Unsent messages to HARRY

i love you. happy anniversary babe. hopefully one day it will be a huge celebration, but being here with you is perfect.

i knew it wasn't realistic but i didn't want to slow dance with anyone else at my last high school ball

You're the first person I felt a real spark with, it felt so easy. It was only for a short while but I still feel the same way about you and can't seem to want anyone else. Would you ever give us a try?

i spent hours trying to figure out which color would suit you best, but i realised there isn't a specific one. or rather, i would say, you're all of them. that's why when rainbows appear in the sky, i smile... it's because i think of you.

why did you treat me so badly? why do i still miss you? why were you so cold? i tried, why didn’t you try for me?

My love for you felt like something people make movies about, I’ve never loved someone the way I do you. Please please don’t leave me :(

i went from loving you to hating you in a matter of months. you think you’re above everyone else when you’re not. i despise you. fuck you and your lies.

I don’t think I’ll ever know if you liked me. I don’t think I want to know. But I don’t think I’ve moved on.

I tried so hard to be a light for you, but all you did was push me away. Why did you hurt me like that?

You’ve saved me from myself countless times. I would do anything for you. But you wouldn’t do the same.

How could I ever love someone like I love you. You are magic, pure magic. No one would ever come close to your perfection. I wish I could show you how much I adore you x

There was nothing stopping us leaving our jobs and just starting a life together. Should we have done it?

i’d like to think i’m more important than a game. i’d like to think that if i was hanging onto life by a string you’d come see me. i’d like to think that if i were at my lowest you’d stay to let me talk. but you didn’t. and you won’t. if you were hanging on by that string i’d never leave. if you were at your very lowest i would stay until you wanted rid of me. i’d be with you as long as you needed and i’d never leave you. and that’s my proof i love you more than you could ever love me

I’m sorry. I couldn’t carry on being the one willing to drop everything and run to you whilst you stand still and not shorten the distance.

The night you said you where going to kill your self if I broke up with you. Was the night my heart sunk and died.

i’m so sorry. i hate lying to you but i know if you knew what i sent him you’d hate me. he made me and i had no choice. i’m sorry and i love you.

i cant get over u. ur always running through my mind, ur presence could be an olympic long run athlete

I love you so much I’m sorry that I don’t want a relationship your the best thing that ever happened to me I don’t want to let you go but I don’t know what to do anymore we just go round in circles. I love you forever I hope we can be together in the end x

you literally broke my heart so many times but i just can’t stop liking you it’s actually a joke at this point. please love me back

I'm so in love with the person you used to be. I hate you for taking him away from me.
please bring him back.

we were haunted by the words we never said to each other. We're both cowards and now we pay for it in lost love.

Tw//

Thinking of you should be a form of self-harm.

you sting so bad but I can't stop thinking about you.

did you really think what we had was nothing?

I want you to be totally clear to me because no matter what you do I will always forgive you because you are my everything and I don’t know what I would do without you. So I am asking you please tell me honestly everything I beg of you please.

I don’t think you ever got over me. I think you still love me. I’ve moved on but really I still have the same feelings for you 4 years on.

I know you’ve never liked me. We’ve both changed as people. I hope one day we’ll laugh about how crazy I was about you. Maybe you’ll have something to say about it.

I'm forgiving you in order to let go of you. I've been going over the pain you put me through for 2 months so i'd know what to say for when we had the conversation about us getting back. But i no longer want you back. But please, leave me alone.

Tarot is telling me we'll reconcile, and has been since we broke up. It's now saying this month, and the thought of it happening makes my stomach drop. But i think thats a good thing.

I don't know if i miss you anymore, part of me wishes i did. But i know i'm still in love with the person you were with me, my Harry.

The beautiful eyes you hated and your smiles lines stay engraved into my memories forever. I love you.

I wish things ended differently. Timing was poor on both sides, I blame you for waiting too long to say something, and myself for pushing myself to move on because it was too painful. We both should have been more patient, I hope this isn't the end of the story. x

You went through so much. I'm glad you got your happy ending. Even if I'll never get to share it with you.

I can never stop thinking about you but I don’t know if I like you or not because all of this is new to me and I’ve never felt this way about someone, you can be brutally honest but I like how you always speak your mind and make me smile :)

I remember when I held you while you cried for hours. I never thought less of you for showing me how much you were struggling. I would do anything for me to be there for you again.

you are everything i’ve ever wished for. you complete me as a person, and i love you so much for that. i just don’t know how to show it but i hope you understand that i love you more than life itself

I still love you so much but it's time to move one thank you for the best 8 months of my life I loved it while it lasted and I wish I could still have you but I guess this is for the best

I always wonder if we would of still been something if I didn't break up with you over something petty.

four months, all of that time for what? i wish you had let me go sooner, maybe then it wouldn’t hurt as much.

I’m sorry I ruined us. You were the only person I’ve ever truly loved and I made you go away. I’m sorry

How did I fall for a guy who single handedly made me insecure and hate myself. I fear what you would’ve done to me if we stayed together, it keeps me up at night