You weren’t my first love only my first boyfriend I never loved you and the things you did to me affect me so much today I wish you knew how much I hated you and how much pain you caused me, I feel so guilty about all the things you did to me and how I stayed with you even though I didn’t even love you. I was just too scared to tell anyone what you tried to do. Black represents his numb you make me feel and how I feel sick to my stomach when I see you.