We never met. But the moment I saw you my heart stopped. I can't wait to meet you next year and somehow thankyou for being my light

I wish you could’ve made up your mind so I didn’t feel so lost all the god damn time. I wish you could’ve just decided if you wanted to be mine. You didn’t have to leave me standing there, suddenly wishing I didn’t care. I needed the support you couldn’t, wouldn’t give. I don’t resent you for that. I just felt sorry. Sorry I wasted so much time on and off with you. Sorry I couldn’t be the one you fully needed. Sorry I couldn’t be the person you could make up your mind about. I hope you’re keeping safe and well now and you’ve finally found someone who could help calm that storm inside you, I hope she is someone you just knew you wanted to be with. No back and forth. You hurt me, but you also taught me what I needed in the person I was going to be with. I’ve found him now and I’m so grateful. Grateful for him, but also for you.
I hope you’re happy now ?

You said you was never going to leave yet you still did, knowing I’d have nobody to turn to because you was the only one I had

I will always love you. Even though you taught me how to love in a toxic way. I became toxic to others as a result of your toxicity. I became afraid to let others in.

I still reminisce on the memories we share & wish I could go back & find a way to keep you in my life forever

You are the definition of 'right person, wrong time'. You reminded me how fun it is to fall involve with someone. Even though your chapter in my life has ended, the cute things you have said and done I will never forget. Hopefully, fate will land you in my arms again, but until then... I love you. See you around, blondie. :)

thank u for showing me real love. thank u for giving it to me every day. i love you so so much and i can’t wait for forever with you

can we just admit that we like each other already and be happy? instead of just pretending like we both don’t know

one second you text me through the day checking on me and making sure i’m having a good day and the next i don’t hear from you for hours just to be texted “hey” at 10pm

You did the one thing I just couldn't bring myself to forgive you for... I was ready to work through anything, anything but that.

I know we could never make it work cause you live so far away but I love you so much and you mean to world to me but I know you dont feel the same.

Thank you for doing to me what I couldn't do to you again. I'm better for it as are you. See you in another lifetime

I keep seeing you and It's crushing me on the inside. I wish that you felt something too when you see me

I can't believe it has been 10 months since I last talked to you, yet I still think about you everyday.

i just want to go back to last years november. u made me the happiest person in the world and im so thankful for it. im sorry i push people away and im sorry its hard for me to really express my feelings. im scared of getting hurt and im scared of people i love leaving which is why i dont open up. i have attachment issues which is probably why im still in love w u a year later. i hope u think about me sometimes as much as i think about u. thank u for being my first real love and thank u for showing me what falling in love really felt like. i miss u and love u so so much

it scares me how much i love you because i feel like i will never be able to love someone else and not think about you everyday.

it scares me how much i love you because i feel like i will never be able to love someone else and not think about you everyday.

You were my first for everything and I was happy to have it that way until you hurt me so much. I loved you so much and nothings hurt me more than the fact that you somehow just stopped loving me. I don’t know if I’ll ever understand what happened and I hate the way you’ve made me feel. I hate that I’ve spent so much time crying over you even though you weren’t really good to me.

I didn’t want life to continue anymore because there was nothing to live for. But then I met you ( and was so happy I didn’t let go)I fell so hard for you. I hate the fact I probably will never get over you and will love you each day. I’m just scared now you’ve moved it could end

i miss all the sleepless nights with you. you made my life so much better. i can’t sleep without your voice telling me everything’s okay.

i regret telling you my secret, luke. I find it hard to even look at you now because i know that you know and it kills me inside

If I saw you I’d fall in love all over again. If you call me I’d cry again and again

- E


Please call me

You are my best friend. I can always count on you to make me smile and laugh! U drive me crazy sometimes but I still love you. I think I’m confusing our friendship w a relationship and I need to be aware of the boundaries between us. I need to know if there is even a chance of us being together.

Things ended a lot sooner than I would have liked, but I will always love you for the experiences we had to together and for showing me what it’s like to fall in love , not only with you but also with myself . It hurts to see you be okay without me , and deep down I still hope it’s me and you in the end, but I still wish you the best no matter what.

Not overthinking it just wondering....would it actually be that easy not to talk to me for a week? I'm generally curious if I just stopped talking to you for a few days would you care? Again not overthinking, genuinely curious. 

when you eventually end up with someone new, let me know if she holds the door for you when you guys leave the house

I guess i'm writing this as an apology to you cause i feel crap. I'm sorry for all the shitty things i said to you, i'm sorry for acting like you weren't enough, i'm sorry for being an absolute bitch, i'm sorry for not loving you the same way you loved me, i'm sorry for never telling my parents bout you ( they would have loved you). I'm never gonna stop loving you. I'm proud of you. I'm lucky to have met you

u broke me in a way that u benefited from. it was mean and selfish and i miss you more than anything but i’m so glad ur gone.

i’m always here for you i pinky promise i know u don’t need it but just know i’ll always be here if u need me u know where to find me

You ended our 1.5 year relationship by ghosting me and blaming your overprotective mom. Over a year later I’m still not over it. You were the first person I ever loved.

i loved you to the best of my ability, its time for me to let go. i miss the old you so much, its not the same.

hey, i heard you're not doing well. i hope your ear tumour is going well, buddy. i know we barely speak anymore, but i just wanted to say thank-you for everything you've done. you are a champion, even though you broke my heart

We were real. I couldn't commit. I miss the way you smell and how your entire body closed in on me in a hug. I'll always love you.

I'm so sorry. I will never forget you. It is so selfish to ask you not to hate me when I can't even love myself. It's so selfish of me to hope you won't forget me when I don't even know who I am.

luke i miss you and i miss everything we had you were the best friend i ever asked for and i almost could’ve loved you. I wish i would’ve told you but you truly never cared as much as i did and you never needed me the way i did

i think i wanted nothing except for you for so long that i have no clue who you are and i'm not sure if that matters to me. i hope you grow to be more of an inependent-minded person. if you love me back could you tell me before it's too late? i think we could do it if we tried

Dear Luke, I know you probably won’t ever read this but I wanna let it out because I can’t bring myself to say this. From the bottom of my heart I love you so much, we known eachother for a few years but been really close recently. And you make me feel wanted and cared. I never felt so appreciated so much in my life, I’m so glad I have you in my life. I just wanna say I’d do anything for you and I understand all our friends messed with our friendship as a ‘joke’ and said that we were dating and we’d both say “oh shush” to anyone who thought we was dating. But deep down I wish we were dating, I wish to be with you. I would risk my life, and I understand you may not feel the same but I genuinely wanna be with you but I love you so much and wanna keep you in my life and I can’t risk losing our friendship if I confessed my feelings and I’m sorry, it would be a shame if we both liked each other but never told one another. I wish you could see me the way I see you. No matter what, you’re always my best friend and I’ll never forget you.

I wish I could forget when it was magic. I know we had to say goodbye and the bravest thing I ever did was run. But I just wish you were a better man.

you really fucked me up to the point where i don’t trust anyone anymore but you taught me to never fall in love with someone so quickly and not to fall in love with someone who lives so far away, you never came to see me, you’d meet up with your ex all the time we were together, you then cheated on me with your best friend, thank you for making me realise i’m a piece of shit

i loved you so much and you knew but you went and gor with my best friend instead and i dont think you realise how much that hurt me

I tell everyone I’m over you and think your a dick but in the end I’m writing these to you like every other night.

At night it’s you I think about marrying. I’m just too scared to tell you I want more than a “situationship”.

i think about your every day but i see you and you have never looked happier. im beyond happy ur happy :)

I’ve never stopped caring about you and you always meant a lot to me. I miss you greatly, I’m sorry for what I had done. I regret it every day.

it’s been a year since we last hung out, i dont know why you decided you didn’t want to anymore but i miss you more than anything. i thought i finally liked someone who wasn’t an asshole. guess not.

i will always treasure what we had, and that you showed me i really could be loved. say hi to clyde for me

i'm so sorry i wasnt there for u. i miss u everyday. i wish i couldve taken all that pain away from u.

it’s no longer the nights but rather the mornings that are the most painful. because i have to remember how you left & where i’ve lost myself now & how i love you still.

i relapsed. it’s not your fault but all mine; everything came back tenfold after you left. i just really need a hug from you. you made me feel so safe. i miss your cadence and your kindness and believing when you said you’d never leave.

ive realised now weve gotten older, i was in love with you but you had to go off to private school. i miss you lots x