Sometimes i wish you would just listen to me. I wish i could talk to you about my feelings i wish i could i talk to you about my feelings I wish i could tell you about how i am suffering with depression. I wish i could come to your room and just talk with no judgment and you could give me advice.

I wish sometimes you would just listen to me and what I have to say It is sad that you do not know that I sit in my room at night crying and trying not to be loud while you are sleeping downstairs thinking I am ok you yell at me everyday about school which makes me mad and sad because I am trying but it is hard when I get yelled at everyday about it you yell at me about going to bed so late but I am up late because I am doing my school work because you give me chores all day to do so I do not have time to do my school work I wish you would listen but whenever I cry in front of you, you say I am a cry baby which does not help you call me lazy which does not help either all you do is yell and do not help me I ask for help for school and you say maybe you should listen and you do not help me which does not help me learn this is is why you should just listen to me when I need you to but no you do not.

Sometimes i wish you didnt care as much as you do. I know its wrong, but i just want to make my own mistakes

I forgive you for everything, but I just want to know you are sorry, or at least that you never meant any of it.

i hate your guts, you broke me to the point where i love you but i want to throw up when you touch me or try to be funny with me and im sorry but you told mark that your OWN FUCKING BOYFRIEND didn't touch me when I talked to you about it before you calling him so why, WHY DID YOU SAY I LIED WHEN YOU DID IT YOU FUCKING SCUM I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS I HATE HOW YOU SMILE AND I HATE HOW YOU CARE FOR EVERYONE ELSE'S KIDS BUT NOT ME, MY OWN FUCKING BROTHER WHO IS YOUR KID FUCKING RAISED ME AND TAUGHT ME SHIT, NOT YOU SO STOP TAKING CREDIT, YOU GAVE BIRTH THEN LITERALLY GAVE UP

I'll always love you and always be grateful for how much you sacrificed for me. But I don't know if I'll ever forgive you for not taking the boy who sexually assaulted me out of my life. I was only 12.

You hurt me more than you could ever imagine, you were supposed to believe in me. It’s sad that the first heartbreak I’ve had was from you, but I still wish you the best

this summer you started my eating disorder the second you said i should loose weight before i try a bikini. i was skinny then and i’m painfully skinny now

why do you love her so much? she isn’t her anymore you have to let her go she hasn’t been herself for years and she’s never coming back it’s hurting me to watch

i hate you, i hate what you’ve done to me, you made me feel like the bad one, like it’s my fault when it actually all yours, you made me this way and i will never forgive you

I wish you would have told me how hard life was on you before i pushed you away. I didn’t know, i miss you a lot. I never said i love you did i? i’m sorry

i did it again mom, i'm sorry
i'm really sorry but you don't know how it feels to live with anxiety.

your crazy yelling at me at 6:30 am over a damn water bottle. you bought me an expensive ass one and i can’t take it to school and i said okay no problem and you flip out and scream for what i mean come on wtf is wrong with you

I need everything to stop, I need a break from life and just have some peace and I need you to understand you dont know shit about what's happening in my life. yeah, you have been a teenager too, but we're not the same! I'm trying SO hard to make you happy, but you don't see i'm dying inside and can't do it anymore

i wish you cared about me the way mom’s care about their daughter...you shouldn’t have said those words to me.

I'm sorry I'm not the person you desperately wanted me to be. I'm sorry for everything I did to you, everything that hurt you so bad. I'm so sorry for everything.

sometimes o dont understand why you don't love me. why you can't try tp understand the things that i go through. the mental battle i have to fight everyday just not to die. i just want you to be there for me.

i know you try but sometimes i just want everything to go away. i know you just want us to be happy but idek what that feels like anymore.

I miss you more than anything. I wish you never had to go and that I could've grown up knowing a woman as amazing as you are. You were the epitome of a strong and classy woman. Say hello to everyone up there for me. I'll see you again one day mama

you weren't my first love (obviously) but you hurt me more than anyone ever could. repeatedly. and i somehow forgive you, which makes it hurt all the more when you do it again. I wish we could be better, and I wish you weren't like this. I'm tired of trying, of attempting to make you something you're not.

you provided me with everything i ever needed and love me but i cant seem to be comfortable around you and i hate myself for it

why did you hurt me... I thought mothers were supposed to love their children with everything they have

I know you say that you love me
But I know that you don’t love who I’ve become and wish I could be different.
No one wants a fucked up daughter, I know.

i told you i was depressed and all you said was "oh so you think im a bad mom?" all i wanted was a hug

You destroyed her, and now you've turned to me. Get away from me. Please. I'm not as strong as she is.

sometimes i wish you would let me live. youve forced myself into growing up too young. sometimes i just wanna live, and b a teenager. im only a freshman and u want me 2 worry abt college

you are huring me so bad and your blind to it. i’m always scared to go home and it’s getting to much. i’m trying not to break but i have no home anymore. all i ever wanted was to be enough, but i guess that was to much

I’m sorry mom. I’m sorry that I’m not that strong girl I used to be. I sorry that u always have to worry. I’m tired of acting ok or u saying I’m overreacting that it’s just a phase. I just want everything to stop, please... please

I’m sorry mom. I’m sorry that I’m not that strong girl I used to be. I sorry that u always have to worry. I’m tired of acting ok or u saying I’m overreacting that it’s just a phase. I just want everything to stop, please... please

Sometimes i wish u would be proud of me ,atleast for a sec. I'm sorry for nothing beimg your perfect daughter but i'm trying. Really. I wish i could come home only once without getting told how useless i am. I am sorry for not being able to kiss or even hug you. I'm sorry. I guess i should've jut aborted me when u tried.

Please just love me. I promise I’m worthy. All I want is for you to love me. Please, mom. Please love me back. Please.

mom, i wish your love was unconditional. you used to say that you'd love me no matter what, but I'm so scared you'll find out that I'm bi. I can just see your disappointed face. I'm still your baby girl. mommy, come back. I need you.

not a first love but ig
my childhood was supposed to be the best time of my life you took it away i wanted to live i cant stay in all the time stop talking to me like ik nothing stop gaslighting me stop belittling me stop making me feel like id rather be dead than speak to you you dont understand you never will all u fucking care bout is yourself i need to live ive had enough of your bs can you please please just let me leave i dont want to be around you hearing your voice makes me wanna shut my hears seeing your face makes me angry being near you makes me feel quesy please i want out i wanna leave

you've hurt me in more ways than I can count. I hope you understand I still love you. But I cannot forgive you

sorry i can't make it up to you're expectations for me i'm trying my best to keep myself going it's exhausting but of course you wouldn't understand no one understands

i just wish you would listen to me and honestly hear me out...and not blame every single thing on me and constantly get mad at me when i'm just trying to keep myself alive for another day.

I’m really sorry. I’m sorry I disappointed you. I’m sorry I turned out this way. I’m sorry I’m not strong.
I love you ❤️

I don’t know what I’m doing mom. You told me that if you died, you weren’t going to be worried about me because you believed in me. But I’m so lost and I don’t know who I am anymore.

How could you love me but suddenly hate me so fast in just a couple of years. How could you tell your child the things you do and tell me to kill myself? I do not understand how you can just not care when I said I almost jumped off of a bridge or that I have frequent anxiety attacks. I thought you were a mother but it turns out you are just related to me by blood, nothing more.

I miss the time where I didn't have to fake smile.Now I just lay in bed all night, thinking why im not good enough

Im not okay mom. You can see eyebugs. You can see my tears everytime i entire bathroom with earphones. You can fell my saddness. I'm always telling you about how i have no one to text with. Please stop acting like i don't need help. When you once get to know i need help you ignored this and scream at me. You don't know how it hurts me when you are saying that ,,my kids are gonna be fat" i stopped eating most of things and water become my bestfriend. ,,You don't give a shit about me" when you're telling this it fells like i want to not give a shit about you but i do. ,,Fuck you" that one really hurts. ,,Okay so don't talk to me anymore. Go away" why. ,, You're the only one problem" i'm sorry.

Thank you for reading ily

I think I remember when you told me you would leave us if you didn't love me. Now I'm thinking I want you to leave.

I know you don’t try to tear me down like you do, and I do love you, but im so ready to move out forever.

I miss the old you. The you that cared about others. The you that didn't screamed and yelled at their daughter because she was the child of an ex-lover. The you that didn't drank themselves to sleep. The you that didn't act like a rebelling teenager. The you that knew phrases like "thank you" and "please". I don't know what happened to that you, but I really, really, really wish I could meet that you again.

I love you but at times I hate you because I feel like I can't be myself. I feel like I cant tell you anything about me. You hate my friends and at times I feel like you hate me.

sorry for never being enough. sorry for being too complicated and for fighting all the time. I was defending myself from you. and I will do it till I'm gone from this house.

i don’t wanna live here, why’d you take me away from anyone i love. i’m so far from him. i just wanna see him but you wouldn’t ever let me and never will. all because i “cant date” if they’re not up to your bullshit standard.

Thanks for always making me feel like I wasn't enough, that I needed to lose weight in order to make you happy when I should've been doing what made me happy. Thanks for making me feel like a piece of crap.

dear mom , i’m sorry for the things i did that you don’t know about. I’m scared to lose you and it feels like i’m in a constant state of fear that something might happen to you. I hope we can meet again. Love you and i’m sorry

you have ruined me in a way i don't think you understand, you have broken me down into a shell of a person who only exists to please you. i am so tired mom, i love you so much and it hurts me so much because of it. i don't think you realize how much i want to make you proud but everything i do does nothing in your eyes. in your eyes i am nothing.