did your best, I know things weren't easy, I know I can be difficult.

It hurts that you never acknowledged that you hurt me, too.

Mamá:Porfa solo quiero que estés bien y pares de fingir, habla conmigo, soy tu hija, no te quieras quitar la vida nunca más, aunque ya pasó tiempo de esto lo sigo recordando y se me parte el corazón ver como no fuí suficiente.

Mamá:Porfa solo quiero que estés bien y pares de fingir, habla conmigo, soy tu hija, no te quieras quitar la vida nunca más, aunque ya pasó tiempo de esto lo sigo recordando y se me parte el corazón ver como no fuí suficiente.

I wake up every day having to realize I can never hug you again and it breaks my heart all over again

I love you but sometimes you can be annoying and rude to me. Ik it’s rough with 4 kids and Tyson especially. You always yell at me though why me. Why take ur anger and stress out on other ppl than letting it out by a walk or a drive. I wish you would let me watch Tyson so you could work. You do so much for us and I just sit here all day on my phone all depressed but I have my reasons too. Ik you don’t rlly like me that much and wish I was gone but I love you and always will:(

To you, I'm still your little girl, but you lost your little girl a long time ago. You gave me nothing but trauma.

i wish u would believe me when i told u i was so sad. i’m trying to ask for help and ur making it worse.

i wish u would believe me when i told u i was so sad. i’m trying to ask for help and ur making it worse.

me dolio mami pero que voy a hacer, fabiana ya se perdono mil veces pero esta bien, ya no voy a ir a la trattoria con uds, losiento por existir

Hey mom. I want you to know that i like girls. I know how you feel about the lgbtq community. I already know you don’t support me, but could you still love me anyway?

Why are you so angry? It’s not my fault i’m here. It’s yours. You wanted me then, what changed. Did I stop being cute? Did I grow up too fast? Is a teenager too much to raise again. Maybe you should’ve only had one kid Mom. It would’ve been financially better for everyone. By now you could’ve had no kids in the house. But i’m still here. And you still had me. And you remind me every. single. day. that you didn’t want kids. I know Mom, I wouldn’t want kids either. But I still love you, I think you still love me. It’s ok if we don’t talk much anymore. In a way it’s better like this. Less fighting if we just don’t speak to each other. Sometimes I pretend like we’re a picture perfect family. But at the end of the day Mom it’s still just you, me, dad, and separated living rooms.

She got sick, and you forgot about me. And I was alone for so long, so I’m sorry if I can’t help but want to be alone now

some times.. i wish you knew how bad your words hurt. your actions. i’m in a dark place because of you

whenever you have asked me if i was alright, i’ve always lied to you. the truth is i’m so mentally and emotionally exhausted. everyday becomes harder and harder to live. i know you expect a lot from me but i really just can’t anymore

you said you were always gonna be there to support me no matter what. you said you were always going to love me. that all went away when i came out to you as bi. mothers arent supposed to reject their child the second they arent what you wished them to be. mothers are supposed to be there and lovingly support their child. no. matter. what.

You don't care about me getting better you just want me to be one of your trophies in your collection

I know you think I mess up constantly and think I don't deserve anything, but that's okay. I just hope one person can love me.

why do you make me feel so invalid sometimes? why do you make me feel like everything i do is wrong or not good enough? am i not enough? am i not a good enough daughter? am i really a disappoint if i don't get straight A's? why aren't i ever good enough?

i hate you so much you ruin so many things for me you dont let me live the life i wanna live you hold me back so much in things i love well i used to love you pull me back and hold me back so much i cant live like this anymore i just wanna leave this house full of trauma and pain and start over with people who will care abt me and will let me live my life in my own way bc im simply just not the daughter you want me to be and im sorry that i dissapoint you like that im sorry that i cant be better or cant do better im just struggeling and you and dad dont notice that im losing myself and that im falling back into a darkplace i fought so hard to get out of and you made me get back to that place so quick like how could you do that to your daughter and dont notice it like wtf is wrong with you i have scars all over my hands from nights you took it too far and i started blaming myself for the fact that you do this to me

When I was younger I had no clue of the damage you would bring. I always thought of you as my rolemodel and my sunshine. It hurts knowing that you hurt me unintentionally and I can't say anything about it to anyone. I wish you could see how much you say leaves a mark on me - damaged daughter

i never would have thought that you would ever body shame me i thought you were my person i thought you would notice i was starving myself its your fault i just wanted to see my dad you really loves me.

fuck u for turning me into u
fuck u for being the way you do
fuck u for making me not want to live past 22

you told me to take the clothes in, and the i called you to ask you when you`ll come back, and I STARTED HERING THAT YOU WERE WITH ANOTHER GUY. I HATE YOU

I'm sorry, im sorry for being a bad daughter. I love you and I know you try your best. Its me, I'm the problem and I wish I could show you that. Thank you

I try to write you letters. I try to tell you why I haven't spoken to you. I love you, but you never really loved me. You did what you thought was loving me, and you raised me; and for that, I am thankful. I don't look past that. I hope that you can get help for your problems. You will never be okay if you keep doing what you are.
I'm sorry. I'm not coming back.

I wish you understood me. When you constantly yell at me for the smallest reasons, it makes my mental health worse. You would never understand. I don't open up to you for various reasons. If only you knew what I am going through.

Dear Mom, I’ve spent over half my childhood and life without you and it feels crushing. I miss you, I hate that I cant remember you, that you left much earlier than anyone could have planned for. I wish you could have been here for me, and that you could see me graduate. But I understand that you’ve been there for me and will be there for me in spirit. I wish I could remember more than I can, but the memory of your warmth, kindness, love, and selflessness is enough for me. I just hope you're somewhere nicer and in less pain then you were in here on earth. I love you and miss you every day. ❤️