i hope you realize how much i truly care about you. i want you to be okay and happy. i wish i could take what you're feeling away but we'll get through this together. you're perfect and i dont deserve everything you do for me. I've had trust issues in the past and tbh i'm scared, so scared you'll find somebody new, somebody who can fix how you feel. i hope i'm that person, i know i am. without you i might as well be better off not existing. everything i am is because of you, you teach me so much every day and i coudn't ask for anyone better to be with me. i love you forever no matter what.

i love you more than i could have ever imagined loving another human being. you healed the scars he left and you gave me a reason to keep going. you gave me your strength when i had none, and you taught me that i deserve love separate from just sex. you make me feel safe and protected but also more alive than ive ever felt in my life. you gave me a reason when i felt i had none, and i will always be yours. you are the love of my life, my sweet boy. xoxo, c

It lasted three weeks before the tables turned. But in those three weeks, you made me feel like I've never felt before.

Some mistakes get made, that's alright, that's okay. Some people fall in love with the wrong people sometimes.

i know what i did was the lowest of the low and i’ll forever be remorseful. but i wish you would stop hurting me back. stop coming into my life again and getting my hopes up just to leave and send me back to square one. i’m trying so hard to forget you. i’ve spent months not eating and crying myself to sleep over you and the situation. it’s making me feel crazy. clearly i can’t let this go so i need you to do that for me. as much as i wish it was different and hate to admit it i know we’re not meant to be

I still have all your favourite cds at home if you want to collect them there getting dusty I haven’t touched them in four years

We were best friends for a while but then had a falling out. I’ve loved you the entire time though more than you can know and I would drop everything to be with you. I wish you felt the same way but I don’t think you ever will.

I miss you I miss you I miss you. Please come back soon, you helped me find platonic love again after I lost it for so long. I'll hold you in my heart forever.

I'll wait for you, I will.
I'll count each day and mourn every evening.
I'll keep my heart closed and my eyes open.
I'll keep you in my heart, I will.
I'll toughen my skin and keep my posture.
Return to my arms and let me hear your heart once again.

i love you so much and im sorry. i hope we can get beack together one day. youre all i ever wanted and you desrve the world

Why did you just stop talking to me? Did I do something wrong? Sometimes I think I miss you but then I remember being with you made me worse. I hope you're doing okay now x

If ever we meet again in the future, I will tell you 'everything' but right now, the timing is not right.

thank you for saving me. i really wish you had loved me back instead of my best friend. I think we could have lasted forever. I'll never forget you...

hearing the things you said about me broke my soul.. you said you didn't mean them but I fear I'll never trust again

you made me question everything, made me feel worthless. Now I realize you are the damaged one not me

there is a little chair and table in my heart. there is a sign on the wall that says your name. there is a plate of cookies on the table. all littered with dust. waiting for you to come back and clean it all up.

I can’t get over you. I want you. All of you. I’ve been trying to find the feeling I had with you and the only thing close to it is when I travel. So I will continue to travel the world hoping one day I’ll bump into you and we can be together.

I wish you would notice how I look and talk to u. I know that I have definitely got the wrong idea in the past and I know a few other people have too, I even told my mum I thought u liked me and I liked u too and now every time shes sees u she tells me she has and it hurts because I know it won't mean very much to you as you don't fell the same way, but I just wish u would understand how much I care for u but can't express it. I don't know if u notice me staring from across the room sometimes but sometimes I hope u do because I know ill never be brave enough to tell u how I feel unless u tell me first. I think I am too unsure of myself to do so. I hope that one day u do notice me looking at u or u can see the enjoyment I get from our conversations because I don't know what I would do if nothing happened at all.

i find it soo soo sad that you pretend to hate people to gain friends. you said you didnt like them to me but the next time you were slagging me off to them RIGHT behind me ? at first i was sad but now honeslty, i dont give A FUCK. the universe really saved me by showing me your true colours. i wish you the best in life. i hope you soon realise that having lots of friends does not matter and that having close friends who actually care matter. goodbye

I wish we still talked to each other as often as we used to. I still have things I want to say to you.

although i don’t love you anymore, ive never been able to find a hand that fits mine as well as yours did.

hey lol, I wish u didn't leave. even after you promised we wouldn't drift away its sad that we did. I miss you but I don't wanna be pushy

i still think abt u a lot, probably too much. i miss our dynamic and i miss how i smiled when u said my name. we should've done things differently and i wish we still talked every day. love u forever and always, i'll never forget our first kiss.

I wonder if you ever really loved me like you said you did because you dropped me so quickly but i couldn't ask you to wait for me.... I sort of think im ready to love you now but its too late

You are quick to call me manipulative and shitty, and I understand and agree with many of your points. But you look over how you were just the same.

You blame your problems on other people. It’s always “no THEYRE the problem, THEYRE toxic” Do some work on yourself

You blame your problems on other people. It’s always “no THEYRE the problem, THEYRE toxic” Do some work on yourself

i wish i could show affection better. i wish you could know how much you mean to me. you're the only girl i think about. i haven't looked at anyone the same since i met you. but all good things come to an end. so i'll enjoy this while i have it.

i wish that our relationship would have been healthier. i wish that you didn’t think that it was okay to hit me, or tell me that i was useless because i wasn’t able to restrain my friend. i miss you, but i guess we weren’t meant to be.

i know he means more to you then i do and it’s okay i guess but i just miss the way your head was on my chest not his

i cant tell if i’m in love with you or if it’s just platonic but either way i love you and your the best but your always on my mind

you’re never going to know why this hurt me so bad why i care so much i’m never going to tell you either but i don’t know how you could do that to someone you are a selfish person i didn’t do a single thing wrong and this time i’m not apologizing how do you say you care about me and then leave again i think i hate you if i knew you were like this i would’ve never been your friend i wish i could just take back a year of shit but i can’t. i hope someone breaks your heart you deserve it

I know we only met for a weekend but I feel like we really connected. We stayed up talking one night about our lives and what we wanted our futures to look like and they matched up perfectly. We both want the same thing and I want to ask you out but there are a few things that make me think you wouldn't say yes that are holding me back from doing it.

i didn’t trust anything before i met you and you made me feel alive after i was dead for so long. i love you, you and your beautiful eyes, coot nose and gorgeous face and hair and hands i want to hold forever.
i love you Morgan!

I feel like we are going in the wrong direction sometimes like we have a on and off friendship and there is always something and everything always leads back to me being the bad guy and I try but y’all expect to much from me and when I have like more than 3 people coming at me at one time I get overwhelmed and I know I can be wrong sometimes and I know I’m not the only one but whenever me or chase mess up you guys come after us the most but if you or Lawrence or Amarie mess up than it’s not that big of a deal and y’all are friends again in 3 minutes I see the favoritism in the friend group and it’s messed up and why did you and Amarie have to bring Harper and her friends into this I don’t care it’s not their business and stop trying to force me to talk to them I don’t not like them and I never liked Owen and finn even when me and Harper were friends I don’t want to be her friend and you guys don’t get that I am so done I trusted you and you broke my trust even tho I am mad I would never tell anyone or show anyone things you trusted me with do you understand how humiliated I was but you think it’s funny you made me feel stupid I was completely honest with you and I thought you were honest with me because that’s how friendships work but apparently not you don’t know me and you have no clue what I been through. And can we please stop bringing stuff up on the past that was already resolved or we decided to move past because that does not make things any better what’s in the past should stay in the past and when we are arguing you shouldn’t bring those things up goodbye

I still remember how you made me feel that day, I couldn’t sleep I felt like throwing up. I wish I could stop thinking about it but I know a part of me is still at that university field.

why? you pinky promised. I asked you so many times and you lied. why? often I tell myself you don't even love me anymore. I deserve so much more than this but I stay. I have no trust for you anymore. I dont think I ever will, you've broken my trust and me too many times.

You were my yellow, but then I messed everything up, I know what I did was wrong. Im just glad we aren't talking still,my mental health has been sooo much better

You were my wake up call, and I’m sorry that you had to be that person. I’ve learned a lot since then, about myself really. I’ve started to turn things around, I’m really changing for the best, and it’s scary but I know it’s time. Change doesn’t wait for you to be ready. I’m not going to say sorry, you don’t want it, and it won’t change anything. I doubt I’ll ever talk to you again. I don’t know if I even want to. I cared about you, and that was the problem. To wherever you end up in life, I wish you the best.

I don’t hate you but I don’t know if I feel anything positive related to you either. I’m weirdly indifferent if that makes any sense. I used to be heartbroken for a bit, but I’m so much better now. When everything fell to shit and you ended things, I was devastated, I was convincing myself that I was fine, but now I think that I really am. It’s like waves man, sometimes it’s terribly low, others I feel fantastic. Recently I've been feeling great more times than not. But it has nothing to do with you. I’ve started a process of healing and growth, I’ve come to accept and admit my shortcomings and unhealthy patterns, I’m fixing them, and I’m becoming a person that I’m proud of. In a cliche way, I feel like I can breathe, I’ve cut out a lot of negativity in my life, and I’m learning more about who I am every day. I don’t want to be the person that I was before, I hated how I felt about myself and how I had little control over my own issues and let them affect others. But now I’ve worked through a lot of major issues, I’ve healed many things from my past, and I’m genuinely happy and I love it.

Personally, I don’t give a damn whether you hate me or not, it’s justified, but regardless it’s out of my mind. I’m learning to genuinely love myself and others, I’m setting boundaries that I didn’t have before, so that I don’t let people walk all over me. I’ve come to terms with a lot of stuff that happened to me as a kid, and how it affects me now, and what to do about it. (Also, I heard you say shit about me lying about all of that. All I can say really is that I Never was. I could try to convince you, but I don’t owe that to you nor do I need you to “believe me” fuck off with that)

I now know why I acted they way I did. I never realized how anxious I was all the time, how afraid I was that everyone secretly hated me, or was going to leave. After talking to professionals, we had a lot of interesting things come to light, but in particular my history of anxious attachment. Basically that means that I would always seek out validation and affirmation that my relationships with people were actually real, that they cared, and constantly was afraid that everyone would eventually leave me. I was also made aware of my habits with unhealthy and damaging relationships. Even though I was miserable, I was never able to speak up and explain when something seriously hurt me, because I didn’t want them to hate me. I would always take blame no matter what, and I was really paranoid. Which is why when it came down to you saying enough is enough, I was upset, even though I knew this had been coming for many months. I kinda wish I were the one to end things just so that for once I could feel a semblance of control, but I know I never could’ve in that mental state, so in a way it was a very wonderful thing that it was you. Also, you should’ve been more clear with how you ended things. It was all on your terms, you made it clear but not clear enough what you wanted, and I wish you could’ve done that better. “We vibe but we don’t vibe as often” that was dumb. Tell me straight up whether you want to talk in the future or not. I didn’t understand that was a nice way of letting things go, so I tried for like a week until I just was done. If you ever want to talk to me, you are young to have to reach out, because it was /you/ who ended things. I think that’s only fair. But to be honest I doubt there would even be a point. It’s weird, you’re like a stranger that I know so much about. I doubt things right now could feel anything but just weird.

In general, we both deserved better than that whole last year. I was at the tipping point for a whole personality change and serious changes, and I think you were the tipping point, which in a way sucks, because you inadvertently are connected to my progress.

I spent a lot of time placing my worth into others opinions of me, but now I am overcoming that very nicely.

I don’t think I have anything to say to you. I’ve never been mad, at myself? Maybe, but not you. I don’t know if I miss you though. I think I used to, but I miss the good Memories and shit, not the empty feeling where I’m gutted every time I would see you. I felt like a shell of myself and eveything was forced between us for a long time, we both know that. I don’t think it really was either of our faults in that aspect, I think we just outgrew eachother, We really just didn’t work anymore like we used to. Even though that hurts to think about. But not eveything is permanent, in fact nothing is, which is why thats okay. I can be upset for all the relationships I’ve ever lost, or I can appreciate what I had in them and what I’ve gained from them. I’m at peace, I’ve let everything go. I think one of my best signs of progress was not only seriously accepting and working on my issues, but also realizing how seriously hurt I felt by what you did so so many times. That helped me move on because I blamed myself for a lot of things, but I no longer do that. It was 100% both of us, even if we wouldn’t want to admit it.

This all feels a bit cold and harsh now that I’m reading it, but it’s really not that t all. I really did care so much about you, you were someone I thought would be around forever, and I loved you like a sister. I don’t know how I feel now, it’s just kinda grey, which makes no sense I know, I just know that I have never had a grudge, and that I hope you do well in life. Wow this is dramatic lmao. Honestly if you ever needed me in the future I’d still probably be there.


I don’t want to ever write another of these, because I owe it to myself to make changes for me, and I guess I am just using this to bounce ideas off of.

Damn, this was wild. If anyone’s reading this, that’s on you, because this was hella long

I don’t hate you but I don’t know if I feel anything positive related to you either. I’m weirdly indifferent if that makes any sense. I used to be heartbroken for a bit, but I’m so much better now. When everything fell to shit and you ended things, I was devastated, I was convincing myself that I was fine, but now I think that I really am. It’s like waves man, sometimes it’s terribly low, others I feel fantastic. Recently I've been feeling great more times than not. But it has nothing to do with you. I’ve started a process of healing and growth, I’ve come to accept and admit my shortcomings and unhealthy patterns, I’m fixing them, and I’m becoming a person that I’m proud of. In a cliche way, I feel like I can breathe, I’ve cut out a lot of negativity in my life, and I’m learning more about who I am every day. I don’t want to be the person that I was before, I hated how I felt about myself and how I had little control over my own issues and let them affect others. But now I’ve worked through a lot of major issues, I’ve healed many things from my past, and I’m genuinely happy and I love it.

Personally, I don’t give a damn whether you hate me or not, it’s justified, but regardless it’s out of my mind. I’m learning to genuinely love myself and others, I’m setting boundaries that I didn’t have before, so that I don’t let people walk all over me. I’ve come to terms with a lot of stuff that happened to me as a kid, and how it affects me now, and what to do about it. (Also, I heard you say shit about me lying about all of that. All I can say really is that I Never was. I could try to convince you, but I don’t owe that to you nor do I need you to “believe me” fuck off with that)

I now know why I acted they way I did. I never realized how anxious I was all the time, how afraid I was that everyone secretly hated me, or was going to leave. After talking to professionals, we had a lot of interesting things come to light, but in particular my history of anxious attachment. Basically that means that I would always seek out validation and affirmation that my relationships with people were actually real, that they cared, and constantly was afraid that everyone would eventually leave me. I was also made aware of my habits with unhealthy and damaging relationships. Even though I was miserable, I was never able to speak up and explain when something seriously hurt me, because I didn’t want them to hate me. I would always take blame no matter what, and I was really paranoid. Which is why when it came down to you saying enough is enough, I was upset, even though I knew this had been coming for many months. I kinda wish I were the one to end things just so that for once I could feel a semblance of control, but I know I never could’ve in that mental state, so in a way it was a very wonderful thing that it was you. Also, you should’ve been more clear with how you ended things. It was all on your terms, you made it clear but not clear enough what you wanted, and I wish you could’ve done that better. “We vibe but we don’t vibe as often” that was dumb. Tell me straight up whether you want to talk in the future or not. I didn’t understand that was a nice way of letting things go, so I tried for like a week until I just was done. If you ever want to talk to me, you are going to have to reach out, because it was /you/ who ended things. I think that’s only fair. But to be honest I doubt there would even be a point. It’s weird, you’re like a stranger that I know so much about. I doubt things right now could feel anything but just weird.

In general, we both deserved better than that whole last year. I was at the tipping point for a whole personality change and serious changes, and I think you were the tipping point, which in a way sucks, because you inadvertently are connected to my progress.

I spent a lot of time placing my worth into others opinions of me, but now I am overcoming that very nicely.

I don’t think I have anything to say to you. I’ve never been mad, at myself? Maybe, but not you. I don’t know if I miss you though. I think I used to, but I miss the good Memories and shit, not the empty feeling where I’m gutted every time I would see you. I felt like a shell of myself and eveything was forced between us for a long time, we both know that. I don’t think it really was either of our faults in that aspect, I think we just outgrew eachother, We really just didn’t work anymore like we used to. Even though that hurts to think about. But not eveything is permanent, in fact nothing is, which is why thats okay. I can be upset for all the relationships I’ve ever lost, or I can appreciate what I had in them and what I’ve gained from them. I’m at peace, I’ve let everything go. I think one of my best signs of progress was not only seriously accepting and working on my issues, but also realizing how seriously hurt I felt by what you did so so many times. That helped me move on because I blamed myself for a lot of things, but I no longer do that. It was 100% both of us, even if we wouldn’t want to admit it.

This all feels a bit cold and harsh now that I’m reading it, but it’s really not that t all. I really did care so much about you, you were someone I thought would be around forever, and I loved you like a sister. I don’t know how I feel now, it’s just kinda grey, which makes no sense I know, I just know that I have never had a grudge, and that I hope you do well in life. Wow this is dramatic lmao. Honestly if you ever needed me in the future I’d still probably be there.


I don’t want to ever write another of these, because I owe it to myself to make changes for me, and I guess I am just using this to bounce ideas off of.

Damn, this was wild. If anyone’s reading this, that’s on you, because this was hella long

I don’t hate you but I don’t know if I feel anything positive related to you either. I’m weirdly indifferent if that makes any sense. I used to be heartbroken for a bit, but I’m so much better now. When everything fell to shit and you ended things, I was devastated, I was convincing myself that I was fine, but now I think that I really am. It’s like waves man, sometimes it’s terribly low, others I feel fantastic. Recently I've been feeling great more times than not. But it has nothing to do with you. I’ve started a process of healing and growth, I’ve come to accept and admit my shortcomings and unhealthy patterns, I’m fixing them, and I’m becoming a person that I’m proud of. In a cliche way, I feel like I can breathe, I’ve cut out a lot of negativity in my life, and I’m learning more about who I am every day. I don’t want to be the person that I was before, I hated how I felt about myself and how I had little control over my own issues and let them affect others. But now I’ve worked through a lot of major issues, I’ve healed many things from my past, and I’m genuinely happy and I love it.

Personally, I don’t give a damn whether you hate me or not, it’s justified, but regardless it’s out of my mind. I’m learning to genuinely love myself and others, I’m setting boundaries that I didn’t have before, so that I don’t let people walk all over me. I’ve come to terms with a lot of stuff that happened to me as a kid, and how it affects me now, and what to do about it. (Also, I heard you say shit about me lying about all of that. All I can say really is that I Never was. I could try to convince you, but I don’t owe that to you nor do I need you to “believe me” fuck off with that)

I now know why I acted they way I did. I never realized how anxious I was all the time, how afraid I was that everyone secretly hated me, or was going to leave. After talking to professionals, we had a lot of interesting things come to light, but in particular my history of anxious attachment. Basically that means that I would always seek out validation and affirmation that my relationships with people were actually real, that they cared, and constantly was afraid that everyone would eventually leave me. I was also made aware of my habits with unhealthy and damaging relationships. Even though I was miserable, I was never able to speak up and explain when something seriously hurt me, because I didn’t want them to hate me. I would always take blame no matter what, and I was really paranoid. Which is why when it came down to you saying enough is enough, I was upset, even though I knew this had been coming for many months. I kinda wish I were the one to end things just so that for once I could feel a semblance of control, but I know I never could’ve in that mental state, so in a way it was a very wonderful thing that it was you. Also, you should’ve been more clear with how you ended things. It was all on your terms, you made it clear but not clear enough what you wanted, and I wish you could’ve done that better. “We vibe but we don’t vibe as often” that was dumb. Tell me straight up whether you want to talk in the future or not. I didn’t understand that was a nice way of letting things go, so I tried for like a week until I just was done. If you ever want to talk to me, you are going to have to reach out, because it was /you/ who ended things. I think that’s only fair. But to be honest I doubt there would even be a point. It’s weird, you’re like a stranger that I know so much about. I doubt things right now could feel anything but just weird.

In general, we both deserved better than that whole last year. I was at the tipping point for a whole personality change and serious changes, and I think you were the tipping point, which in a way sucks, because you inadvertently are connected to my progress.

I spent a lot of time placing my worth into others opinions of me, but now I am overcoming that very nicely.

I don’t think I have anything to say to you. I’ve never been mad, at myself? Maybe, but not you. I don’t know if I miss you though. I think I used to, but I miss the good Memories and shit, not the empty feeling where I’m gutted every time I would see you. I felt like a shell of myself and eveything was forced between us for a long time, we both know that. I don’t think it really was either of our faults in that aspect, I think we just outgrew eachother, We really just didn’t work anymore like we used to. Even though that hurts to think about. But not eveything is permanent, in fact nothing is, which is why thats okay. I can be upset for all the relationships I’ve ever lost, or I can appreciate what I had in them and what I’ve gained from them. I’m at peace, I’ve let everything go. I think one of my best signs of progress was not only seriously accepting and working on my issues, but also realizing how seriously hurt I felt by what you did so so many times. That helped me move on because I blamed myself for a lot of things, but I no longer do that. It was 100% both of us, even if we wouldn’t want to admit it.

This all feels a bit cold and harsh now that I’m reading it, but it’s really not that t all. I really did care so much about you, you were someone I thought would be around forever, and I loved you like a sister. I don’t know how I feel now, it’s just kinda grey, which makes no sense I know, I just know that I have never had a grudge, and that I hope you do well in life. Wow this is dramatic lmao. Honestly if you ever needed me in the future I’d still probably be there.


I don’t want to ever write another of these, because I owe it to myself to make changes for me, and I guess I am just using this to bounce ideas off of.

Damn, this was wild. If anyone’s reading this, that’s on you, because this was hella long

I take it back, you suck. You never can handle being wrong, it’s always someone else’s fault, you blow up for no reason all the time and refuse to communicate and hold grudges forever

You never knew how much I truly liked you. I told you I liked someone else just to cover it up. Looking back at it, I was so obvious. How couldn't you tell?

I wish you wouldn't lie to me about everything. We were supposed to be best friends but why couldn't you just be yourself. You were the one person I felt like I could be 100% around. I just wish you would reach out to me sometimes.

ur cool. ur the only one who really understand everything. i feel like i can tell u anything and i like that about you. i really do like u.

i knew we was beyond saving when we had the last argument, however i`ll never stop loving you and not a day will go by that i won`t think of you no matter where i am or who i`m with.

I still like you and haven’t stopped since sixth grade. I want you in my life and i hope you can give me a second chance

You were my first bestfriend. When we fell apart in 6th grade I felt like i lost a huge piece of me. I was depressed for almost 2 years because of it. I still love you and you will always have a piece in my heart along with all the memories I hope we find eachother and repair what we broke. Miss you

I put more effort and love into you than you ever did for me, and you just fucked my emotions uo simply because you could