Unsent messages to JASON
From: ABC
To: Jason
Date: September 29, 2020, 5:11 am UTC
I miss you and what we had. I fucked up so bad and now I have to watch you be happy with someone else. I’m still hoping it’s us in the end.
From: ABC
To: Jason
Date: September 29, 2020, 1:41 am UTC
spent the whole drive home today thinking about how you held me. i don’t remember how i made it back, or how many red lights i almost ran. all i can remember is how your breath felt on my neck, your hands gripping my sweater. suddenly my mind catches up to me here, sitting in the parking lot- about to walk into a house that has never felt like the home for my soul. do you feel the tension between us? ignoring it was hard before, but now it feels impossible. am I making this up? i still remember the way your car use to smell, the songs we listened to. i remember the first time you sent me this ? emoji. am I crazy? felt it years ago, when you took the long way home. am I making things up? idk.
we were probably meant for each other. always been forbidden fruit. or do you treat all of your friends like that? will we ever find out? or will I keep wasting my time. or is this a waste of my time? idk.
writing this feels like an sos. a shot on the dark. do I just feel this way bc I’m unhappy? god I hope you never see this. maybe I hope you do. Idk.
yes this is for you.
and yes.. it’s me.
have you read the world is yours, on a blimp?
From: ABC
To: Jason
Date: September 29, 2020, 1:17 am UTC
your more than my best friend, your my soulmate. you're the love of my life and i know it. if you aren't the person i spend the rest of my life with, i will never know my purpose. you're the reason im here today, i love you with everything in me jason.
From: ABC
To: Jason
Date: September 28, 2020, 9:46 pm UTC
I loved you i love everything about you it really was right person wrong time in my mind but maybe not in urs
From: ABC
To: Jason
Date: September 27, 2020, 9:07 am UTC
i’m sorry i can’t ever be good enough for you. i’m sorry i cant talk to you abt my problems. i’m sorry that you have to deal with me.
From: ABC
To: Jason
Date: September 22, 2020, 11:18 pm UTC
I gave you every chance to let me come back to you, I wanted you to choose me again- it’s was too late, I’m sorry.
From: ABC
To: Jason
Date: September 22, 2020, 11:06 pm UTC
You were the first person I truly believed loved me just for me, it breaks me to know I still love you.
From: ABC
To: Jason
Date: September 17, 2020, 6:23 pm UTC
you were the ONLY reason i didn’t move 2 hours away when my mom died. I only moved 20 mins. away and the drive was too much for you...
From: ABC
To: Jason
Date: September 7, 2020, 2:32 am UTC
i look for you in every guy i try to find, i guess that’s why i cant find anyone anymore. i miss you and i hope you are doing well.
