Unsent messages to LUKE

I fell involve with a idea of u. I loved how u treated me, what u called me and how u treated me. and now ur gone. I sit and listen to u explain about a girl u are in love with. it hurts

honestly i don’t even know i did to deserve this:( i’m sorry if i ever hurt you or said something to upset you, but i’m so confused and just hurt by the way you switched up on me suddenly after speaking for months.
i loved you so much, and you were the only person i actually got excited to speak to everyday. you were the only person i enjoyed calling for hours, and falling asleep together was literally my favourite thing ever and i got so upset when we wouldn’t so much when school started
then when we wouldn’t call even on the weekends, it just hurt so bad.
i wish i never indirected you on fake private stories, or was rude to you ever, and i never once meant to upset you. i wish we still called every weekend. i wish we still liked each other. i wish i hadn’t ever turned you away. i wish i weren’t so clingy, but you just made me feel so good.
i don’t know if it was brad, or someone else, but i’m just so hurt. i didn’t get an explanation, or a snap back, after everything i did to try and make you happy whenever you seemed sad. the biggest kick in the face was when you said “don’t be sad” the one time i really needed you. the one time i was so upset, and you just didn’t care.
i wish things could just go back to how they were, luke. i wish we could snap all day, even if we’re not saying anything, i wish we could call all night, even if it were only on the weekends. i wish we still loved each other. i just wish we hadn’t drifted.
the way we went from calling every single night, falling asleep together whilst saying i love you to each other, wanting to make plans together. to go from that, to never speaking, to being unadded. i got so attached to you, luke, and it hurts so much now we don’t talk. i didn’t even get an explanation. it’s okay if you’ve moved on, but to leave me without saying anything-
i’m so hurt

i don’t know what i did, but i wish i didn’t:(

I regret it. I really do. I still love you Luke. I think about you every single day of my life and I still just can’t get over you.

you made me believe in love, and now...idk i cant stop thinking about our past, you stood up for me, comforted me when i wanted to just give up:( i miss our disney dates sm.

Why did you push me away? All i wanted to do was love you and you just used me. I can't stop thinking about you, i hate the fact that i love you still. Part of me still wants you to text me and say that you are sorry for what you did. I'll never get that apology. I hope you are happy and find the girl that can please you both ways.

remember when i ran my hands through your hair? when i held you in my hands even if it was for one moment? i knew we were doomed from the start and that she was already the one for you. but i can't help but fantasize about what we could have been if you hadn't met her. maybe it just wasn't meant to be. i wish nothing but the best for you, and i hope you'll always let me hold you in my arms for just one moment forever.

the one with the most perfect shade of dirty blonde hair and green eyes i stare into endlessly. i still love you.

Im so happy you are happy and see that smile on your face but it breaks me knowing I can't put a smile on ur face again.

I miss you lukey. I wish I could've been enough for you, but I kinda understand it now. I love you to the moon and back, always.

I don’t know why I put you on such a high fucking pedestal. All I know is I care about you so damn much even though you probably don’t even give me a second thought.

I'm so sorry. You cared about me so much. You got grounded for me, only to see me. You would laugh at everything I would say and be upset when I was, yet you always seemed to put a smile on my face. I did you wrong but it was to protect you. Now you've become coldhearted and I'm afraid that one day you'd love someone else. If I could ever have the chance to take back everything I did in the past you know I would do it. Just know that I love you, and I will never stop.

Sometimes I think about how you made me feel and wonder if I will ever experience something like that again.

i would never ever wish hurt upon anyone. but i hope she breaks your heart. just so you know what you've been putting other girls through. so u know what you put me through. god knows it's well deserved. deal with it, then come back when you're a better person. be better now it's not hard. please do it. i can't pull myself out of your life because i'm addicted to the thought of you giving me your undivided love and attention. not because you're greatly important or special, but because you were the first boy to give me hope of what that is like. and you didn't follow through. i hate you but i want you.

stop talking to me. i have no control when it comes to communicating with you. if i have a chance to, i will. if you have a chance to talk to me, doesn't matter. you can stop so easily. so save me by leaving me alone because i will not go through it a third time. please walk away. if not for me then for the future girlfriend you have that you'll actually decide to love and be loyal to. please please stop.

even tho we hav broken up a lot i like i feel like we r meant to be with each other tbh. i tried a lot of things to distract myself but we always end up with each other again and you were always in my heart when we were not together. maybe after everything we r meant to be together cuz like idk i am in luv n like ITS DIFFERENT W YOU N IDK OK BUT I FEEL LIKE THE UNIVERSE JUST WANTS ME TO BE W YOU CUZ WE ALWAYS FIND A WAY TO END UP BEING WITH EACH OTHER YA KNOW N I DONT WANT WHAT WE HAVE TO BE RUINED I LUBV YOU SO MUCH PLZ nvr leave me luke u helped me at my worst u don’t understand how much u mean to me

you used to be my yellow but now you've drained away.
you used to be my yellow but now you're just my grey.

screw you. its been months. im over you and all, but I still think and wish you were the same dude before.

I think I’ve become the girl I am over the past two years because of you, and I love you for it. Thank you for making me love myself too.

I still go to bed with my ringer on in hopes that you'll call and I'll answer. I miss u. I love you the most.

i like you but you like her. ik you think i cant tell but you act a certain way with her, like shes the girl for you, while i sit on the otherside of you dead inside- youve hurt me enough, btw shes gay- i hope you feel the same heartbreak as me

it’s been a year since we last hung out, i dont know why you decided you didn’t want to anymore but i miss you more than anything. i thought i finally liked someone who wasn’t an asshole. guess not.

I guess i'm writing this as an apology to you cause i feel crap. I'm sorry for all the shitty things i said to you, i'm sorry for acting like you weren't enough, i'm sorry for being an absolute bitch, i'm sorry for not loving you the same way you loved me, i'm sorry for never telling my parents bout you ( they would have loved you). I'm never gonna stop loving you. I'm proud of you. I'm lucky to have met you

i regret telling you my secret, luke. I find it hard to even look at you now because i know that you know and it kills me inside

You were my first for everything and I was happy to have it that way until you hurt me so much. I loved you so much and nothings hurt me more than the fact that you somehow just stopped loving me. I don’t know if I’ll ever understand what happened and I hate the way you’ve made me feel. I hate that I’ve spent so much time crying over you even though you weren’t really good to me.

it scares me how much i love you because i feel like i will never be able to love someone else and not think about you everyday.

it scares me how much i love you because i feel like i will never be able to love someone else and not think about you everyday.

I will always love you. Even though you taught me how to love in a toxic way. I became toxic to others as a result of your toxicity. I became afraid to let others in.

hey. i’m falling for you, even though i know it’s not requited. you just make me happy. so fucking happy.

You made the Boulevard meaningful to me and I hate it so much that you had to leave for that to happen.

i’m sorry for ignoring u afterwards and ik that’s gonna be hella awk now but idgaf. i don’t forgive u and yeah period luv xx

i’m sorry for ignoring u afterwards and ik that’s gonna be hella awk now but idgaf. i don’t forgive u and yeah period luv xx

My heart breaks over you multiple times a day, and you don’t even think of me. I know your bad for me and knew it from when we first started talking, but even now after all the tears I can’t give you up

My heart breaks over you multiple times a day, and you don’t even think of me. I know your bad for me and knew it from when we first started talking, but even now after all the tears I can’t give you up

I’m so sorry. It was all my fault we were going good, I miss you, ur smile,ur hugs, ur laugh omg bruh I wanna go back summer 2020

I just want to feel appreciated. Your affection comes in waves making me feel like I may be everything or as though I have already been replaced.

I just want to feel appreciated. Your attention comes in waves. I either feel like I mean everything or like I have already been replaced

I'm sorry I didn't appriacte us until you left. It took 9 months of me to understand what I lost. I love you forever

i love you forever. we have our tough times but we always find our way back to each other. i will never stop believing in that. you’ve seen me at my worst. you saved my life. i cannot express how grateful i am that i’ve had you in my life. we may not be talking right now but i still love you. i will always love you.

luke fuck u fuck u fuck u. we literally only talked for a week but it was the best week of my life and i couldnt wait for our future but whatever. im the baddest bitch and ull never find another like me so ur loss love

from the first time I met you on your first day at work, I knew we had a connection. I had never been able to talk to a stranger so easily. I know you feel the same way about me. But, you have a girlfriend and I'm afraid of the mistakes my parents made. May we meet again.

why are u fucking about with me ?? ik u still like your ex , and because I’m friends with her it puts me in such an awkward fucking situation. I don’t wanna be affectionate with you around her because a part of me feels like she still likes you too, even though she denied it. Also you’re shit at replying and I want to talk to you but everything feels so awkward. Also you’re a cunt to my best friend.

Sometimes I wonder what could have happened, or what we would’ve ended up as and I’m extremely sorry for that. I didn’t mean to hurt you, and I miss having you as a friend.

i have thought about you every day since we ended. its been 4 months and i miss you more than anything.

I'll wait forever for you. You're the first person I've ever loved. I'm so proud of you. - your lil peach ring

I will always remember how you hugged me from behind gave me forehead kisses and hold my hand and I will always some way love you

I have loved you since we first have met, but the feeling was never mutual. I was always a friend to you.

When you left, you broke me. So when you came back, it didn't feel the same. In the process of protecting myself I hurt you and for that I'm forever sorry. I think I might be in love with you still.

When you left, you broke me. So when you came back, it didn't feel the same. In the process of protecting myself I hurt you and for that I'm forever sorry. I think I might be in love with you still.

I told myself i would get over you when you left me for her, but I just ended up loving you more. Please come back.

you are the only boy who has made me feel this way. you were everything to me. I’d do anything to just see you again