Unsent messages to G

i really miss you man!! being able to see you for only a short period of time is still so nice but i miss being able to speak to you like we normally would!! i know you are busy right now but i need you g

it’s been 3 years already and you’re with someone new, but I’m still waiting for u to take me to Paris.

It was not fair to tell me you loved me just to say you don't love me anyomore three days later and then acting like we never met.

Im sorry I can't explain everything. I'm trying. I'm sorry for leading you on, you make me happy but I will never love you the way you want me to. I'm sorry, I promise I am.

Te di todo mi amor, te di mi esfuerzo, mi cariño, mi apoyo incondicional. Y aun asi nunca me lo diste a mi. Me arrepiento de haberte dado mi tiempo y esfuerzo. No te perdono por tratarme como una opcion. Me importabas, pero ahora ya se que yo a ti no. No eres mas que un mentiroso que solo se aprovecho de mi. Te desearia lo mejor, pero ya lo tuviste.

its been a while since we've talked and I still wonder if u really do care about me. Even though I try to take my mind off things I can't help but remind u in some time of the day. U were a big part of my life and I guess its hard to just let go that easily. I mean yeah u treated me like shit most of the time but u were so important to me and I think u still are and I hope one day ill find a better person than u to love and cherish.

im sorry i havent visited you since the funeral. i miss you everyday im just healing. maybe we can get ice cream later?

what hurt me the most is the fact that you told me you would choose me over anyone but yet you chose her.

I had a dream about you last night. Thought I was over you but I never felt as happy as I did in that moment. Now I don't know what to do because whenever I see you I don't know what to do anymore. Please let this not be unrequited.

Wonder if you still look at our old pictures and videos and think about me and what we had, till u ruined it all.

Look at u tryna slowly come back into my life once i’m starting to do good again. You’re a few months too late x

I love you so much. You are all I want, you saved me and you have no idea. I have so much to tell you my love

After the longest time, overcoming some of my insecurities, i finally felt good enough for a person like you, and then you left with no explanation, and now I don't feel good enough for anyone.

i don’t know why i think of you but i do. im not sure what i did for you to say such mean things about me i hope you’re well tho i hope brownie is good

you can be so confusing. one day you're all over me, then the next you're so distant. why don't you see how much it hurts?

i love you so much and im sorry im not the best at being there for you, I try to hard please know that I really do.you’re my whole world and I’m so scared I’m gonna get replaced even though you reassure me you won’t.

i hate you so fucking much fuck you FUCK YOU FUCK YOU why did u leave me you said that you loved me :(

Because of you, I'm no longer afraid of the dark. I realized that there are worse monsters out there.

even though i could say i hate you i love you so much, you made the times where i felt the loneliest feel not so lonely

i wishes u cared more for me, i wished u put more effort into us, we could’ve made it work but i released a relationship takes two people and i was worth more than just a hug when u felt like it, i hope u have a good future but all i can do is hope since u blocked me on everything lol so much pain

I don´t know if you are the one. But I am confusing myself. Please be clear with me and let me be myself.

Je t'ai aimé, j'ai fait de mon mieux pour essayer de te rendre heureux durant cette année. Je t'aime toujours autant aujourd'hui, malgré que je sois partie il y a un mois. Je sais, j'ai rompu toutes nos promesses, j'étais sincère quand je t'ai dit que ça serait pour la vie. Je le pense encore malheureusement.. Tu me manques tellement, je comprends ta décision de ne plus vouloir réessayer, tu n'as surement plus la force, c'est vrai que notre histoire était terriblement compliquée. Sache juste que j'ai passé la meilleure année à tes côtés, je n'ai jamais connue une histoire mieux que la notre, je n'ai jamais été aussi heureuse. Tu me manques tellement, j'aimerais pouvoir revenir en arrière et effacer toutes les erreurs qu'on a commises, effacer cette soirée ou j'ai décidé d'en finir. J'aimerais pouvoir revenir en arrière et te dire a quel point je t'aime, je sais que si je n'avais pas fait ça rien n'aurait changé aujourd'hui je serais toujours à tes côtés... Je suis désolé pour tout, je n'arrive pas à tourner la page, je ne retrouverai jamais quelqu'un comme toi, je ne pourrai jamais t'oublier. Tout me fait penser à toi autour de moi, sûrement parce que je ne fais que penser à toi. Tu dois sans doute essayer de passer à autre chose, tu dois même me détester à l'heure qu'il est. Je suis vraiment désolé, je regrette tout. je t'aime jusqu'à la mort.

i'm sorry. you scare me sometimes, i don't know how i feel. i planted the irises in my garden, but i'm worried the soil is too cold. I

It feels like I've known u for years, perhaps our souls struck a perfect match on a timeless era, I love you.

you told me u wanted to work on urself. ur a idiot and a player, there was always going to be someone for u to move on to cuz that’s what u do. all that stuff u said cant have meant anythign to u and i hate your for it, but then i wonder was it me? where those girls so much better than me and you just let me down easily? it doenst make sense. i still love you

You know what sucks about liking a straight girl like you? I haven’t even tried yet, and I’ve already lost.

Creo que nunca leerás esto pero solo quiero que sepas que realmente eres una mierda me haces sentir tan mal, eres el único al que le dije mis inseguridades y lo mal que me sentía, dijiste que me ayudarías y que nunca te alejarias, lamento tanto no poder hacerte feliz y no ser bonita como te gustan, lo siento de verdad, se que no es mi culpa pero por qué, por qué luego de hacerme sentir mal vuelves y dices que me quieres y que lo hiciste por mi, no es así, no nos engañemos, no te gusto lo sé, me haces sentir tan mal en serio no se cómo expresar tantos sentimientos que tengo contra ti, espero de verdad y encuentres a alguien que te haga muy feliz, sabes, te entiendo, no pudiste soportar lo deprimida que estoy, lo mal que todo me hace sentir y no te culpo, créeme que también intento salir de este hoyo que cada vez me absorbe más, gracias por enseñarme como quiero que me quieran, no pude quererte y expresarme como querías que lo hiciera, lo siento, lo siento mucho, no sabes cuánto pude desear que esto funcionará, hice mi mayor esfuerzo por ti, lo di todo por ti, ¿Qué tengo de malo? ¿Por qué no puedes quererme?, cambie mucho por ti, deje de amarme el poco que me amaba para amarte a ti, lo lamento, se que eso no fue suficiente perdón. :(

You asked to why I decided to block you on everything after summer. I thought that maybe you were going to become more conscious of your actions and be ashamed, but once I heard your friends talking about our "hook up" I found one more reason why to hate you. The thing here is, you weren't the first one to sexually assault me, but you were the one that made me feel sick for months, mentally and physically. I wish you would realize that when you put your d*ck inside me without my consent, after I told you I didn't want to do anything like that, I didn't enjoy it. The only reason why I gave in after all was because you made me feel shitty for not wanting to do anything. Thank Within that short amount of time you managed to take everything from me even though I didn't want you to. You made me hate the idea of letting any male near me. You made me scared over the fact that even though I might say no or give further notice that I don't want to do anything crazy it may not stop it. I hate how you think we "hooked up" when the only one who enjoyed it was you, I was just there numb. I hate you because you were older, and yet you didn't seem to know right from wrong. I hate you with my whole heart. I hate you because your the one who made my nightmare become a living experience.

Claro que te amé, sí fuiste especial para mí. Pero me lastimaste y te lastimé mucho, así que decidí irme. Perdona por no decir adiós.

I hate that I spent months loving you and imagining a future. I hate that they ruined my life. I hate that we turned out this way. I never imagined it would turn into this.

I'm listening to ’’your call’. It used to be my song, but it became ours the minute you played it in your car and we started singing along. I understand you fucked me up. We fucked each other up with revenge and toxicity. I'm grieving you.

i liked you. i liked you a lot. there’s always been this idea in my head that you liked me back but that feeling was never there. oh how i wish we could go back to when things felt right. staying up talking to you was the light of my day. to this day i feel like i’m not over the thought of you. i wish i can get to talk to you one more time.

Hoy pase por ese lugar donde fue nuestra primera cita
Y ví a una pareja
Ojalá y para ellos si sea su tiempo y no se dejen ir como hicimos nosotros

realmente me hubiera gustado mucho conocerte pero sólo tenía 13 años y en ese tiempo no era tan madura, perdón por si alguna vez te incomodé, sólo espero que algún día nos volvieramos a ver y hacernos conocidos :D

today maybe he texted me but i don’t see it yet because i’m afraid that if i see no text form him i’ll cry all night and day ;)

i loved you so much and if i won’t ever come back to you i hope you find someone to love the same as i did with you even if i didn’t told you...promise me

Ho sempre avuto la sensazione di sentirmi al sicuro tra le tue braccia, il motivo per cui sono così innamorata di te è il modo in cui tu ti prendi cura di ciò che io trascuro.
Vorrei che tu viva nei miei abbracci, che tu viva con il
mio pensiero senza mai far diminuire l’amore nei miei confronti.
Tutto ciò è oppressivo perché non vedo fine.

Siempre supe que no superaste a p, por eso era como era yo, no sabia si estabas ahi por compromiso pero no se sentia chido

im sorry. like so sorry. i dont think you understand cause whenever i apologise you reply with 'bla bla bla'. i fucked this up ik. i miss what we had already, and its only been a week. cant listen to pretty much 1/2 my playlist, especially ivy, w/out thinking of you. i do be sorry

lo siento mucho mi amor. te amo con toda de mi corazon, pero no estas escuchando. he tomado toda la culpa, a pesar de que tienes tanto la culpa como yo. no es posible para perdir el amor para alguien en una semana

hi
i still think abt you and its weird cause there isnt much to think abt.
i was a dick.
i shouldve explained what i wanted and how i felt, instead of sending a sticker to your paragraghs.
i just knew where it was heading and didnt want to seem like you hurt me and that i didnt care.
but i did. i do
i hope he makes you happy

Even if for a few days, with you I felt something that I never had before, and for the first time after a while, I thought that maybe I could finally be happy. But I was wrong.

I still think that one day, maybe not soon, we’ll try again to make things work out, but I don't know if I can trust you

I just want you to know that i miss the old you. i don’t want you back but i so freaking miss you. I think about you every day, but we even wasn’t together.

loving you taught me so many things about myself and even though you weren't good for me I still loved you endlessly

Since the first moment I saw you I feel in love with you. Even tho we didn't know each other and we still don't.

i miss you so much and i would do anything to see you once more. my heart shatters every time i'm reminded about how you're not hear with me right now. when i hear that certain song it's like the world stops, i honestly don't know how much longer i can handle not having you here. christmas is not the same, i'm struggling alot without you, i'm only getting worse, i hope you're okay up there:), another birthday without you but i hope you're watching over me. i can't imagine you're proud of me but i promise you i'm trying my hardest. there is so much i could say right now but i honestly don't know how to put how much i hurt into words, just remember no one can/will EVER replace you okay, remember that for me? i miss you so much. i love you endlessly

We've known each other since we were babies, I knew from a young age that I felt different about you. I know that i don't want a s/o now. I felt really bad the day that shii went down but there's no one to blame except myself. I was disapointed in myself but i knew it was the right thing to do as i know it would hurt more to end our relationship that just reject you because i can convince myself i dont like you vut if i said yes i'd have to get over the whole relationship thing. Im glad we are closer now but i dont want people to think we're more than friends. You showed me a part of me that i never saw. I'm really glad we talked. Ik we were a failed relationship but everything happens for a reason. Ofcourse i liked you but i wasn't ready. Im happy for you and im glad you have found a lovely girl and i hope you to work out.

the day that I left you I didn't even give you a hug. little did I know I would be staring at your coffin in just a few days wishing I could hug you one last time

i want to spend every second next to you, laying in your arms. you make me so happy. i wouldn’t be alive if it wasn’t for you.