Unsent messages to HARRY

You make my heart skip beats and flutter when you smile. You have a contagious laugh and it’s always on my mind. The way I want to slap you when you talk slow in hopes you’ll just spit out what you have to say in some weird romantic way. I wanna cuddle and watch our favorite movies. Or lay on the floor and listen to old music together on vinyl while discussing our favorite parts. I dont wanna be just a face to you without a name. I want to be a person. I want to be your person. It’s been 11 years now and I’m going crazy. Notice me. Love me. Please.

i loved you. so fucking much, i think i still do. why was it so hard too love me back? it would be as easy as breathing would be, i would literally be your servant. i would kill for you. just for one kiss.

I’m so sorry for messing everything up. Nobody can replace you. I should’ve have done that. I want you back but I don’t want you to be in pain. Ily. I love you so much. I miss calling you everyday. Ily. Ily so much. I hate seeing you with someone else but Ik it’s for the better. I wish I didn’t mess up I’m so sorry.

i really liked you and thought u felt the same but clearly not, u made feel shit about myself and ruined my christmas. You weren't even nice enough to tell me why.

Sometimes I think I miss you but maybe I just miss how life was before. I wonder how often you think about me

i’m actually quite offended you’re not aggressively obsessing over me anymore. yes it was annoying and ridiculously over the top but it gave me the male validation i need.

i wish you knew how much i liked u.
i just hope u know i hate u now and i take back every good work i said about you
miss you tho :)

You were my first love and it hurt so much seeing you so unhappy in that relationship. Just know I’m always here for you.

i’m so glad i feel nothing for you anymore,it took about 4/5 months but i got there and i’m proud because you don’t deserve anything from me,not after what you did and i hope one day you find out what you did and people realise how much you manipulated hurt and pressured me.i wish you the worst in life and you will never have my respect ever again thankyou for leaving me when i needed you the most and treating me like i was nothing :) from p

i had a near death experience a while ago and they say when you die you see your life flash before your eyes. I always thought it was cliche until i saw my "slideshow" and well it was all you. I saw all the memories we had; from when we first met to our first kiss right to our date in the park. You were my slideshow simply because you are my life. i love you

I miss you..
I needed you.
But, you aren’t you anymore. I wasn’t me either but I still loved you just as much as the start, you just didn’t love me anymore.
You said you wouldn’t leave and yet here I am alone and crying and you aren’t here. Figures.

You know what? FUCK YOU... FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. I tried for almost 6 months to be with you. I left others for you because you gave me hope. You told me we'd date when you could drive and now you refuse to see me. I FUCKING LOVED YOU. From the bottom of my heart. I had NEVER felt like this before. Every day during 1st period my eyes would light up when I saw you. Those random visits to my house. Everything you did gave me hope that we would be together. When I finally put my true feelings out there you ran away scared like the little pussy baby you are. I'm sorry I wasn't little miss perfect. I don't have bleach blonde hair and a small waist and long legs. I have imperfections. But you know what? I found someone who actually loves me. Someone who compliments me every chance they get. Someone who makes me HAPPY. Yeah, that's right, I'm happy with someone besides you. It's crazy. After all the hell you've put me through I finally found true happiness. I hope your next girlfriend leaves you for her best friend just like your last did. One last fuck you for the road. Peace out.

you saved me from the darkest time of my life; and i thank-you for that. but you hurt me in so many ways;
that i can’t ever forgive you.

though we never have truly been in a relationship I have loved you. subconsciously I knew the whole time. your the reason I believe in right person wrong time and it seems even as hard we try to not realize it or drift away from each other its impossible. though I may never be in a relationship with you I still have this feeling its gonna happen I just cant explain it. i just wish you gave me the effort now that you did when I wasn't available and in denial because now I'm not and I just want it to happen but I cant do it without you. but it's like we arent even close enough anymore where I can even tell you that, and it drives me crazy. i miss you harry, I just don't know how to get you back into my life were there's that comfort level where I can tell you that. i hope we end up eventually.

i never realised it but at the time i was fully in love with you now you’ve left my life i wish you would come back

hi harry,
you weren`t my first love or anything but you mean the world to me. You understand me like no one else and I wish i could spend all night just talking to you and everything and nothing. I know I`ll see you again, I`ll see you again one day.

i think a part of me will always want u. ppl still ask me about us and i brush it off but if u texted me i know id come running back

I’m sorry that I didn’t love myself first. I’m sorry I didn’t know who i was. I’m sorry you were the collateral damage. You’ll find someone who deserves you.

Thanks for always cheering me on from the sidelines. I knew you would've dropped everything for me but i didnt realise that at the time. I know that you liked me but I didnt care, I didnt know. Im sorry for everything. I love you now, i miss you. You know how they say you only love something when you lose it. Your the best harry and i dont deserve you one bit

i care for u so much. we've never met but you have been one of the only constants in my life, have been since i was around nine. i literally would not be here if it weren't for you, you make me so happy. u mean the world to me. thank u for everything. i love u more than words can ever express. thank u for sharing your music with the world. my heart could burst with pride seeing how far you've come. i hope we can meet someday. i hope i can give you the biggest hug and thank you for all of this in person.

Thank you for always being there for me, you're the only one i'm comfortable talking to about deep things. Even though so much happened between us, you'll always be my best friend:)

Thank you for always being there for me, you're the only one i'm comfortable talking to about deep things. Even though so much happened between us, you'll always be my best friend:)

i’ve written too many of these to you. i’m tired now. this will be the last. i deserve happiness. remember me.

I love you Bowers. As more then just my best friend. I want to be with you until the end. I want to live the rest of my high school life with you by my side. I want to blast music together while driving down old country roads on the way to your grandma's. I want to slow dance with you in the pouring rain. I want to go get midnight whataburger and stargaze with you in the bed of your truck. I want to do everything with you and have you hold me tight. I love you goofball, I just wished you loved me back.

I wish i could still text you like how we used to before. I always had a feeling you didn't want me anymore which was why i always needed reassurance. I couldn't save us. I miss everything. The way you held me, when we called all the time and had "our" song. The thought of you just breaks my heart and it hurts thinking about it. I love you:(

i really thought that we’d at least keep the friendship. but you ruined it for us. wish you the best buddy.

i hope those classes about digital photography and planning history and ethics were rad.
i’ll never admit it to anyone but i wish i could talk to you one last time.

You saved my life that night and stopped me from doing unspeakable things, I will always love you for that.

i still dont know how you truly felt/feel about me. i wish you didn't lie about loving me. i hate that you're out of my life. all i want is you and it hurts to know that i spent so much energy when it wasn't even mutual.

you fucked me up so bad and i don't think i could ever forgive you. but the worst part is i love you and could never hate you.

I'm staring at you right now and I cant tell you how much our friendship means. I love you so much. Keep doing you and as always TPWK ;)

i don't have anything to say. but this. thank you. thank you for helping me to get over everything, even tho you have never met me. you saved me. i love you forever.

i tried everything to make us work but i think part of me knew it wouldn’t no matter how hard i tried

I hope you understand one day how much happiness you’ve given me, and I hope one day to give you just as much back

you were the only person to care for me and i cared for back. you make me happy and wish people could accept us together

After nearly 2 years apart, I looked deep into your eyes and barely recognised you. I don't know who you are anymore :/

I believe in "right person,wrong time" because of you. Maybe one day we'll be able to be together finally.

I hate when enough time goes by that I forget all the bad things and the reasons why and I start to miss you again

We aren’t talking right now . It’s been a week . I don’t get how you could do that to me when you knew it would break my heart . I’m still waiting for you . I love you.

I don’t know if I’ll be able to hold on for much longer. I’m just so tired. Thank you for being my best friend, thank you for giving me color. I’ll never stop loving you

I still think about you, us. But not you now or what we could’ve been. What we were. That’s what I miss. The past us.

U make me laugh a lot, one of my bestf even if u don’t know that.
Let’s get married if we aren’t by 37

i wish i could tell you how sorry i am for how selfish i was. i acted like i would be there to clean up the mess we made together, in denial that i would not be. i ruined you, and then ruined anything between us. i'm so sorry. i love you.

i want to believe that our relationship was just right person, wrong time. and while i do think there is a possibility that we are meant to be with each other, i cant stand by and wait for you to figure that out. you will always hold a special place in my heart, no matter what. i truly wish you the best.
i love you.

This is the colour of the shirt you wore when we met. It’s also the colour of the flame that the shirt sat in.

I really wished we would have been one of those couples, that face adversety and end up togheter. I really wish.

I loved you because you treated me normal. I never told you because I knew you were straight and I would lose our friendship if I did.

U were the first boy I ever had feeling for, u made me feel things that I didn’t know I could feel for someone who was always there. I didn’t appreciate u when I had u and that was and still is one of my biggest regrets because it ruined our friendship. I hope one day we can come back to each other and become as close as we used to be because I miss my bestfriend

U were so into me when we first met and I didn’t want u but now that u have moved on I miss the love u had for me and it made me realise the love I had for u and our relationship... things have never been the same

Breaking up was what we needed to do to grow, but I wish we could stay up and watch Brooklyn 99 again. You have no idea how much that helped me :')

It’s been 524 days since it happened. I’ve grown, matured so much and the deep regret I feel every single day still haunts me I never want to hurt another person like I hurt you. There will never be another opportunity for me to show you how eternally sorry I am for what I did. But I know I don’t deserve that so I let you go. I will love you, one day I hope we cross paths again. Goodbye my love