The way I feel when we're on FaceTime isn't the same when I'm on FaceTime with someone else. You make me laugh non-stop and it feels like I'm escaping reality. I respect you for being in a relationship and I hope that she treats you well. I blame myself for us not being together right now. If I didn't sabotage every good thing that happens to me, we would be together. Even if we were together, I wouldn't be good for you. I am selfish, constantly needing reassurance, and jealous. You deserve a girl that is going to treat you amazing. You're genuinely such a good guy and I am so grateful for those three months.