Unsent messages to LUKE

Loving you while you don’t love me makes me sad, but leaving you makes me sadder, so I stay and die inside. I wish I was enough for you.

Tonight the air smelled the same as it did when we had our first kiss. And I can’t help but wonder if you noticed it too.

you're that one person that i've had a crush on since 6th grade and still haven't gotten over. i'm in high school now...

it’s nearly been a month since we broke up. i’ll always love you. you mean the whole world to me. im sorry for everything. i need u.

you’re all that’s in my mind. every time i see green i think of you. every time someone compliments my eyes i remember your words and how much you loved them. i remember how you held me every time anyone else does. i remember the way you kissed me. i remember the way you held my hand and how afraid i was the first time we hung out. i miss you with every fiber of my being. i miss you with my finger tips. i miss playing with your hair. i miss making you laugh. i miss how comforting you are. there’s not a day that goes by that i don’t think of you. you’re the only person i’ll ever love this way. crushes don’t mean shit when it comes to you. you’re the only one i want. if you wanted me back i’d drop the world for you. i would ruin my life for you. i would do anything to be in your arms again. i’d give my life to talk to you how i did. you’re such a stranger to me. i miss knowing you. i miss everything about you luke henry. “i miss you” can never justify how i feel. i feel broken without you. you’re the only thing that completes me

you broke my heart without knowing it til this day and then you blamed me for breaking your heart when you basically made me feel unwanted then go off dating my best friend

This is the second time I’m writing about you on here. I just wanna let you that I understand that its hard for you right now. I’m truly sorry, I’m always here no matter what, just as I said the other day to you. I love you, please stay strong for me

we were young + loved each other for what we knew love to be. you've changed, so have i, and that's okay. i will always be grateful for the way you made me feel included and known.

we loved each other so much we had to let go. maybe right person wrong time is real after all. i still love you.

I love you and I don’t want you to take that the wrong way, so I’ve been afraid to say it, but dude, I seriously love you so much.

you were my first love and i f-cked it up but i don’t regret breaking up with you, we were only young but we had so many thoughts of what we would be in the future but realistically we both knew we’d just be strangers. i’ve met someone new and so have you so i hope you have a lovely life like i will with my boy

maybe one day, we’ll figure us out. i miss you and i love you, no matter how much you hurt me i still love you.

i know we both knew that there was something there. i just wish one of us had been brave enough to say something.

i’m sorry for everything. i miss you everyday and i never wanted to end things i just knew you weren’t in a good place and it hurt me to see you hurting so much.

we still talk but i wanna thank u for everything u helped me learn u truly taught me how to love others i’m sure we’re talller in another demention

i relapsed. it’s not your fault but all mine; everything came back tenfold after you left. i just really need a hug from you. you made me feel so safe. i miss your cadence and your kindness and believing when you said you’d never leave.

it’s no longer the nights but rather the mornings that are the most painful. because i have to remember how you left & where i’ve lost myself now & how i love you still.

i'm so sorry i wasnt there for u. i miss u everyday. i wish i couldve taken all that pain away from u.

I wish I could forget when it was magic. I know we had to say goodbye and the bravest thing I ever did was run. But I just wish you were a better man.

Dear Luke, I know you probably won’t ever read this but I wanna let it out because I can’t bring myself to say this. From the bottom of my heart I love you so much, we known eachother for a few years but been really close recently. And you make me feel wanted and cared. I never felt so appreciated so much in my life, I’m so glad I have you in my life. I just wanna say I’d do anything for you and I understand all our friends messed with our friendship as a ‘joke’ and said that we were dating and we’d both say “oh shush” to anyone who thought we was dating. But deep down I wish we were dating, I wish to be with you. I would risk my life, and I understand you may not feel the same but I genuinely wanna be with you but I love you so much and wanna keep you in my life and I can’t risk losing our friendship if I confessed my feelings and I’m sorry, it would be a shame if we both liked each other but never told one another. I wish you could see me the way I see you. No matter what, you’re always my best friend and I’ll never forget you.

I'm so sorry. I will never forget you. It is so selfish to ask you not to hate me when I can't even love myself. It's so selfish of me to hope you won't forget me when I don't even know who I am.

We were real. I couldn't commit. I miss the way you smell and how your entire body closed in on me in a hug. I'll always love you.

i loved you to the best of my ability, its time for me to let go. i miss the old you so much, its not the same.

We never met. But the moment I saw you my heart stopped. I can't wait to meet you next year and somehow thankyou for being my light

i wanna kiss u so bad *cry laugh emoji* pain lol hahahha fuck u i hate u so much why do u do this to me this is literally torture

I’ve sent you so many messages on here. And I almost always use this blue. As it was the color of my prom dress and I loved how you looked in that bow tie.

Sometimes I will wake up expecting to get a text from you. Then I remember you left and the pain comes flooding back again.

Writing this in red because it was your favorite colour. you were a good friend, but you took our breakup bad and we lost our friendship. I miss you, in a platonic way.

i'm writing here again because things have changed. you're no longer with her and i feel like there's hope but at the same time i see how you treat other girls and i compare it to the way you treat me. i'm just another one of your friends, nothing more nothing less. yes you may care about me and not want me to get hurt. and yes you may trust me sometimes. but at the end of the day, i'm just like everyone else. i feel guilty and horrible for feeling this way but i hope you will see me as something more one day, but for now i'm just another random girl. i know you're hurting and in so much pain and i wish i could help you like all the others but i simply don't know what to do. there really isn't anything i could do, but you will heal. and maybe one day you will finally see me in a different, in a better, way :)

I'm sorry for breaking your heart. You didn't deserve the way I treated you. You were always good enough for me. I wish I wasn't so hard to love.

its been so long but the memories are fond. the friendship we shared is one ill never forget. I think about it sometimes and wonder if you remember the same things I do, we were so young but it was the first for both of us. real childhood sweethearts.

I will never forget the curly headed brown eyed boy who always made me laugh but some things just aren't meant to be...

I hate you for stealing her. I was trying to build up the courage to ask her, and wait for the perfect moment. Fuck you for that.

hey lukey. have you eaten? i miss u. i wish i could turn back the clocks and start all over again. i want to correct my mistakes and be a better person for everyone. for you, my mum, my dad, my brothers, and my friends. i thnk about u, luke, so much. i go to bed at night thinking about u and i wake up while thinking about you. sometimes i wish i could stop liking u but then i realise that u came into my life for a reason and im so thankful.im thankful that u listened to me and u cared about me when u could. i wish u could hear the way i talk about u to my friends. i want to tell u everything about me and my life but im so scared. ive never opened up properly to a person before because im scared of getting hurt. the things id do to sit under the stars with u and let everything out..
maybe this is right person wrong time. maybe if i met u at a later time in my life, u would have met a better version of me. then maybe, we would have worked out. i miss u luke

you are a piece of shit. i cannot believe i was ever in love with you. i hope i never see you again. ever.

Sometimes I wish something bad to happen to you so you learn what life really is, but at the end of the day, I love you to the moon and back a thousand times.

I hate you. I hate how you only ever call when you need something from me. I hate how selfish you are and how compliant I am. I hate how we haven’t talked in months but I hate how we ever started talking at all. I hate how you changed me yet I’m so thankful that you did.

ive realised now weve gotten older, i was in love with you but you had to go off to private school. i miss you lots x

i loved you so much and you knew but you went and gor with my best friend instead and i dont think you realise how much that hurt me

i just want to go back to last years november. u made me the happiest person in the world and im so thankful for it. im sorry i push people away and im sorry its hard for me to really express my feelings. im scared of getting hurt and im scared of people i love leaving which is why i dont open up. i have attachment issues which is probably why im still in love w u a year later. i hope u think about me sometimes as much as i think about u. thank u for being my first real love and thank u for showing me what falling in love really felt like. i miss u and love u so so much

You did the one thing I just couldn't bring myself to forgive you for... I was ready to work through anything, anything but that.

You are the definition of 'right person, wrong time'. You reminded me how fun it is to fall involve with someone. Even though your chapter in my life has ended, the cute things you have said and done I will never forget. Hopefully, fate will land you in my arms again, but until then... I love you. See you around, blondie. :)

The way I feel when we're on FaceTime isn't the same when I'm on FaceTime with someone else. You make me laugh non-stop and it feels like I'm escaping reality. I respect you for being in a relationship and I hope that she treats you well. I blame myself for us not being together right now. If I didn't sabotage every good thing that happens to me, we would be together. Even if we were together, I wouldn't be good for you. I am selfish, constantly needing reassurance, and jealous. You deserve a girl that is going to treat you amazing. You're genuinely such a good guy and I am so grateful for those three months.

Why did you do this to me? I never asked you to do this... It just hurts... Stop asking my friends about me...

To my first love you and I had a special connection that I won’t get with anyone else.you were my first everything.i won’t get another first.but I just hope that even though you left you still think of me like I think off you everyday I don’t think I will ever feel like this again.goodbye

I think about you every day. Do you think about me as much as I think about you? Most of the time, the thoughts and memories made me cry. Other times they made me smile. But now when I think about you, I don’t feel anything at all.

i liked you for a year and you got a girlfriend over the holidays and i kinda lost feelings. but u and ur girlfriend are so cute together so its fine

Falling for you was a complete accident. At first we were just talking about video games, the next minute I want to be combing my fingers through your hair.

I’m sorry that I left you. You are my best friend and I’m sorry I put you through all that pain. I know what it feels like because I felt pain too.

You were my first real first love and I don't regret any of it. I just wish I could go back in time sometimes to give you one last hug.