Unsent messages to JASON

I thought you were different

I wish I never sent you all those pictures.

I’m better now and I know you’d love the new me

i hope you know I loved you more than anyone ever could

I love you so much

the bracelet broke. does that mean we’re officially over?

Please come back

I want you to love me more

i will forever wait for u

I love you, maybe in another life we could've been together

it’s been almost a year and i’m still hurting :/

I hope our love lasts a lifetime <3

id do anything for u, i love u more than anything.

thank you for loving me when i felt unloveable

please give me one more chance

why do i still care abt u

in another universe, we’d come back to each other.

i miss not talking to you

I wish things could’ve worked

i wonder if in another universe we could’ve worked out

if it was never gonna be me, whyd you let me think that it was?

I would wait forever if it meant you would love me again

i wish you were more honest with me

I miss you so much, i just want you to speak to me

I’ll always love you

i miss you more than i thought i would.

now you are just a familiar stranger

If you choose me I'd love you more than anyone in the world

I fell for you the moment I met you. You will never fall for me.

I doubt you'd ever see this but in hopes you do, im sorry. im sorry I had to be your first love and make it hard. you don't know how terribly I want to be better for you. because I really am deeply in love with you. your the reason I'm alive, and there isn't enough of anything to repay you for everything you've done for me. I just really hope that you still love me too.

probably one of the biggest bullies i’ve ever met, but despite tht ur a pvp pro and an absolute briefcase wanker, wish u the best in life

i think i’ve known this for some time now and i wish i could say this to u in person but
I love you.

I never loved you &amp; I'm not blind to the fact that our relationship had no future. But what was the point of telling your friends about me? Of your compliments? Of asking me to stargaze? What the hell was the point of any of it if you claim that you never wanted to date me in the first place? Were you lying for the past 3 months or just in the 3 minute phone call?

Its been absolutely ages since we talked but I really miss u ans I’m so sorry for being a dumbass and literally talking about other guys to u-
I’m so sorry I wish I realised sooner that u we’re the one I needed. From R:)

Simplemente un dia dejaste de hablarme, no me diste razones, y eso me dolió más. Perdon si me ilusione muy rápido.

It’s officially what would have been our 8 year anniversary. Crazy. Y’know, I do still miss you. I’m happy where I’m at, but I miss you sometimes. I see you post about our dog and it makes me smile and tear up. I miss her too. I hope you’re doing well. I know you probably hate me now, and I don’t blame you. But just know I loved you, hard. When we fell apart it broke me. Nothing is ever the same as that first love, yknow?

hey. sorry for writing all my songs about you. but you know what hurts more than rejection? knowing i never had a chance in the first place.

tomorrow will be my 1 year self harm clean streak and i couldnt have done this without you. but that sucks. because i wish i wouldve been able to do this without you. i miss you j

hi jason, idk if u actually go on this website, but I just wanted to say hi again. we don’t talk anymore at all. but I know u have a gf and I’m in the back in ur mind. ofc. idk something in me just really wants to text you again. you probably didn’t think feelings were mutual. so if u think u know who this is, write back to me with my name and this :p

jason i miss you.. you broke me really badly, but i would still be yours again. i know its best we go our seperate ways. but i miss you.

Fuck you for telling hiding me. For pressuring me when I said no. For lying to me. But fuck you, for letting me go so easily.

I exposed myself to you. It was stupid of me, I know. But you made me feel special, and apparently other girls as well.

why do we keep on drifting? i dont want u to forget ab me. why wont u just love me the same :// i pour so much effort into trying to make u happy but u just throw it away. i love you so much

im so scared u will replace me when i move. im so sorry for everything and im trying to be better i really am. ik u will find someone who is better than me but im sorry for being selfish and trying to control u. u clearly dont like that and idk if u will ever feel the same way i do. ik u say u mean it when u love me but do you mean it? when we refer to "what we already have" ik u don't necessarily mean our friendship or that we have a relationship. i want u to say "i love you" in the same way i do. i might be in love w u and i think these anonymous messages are getting outta hand but i just hope u look back at them again and notice that it was me saying all this. i dont want it to be too late to tell u, i dont wanna be replaced,, i dont want what we have to be lost. i at least want the chance to kiss you one more time :/

Hi! I think I've sent one of these to you in the past, but I just wanted to tell you that I love you. I miss you so much, but we both know that this is for the better. You are so much happier and I am finding my way. What we had was not the healthiest and while it wasn't toxic, it wasn't good for either of us. And I have a feeling that I am always going to miss you but I know that I will get to a point in life where when I think of you, I smile at the memories and not breakdown because of how things ended. I blamed myself a lot for it and that wasn't right. I always told myself that if I had done things differently, you would still be here, but we both know that's not true. I can ponder all of the "what ifs" and "could have beens" but nothing will change the fact that you are gone and there's nothing I can do about it. So I guess this is goodbye. I realized something when you left, you know. Back before I dated Drew, I said, Kate choose, you or Drew, and I picked Drew. I didn't really know why but now I do. Deep down, I knew how much power you had and if you left, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. And although I could never truly be friends with you, the thought that one day, you wouldn't be there anymore scared me. Drew was temporary, I knew that. And even tho he treated me like crap, I told myself I deserved it and that if he left, it would hurt less. He had nothing on me, and you had everything. You probably didn't know this, but you had me wrapped around your finger, and not even I knew it. I choose him because it was safer, not because he was better. And while I will continue to miss you and wonder how you are doing, I know that if I contact you, there's a possibility I will fall back into my old ways. You taught me that I can't put my trust and everything I have in people and I am so grateful for that. I know you told me, but I was too stubborn and foolish to realize it. So thank you and I love you.

lol i think im in love wth you. ik u dont feel the same type of love i do but please dont send me mixed signals. i just want u to be truthful with me. im moving soon and im so scared u will find someone else and get sick of me. im scared that im running outta time to tell u how i feel. please text me,, im worried that u dont wanna talk to me anymore and i know that's probably not true but u know how i think so hopefully u see this. i wish u would call me earlier in the night too instead of when im about to fall asleep,, it hurts yknow? knowing the one person that rly makes u happy cant put the same amount of effort into whatever kind of relationship this is. i love you so much

fuck you. why would you come into my life and ask me out in the worst moment of my entire life. why did you take advantage of me. i feel like i'm supposed to learn some type of lesson from it, but NOTHING is coming up. i didn't even like you. why did i accept. why did i let you do those things to me. why did you tell me that it was normal for couples to do these types of things at not even 2 weeks into my first relationship. why did i believe you. i fucking hate how i'm still thinking about this. i hate you. i hate you. i fucking hate you. why do i want it back. what is wrong with me.

I'm scared you're falling out of love with me. I want to believe that you want for us to be together forever but lately it's been hard to believe

i dont think u will actually ever understand how much i love you. everything i tell u ab how i feel is absolutely true and i dont think that'll change. ill be patient w you if u will do the same for me. everything you do makes me incredibly happy and just hearing ur voice changes my day completely. i wish i knew how to put it into words better. ur the first person ive actually truly felt comfortable with and talking to u feels so natural. i dont want u to ever leave bc ur all that i have and all that i want and need. u dont see it but ur so amazing and worth so much to me and i wish u knew this. ik u feel so much more than u show and ik ur trying to open up. u dont think so but id trust u with my whole life and the last thing id do is hurt you. you have my entire heart so im counting on you to keep it safe. can you do that for me? i love you so so so so much,, more than u will ever realize

Thank you for always been so positive and always willing to help, even though i know you didn’t feel the same way i felt about you, you were always so kind to me. thank you