You made me realize how dangerous it is to meet someone like myself because it made me believe that we were meant to be.

i’m sorry i can’t ever be good enough for you. i’m sorry i cant talk to you abt my problems. i’m sorry that you have to deal with me.

srry we couldn't skype tonight but... you know that I'm trying to make this work but with the merger and your affair... it's just so hard. Anyways, goodnight girl. I'll... see you soon.

i dont think u will actually ever understand how much i love you. everything i tell u ab how i feel is absolutely true and i dont think that'll change. ill be patient w you if u will do the same for me. everything you do makes me incredibly happy and just hearing ur voice changes my day completely. i wish i knew how to put it into words better. ur the first person ive actually truly felt comfortable with and talking to u feels so natural. i dont want u to ever leave bc ur all that i have and all that i want and need. u dont see it but ur so amazing and worth so much to me and i wish u knew this. ik u feel so much more than u show and ik ur trying to open up. u dont think so but id trust u with my whole life and the last thing id do is hurt you. you have my entire heart so im counting on you to keep it safe. can you do that for me? i love you so so so so much,, more than u will ever realize

I still want to talk to you but I don't want you to know that. obviously I knew the chances of you actually wanting to talk and not just for pics were unlikely but I didn't want to admit it. ive accepted the fact that you probably dont think of it as much as I do. I told my friends about you, but probably so did that other girl trying to send you pics did to. I also just want to know why you would talk to me for this long all for you to only want pics when there's so many other girls out there. why me. I told myself you only live once so many times that I opened up to you more then probably anyone and I dont even KNOW you. I feel like you know me more then Ik you. and the thing is I think now I shoudve known you didn't want to talk to me even tho you said you did because no matter what you were asking for pics. and there were also sometimes when I wouldn't really care to send them, just the way you asked. I knew when we went 4 days without talking you would have texted me if you wanted but you didn't and I feel stupid now for texting you but the last thing you said to me really hurt me and I feel even more stupid because like I said ive never met you. I even lost my bestfreind because of you. for all I know she could have told you. I dont think well be talking anymore after what you said ... does this mean your mad at me or yk im hurt by what you said or you just dont care I dont know but im ok with it now .

I loved you i love everything about you it really was right person wrong time in my mind but maybe not in urs

your more than my best friend, your my soulmate. you're the love of my life and i know it. if you aren't the person i spend the rest of my life with, i will never know my purpose. you're the reason im here today, i love you with everything in me jason.

spent the whole drive home today thinking about how you held me. i don’t remember how i made it back, or how many red lights i almost ran. all i can remember is how your breath felt on my neck, your hands gripping my sweater. suddenly my mind catches up to me here, sitting in the parking lot- about to walk into a house that has never felt like the home for my soul. do you feel the tension between us? ignoring it was hard before, but now it feels impossible. am I making this up? i still remember the way your car use to smell, the songs we listened to. i remember the first time you sent me this ? emoji. am I crazy? felt it years ago, when you took the long way home. am I making things up? idk.

we were probably meant for each other. always been forbidden fruit. or do you treat all of your friends like that? will we ever find out? or will I keep wasting my time. or is this a waste of my time? idk.

writing this feels like an sos. a shot on the dark. do I just feel this way bc I’m unhappy? god I hope you never see this. maybe I hope you do. Idk.

yes this is for you.

and yes.. it’s me.

have you read the world is yours, on a blimp?

its weird how i find myself writing another one. but this one I'm focusing on the good things. even tho i don't recognize you and i don't respect you anymore, i hope you will find happiness. i truly put my feelings aside when we broke up so that you could move on like you said and find happiness by yourself. I know you felt very guilty, but your actions showed different than your words. texting her right after? what the actual fuck. i know you want to be with her more than anything but its been 9 months. jason the girl does not want you. you need to leave her on read and actually move on. its honestly makes you look so beyond pathetic and i wish you could see that. i want to talk to you about it more than anything but i know it's not my place to say something. I've never been through heartbreak so I don't know what it feels like but you're just fucking yourself at this point. anyways i said that this one would be positive oops. thank you for bringing happiness in my life and being my first boyfriend. i got to experience all the first times of relationships so thanks. oh and you made me realize my self worth. i deserve so much better than you(physically and mentally).

sweetie stop embarrassing yourself that girl don't love you she left you for a REASON. You had the world in your hands the best girl ever and you fucked that up. How stupid can one be, god gave you the best and you said no lol

though i don’t long for you anymore, it hurts to know that you are happy with someone else while i’m sad with no one.

u were supposed to be my medicine. the hero in this fairytale. someone that brings me back to reality. kinda the opposite effect. u brought dread with u, the purple goop that seeped thru my phone. it was heavy and seemed to swallow me. u were a push and pull. u got bored with people easily. but i kept coming back for more. u were a sweet bitter taste. kicks u in the stomach, but addicting. i miss the old you. i tried so hard but u just drifted away from my grasp so quickly. we met on the eighth, and walked away on the twenty fifth. i love you. i always will.

I miss you and what we had. I fucked up so bad and now I have to watch you be happy with someone else. I’m still hoping it’s us in the end.

hii! if anyone is reading this i hope u know that u are beautiful, loved and i am so proud that ur here! keep fighting through everyday, this note has reached u for a reason, love urself or no one else will and have a lovely day

I liked you for so long but turns out you were just a big jerk and someone who just wants a girl for her body :)

i remember when i thought i couldn't bare being without you, but i'm so much happier without you. i don't miss you at all lol ur an asshole :)

I still love you. You told me everything. You said you wanted to run away and have a life with me... what happened to that. I miss you so much and I hate that you dont feel the same way back when after all we did you said it was done in "love". Please. I love you..

I wonder if you actually do like me or just pretend to seem nice either way I’ll be here answer you when you text

i am so in love with you and i can’t make it stop and you knew and left anyway. when did it get so messed up

i hate ur existence. but i cant seem to get over it. its not love. it cant be. u'll always be my yellow.

I'm scared you're falling out of love with me. I want to believe that you want for us to be together forever but lately it's been hard to believe

every time he tells me that he loves me, all i can think about is you. whenever he mentions a future together, all i can think is how i want one with you

You made me feel special. But then you left me for her. Why..? And why do I still adore you so much?

remember me? probably not. i miss you. and i always will. i regret cutting you off so quickly. i loved you so much but you never loved me back. it'll be one year without being friends with you soon. you'll always be special to me.

I miss you but I know you deserve better than what I can give you. I hope you find a girl that can be everything that you want.

I love you and i still do i just wish you felt the same way, sometimes things happen for a reason and well maybe we will see each other in another life time :)

fuck you. why would you come into my life and ask me out in the worst moment of my entire life. why did you take advantage of me. i feel like i'm supposed to learn some type of lesson from it, but NOTHING is coming up. i didn't even like you. why did i accept. why did i let you do those things to me. why did you tell me that it was normal for couples to do these types of things at not even 2 weeks into my first relationship. why did i believe you. i fucking hate how i'm still thinking about this. i hate you. i hate you. i fucking hate you. why do i want it back. what is wrong with me.

You are a scum between my toes. That’s why your nudes magically appeared in front of my face. Hope that gay guy follows you to this day and also hope you dream about clowns. Skinny White Boy, that’s why you’re insecure. I’m gonna steal your dog and eat it. How You Like That! All those times I said you were cute were a lie hoe.

i loved you. i forever will. but i’ll wait for however long it takes for you to realize how amazing i would treat you.

hi , i really want u to know i love u so much . nothing nor no one will ever replace the love i had for u . but i wish i never met u , thinking about u hurts i wish u could’ve never been so horrible i guess it’s because you were probably going thru things but i hope your new girl treats u good and cares because u deserve the world . fuck u tho , enjoy your fuckboy like always remember “one good girl is worth a thousand bitches” ?‍❤️‍?‍? -your ex vampire wifey

lol i think im in love wth you. ik u dont feel the same type of love i do but please dont send me mixed signals. i just want u to be truthful with me. im moving soon and im so scared u will find someone else and get sick of me. im scared that im running outta time to tell u how i feel. please text me,, im worried that u dont wanna talk to me anymore and i know that's probably not true but u know how i think so hopefully u see this. i wish u would call me earlier in the night too instead of when im about to fall asleep,, it hurts yknow? knowing the one person that rly makes u happy cant put the same amount of effort into whatever kind of relationship this is. i love you so much

the phone call when you drunkenly ended things lasted 53 seconds. after 5 months i got 53 seconds where you said you didn’t feel anything for me anymore and you were done. it was over. this is the last time i will ever write anything for you.

the phone call when you drunkenly ended things lasted 53 seconds. after 5 months i got 53 seconds where you said you didn’t feel anything for me anymore and you were done. it was over. this is the last time i will ever write anything for you.

Im listening to all of the songs you like. I've been doing so good, but tonights just a little harder.I wanna let you go, I have you blocked but I still check her location because I know y'all are together. Her story is muted because I hate seeing y'all together, but I still check to see if she has posted every ten minutes. You keeping texting and calling my friends to try and get me to unblock you or to talk to you but I wont.You asked if I would sneak out last night even though she was with you. maybe y'all aren't together. maybe im wrong. maybe you actually really love me. but I know that's not true. y'all are together. maybe you want me but y'all are together. if you were just gonna keep asking me to hangout then why did you choose her. Why didn't you choose me. I shouldn't be mad at her, she doesn't know. I feel bad for her too, she thinks you are loyal and good. she doesn't know you like I do yet. I honestly should thank her, its better to know that you aren't shit sooner than later. I just wish it wasn't five months wasted. I don't know why I miss you. Everyone always said you were ugly, but I didn't care you were attractive to me.I loved your eyes and your voice, I still hear it in my head. I can't stop thinking about you. I just want to kiss you one last time. be in your arms, you holding my face in your hands and rub my check with your thumb just one more time, look into your eyes and think everything is ok one last time. but I can't. I can't want you anymore.You have someone new now. I want you to be good for her, even though she's not me you should treat her well, be loyal, appreciate her. One time you told me that you wanted me to be your best friend, someone you could talk to, be your everything. I hope she is all those things for you. I hope she makes you happy and makes you smile. I want the best for you. this has to be goodbye. I don't want to hurt anymore. so goodbye. I love.

I never loved you & I'm not blind to the fact that our relationship had no future. But what was the point of telling your friends about me? Of your compliments? Of asking me to stargaze? What the hell was the point of any of it if you claim that you never wanted to date me in the first place? Were you lying for the past 3 months or just in the 3 minute phone call?

Es inevitable no presionar el corazón cada que te pienso, te ame mas que a mi misma, ese fue el error. YO LO DI TODO POR TI

Hi! I think I've sent one of these to you in the past, but I just wanted to tell you that I love you. I miss you so much, but we both know that this is for the better. You are so much happier and I am finding my way. What we had was not the healthiest and while it wasn't toxic, it wasn't good for either of us. And I have a feeling that I am always going to miss you but I know that I will get to a point in life where when I think of you, I smile at the memories and not breakdown because of how things ended. I blamed myself a lot for it and that wasn't right. I always told myself that if I had done things differently, you would still be here, but we both know that's not true. I can ponder all of the "what ifs" and "could have beens" but nothing will change the fact that you are gone and there's nothing I can do about it. So I guess this is goodbye. I realized something when you left, you know. Back before I dated Drew, I said, Kate choose, you or Drew, and I picked Drew. I didn't really know why but now I do. Deep down, I knew how much power you had and if you left, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. And although I could never truly be friends with you, the thought that one day, you wouldn't be there anymore scared me. Drew was temporary, I knew that. And even tho he treated me like crap, I told myself I deserved it and that if he left, it would hurt less. He had nothing on me, and you had everything. You probably didn't know this, but you had me wrapped around your finger, and not even I knew it. I choose him because it was safer, not because he was better. And while I will continue to miss you and wonder how you are doing, I know that if I contact you, there's a possibility I will fall back into my old ways. You taught me that I can't put my trust and everything I have in people and I am so grateful for that. I know you told me, but I was too stubborn and foolish to realize it. So thank you and I love you.

i still have the biggest crush on you i don’t even know why it’s been 5 years but i can’t seem to get over you and you barely even know who i am ha

im so scared u will replace me when i move. im so sorry for everything and im trying to be better i really am. ik u will find someone who is better than me but im sorry for being selfish and trying to control u. u clearly dont like that and idk if u will ever feel the same way i do. ik u say u mean it when u love me but do you mean it? when we refer to "what we already have" ik u don't necessarily mean our friendship or that we have a relationship. i want u to say "i love you" in the same way i do. i might be in love w u and i think these anonymous messages are getting outta hand but i just hope u look back at them again and notice that it was me saying all this. i dont want it to be too late to tell u, i dont wanna be replaced,, i dont want what we have to be lost. i at least want the chance to kiss you one more time :/

Ti amo mi grande amor... thats what you always said to me. Ti amo Mia Bella ragazza... these words meant the world to me. Now, I say them in my head and pretend you saying that and you sitting in front of me... but the fact is, you left me because you said you hadn't enough time for me but actually you just needed time to hang more with your friends.

I know I wasn't your first love, but you were mine. I don't know why you lie to me these days because I thought we had a deal that we still be friends after our breakup...

if you had reached out a lot sooner i would’ve chosen you. that whole time we didn’t talk i was thinking about you nonstop

I’m sorry things ended the way they did but I’m happy for you and I think we should go out separate ways

I love you so much baby but you're hurting me so bad. Treat me better please, I do not want to leave.

I'm sorry I didn't mean for things to end this way.
if i were you I'd hate me too... :)
I'll love you forever and always.

Why do I still think about you after all these years? Even after everything that happened? Even though I know you never think of me...

you should never have answered my call. the call that started everything. the call i made at 11:30 just because i was bored and i wanted to get to know you and we talked until 3:30 and we didn't know anything. we didn't know what would happen and we were happy then. maybe you're happy now, but i'm sure not. i can't bear to read our texts anymore. they give me a stomachache. actually, everything that has to do with you gives me a stomachache.
please don't be worried about me and my mental health. to be honest, you were the cause of most of my anxiety and depression the last two weeks we were together. it wouldn't be so hard if you were just mad at me, if you hated me, hated everything about me. sure, it would still be painful, but it would distract me from the fact that you just stopped caring. i knew you did and i kept telling myself i was going to break up with you and i never did and you beat me to the punch in a TEXT. and in that TEXT conversation i asked if we could meet after school so i could break up with you.
it's unfair that i had to leave my spanish class because your stupid text came through. it's unfair that i took the hall pass to the bathroom and cried. it' s unfair that i needed someone so badly in that moment that i met up with my friend in the bathrooms and she hugged me and treated me better than you ever did in that single moment. it's SO COMPLETELY UNFAIR that you think guys lose feelings for their s/o in every relationship and it's unfair that you expected it to happen! it's unfair that you even asked me out knowing that, and it's so completely unfair that you broke up with me like that and blamed it on me when i know for a fact that i did nothing to cause it. but that's exactly what YOU did- nothing. you stopped texting, stopped calling, stopped telling me you missed me, stopped sending hearts, stopped making plans, stopped meeting up with me.
i don't think you'll ever know how bad it hurt me. it felt like a punch to the gut. and i couldn't fully process it when it happened, and i still can't. i can't fully realize that i don't have anyone to text anymore just for fun, i don't have anyone to talk to when i'm bored, i don't have anyone to sit and watch ride their stupid scooter at the skatepark, i don't have anyone to dress up for or put any effort into life anymore. oh and by the way, i think it's hilarious that you said i told you that you were the only reason i'm still alive. YOU DID NOTHING FOR ME.
and everyone else but me could see that.
i have so much to say to you, but no way to say it. i guess i'll just leave a note in your sweatshirt when i give it back. but a couple things before i go- I AM NOT YOUR EX. i am not clingy, attached, and i do not give you any negative attention unless it's absolutely necessary. i know i wasn't good enough, and i'm not sorry for that. because i am good enough, just not in your eyes. and the last thing i'm gonna say- i never should have told you i thought i loved you because i didn't. and you never should have said it back.
sincerely,
anisten

you'll always have a special place in my heart. you're like a brother to me my boy bestie who can be a pain in the ass but also the person who's always been there. you've saved my life a few times did you know that? idk if i've ever told you this but ily and i care abt you. I know u don't talk abt ur feelings much and u r always there for others but sometime u should really open up. i can tell you hold in a lot of ur emotions and i hope u care abt me and trust me too yk. ly jason.

i think i’ve known this for some time now and i wish i could say this to u in person but
I love you.

you were the ONLY reason i didn’t move 2 hours away when my mom died. I only moved 20 mins. away and the drive was too much for you...