Unsent messages to G
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 20, 2020, 4:09 pm UTC
you once read, ‘soon you will forget the color of my eyes.’
its been 2 years.
they’re this exact shade of blue.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 17, 2020, 8:56 pm UTC
My girl I need to save us so we need to say goodbye and leave it all behind even if we dont want it and we still be in love
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 16, 2020, 7:47 pm UTC
I’m sorry I never said goodbye or I love you much, I should’ve but I’m more sorry I didn’t hold your hand when you asked me to I’m so sorry G I miss you with every piece of me x
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 16, 2020, 7:46 pm UTC
I’m sorry I never said goodbye or I love you much, I should’ve but I’m more sorry I didn’t hold your hand when you asked me to I’m so sorry G I miss you with every piece of me x
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 16, 2020, 11:26 am UTC
Why am i feeling this much pressure and pain, and I cry all the time and I’m so freaking depressed and lonely
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 14, 2020, 7:10 pm UTC
You left me without an explanation and you took my trust in myself and the ability to love others with you..
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 14, 2020, 2:57 pm UTC
Prima mi chiamavi piccola... Ora non mi rivolgi la parola.
Il vero problema è che non ho ancora capito il perché.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 12, 2020, 7:59 am UTC
I don’t think I truly know anything.
No seriously! I’m never sure about anything.
What am I doing? I’ve been faking it for years.
Do I love you? Should I love you? I don’t care.
Yes I do.
I’ve been trying to not think about it for over a year. How pathetic is that?
I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I keep on trying to distract myself from what’s going on. But I can’t.
It always catches up to me.
Like when I don’t do my homework because I’m an idiot.
I’ll never make it anywhere. How the fuck would an idiot become successful?
My life isn’t even bad. Like at all. I have so much.
I love, I laugh, I cry, and I feel.
Yet, I always find a way to fuck it up.
Why can’t I take my own fucking advice and go to fucking therapy.
Please stop. please.
Why is time moving so fast all of a sudden?
I need to make decisions.
About my future, about my feelings, and about you.
I can’t be stuck in this anymore.
Not like I totally know what ‘this’ entails, or even what it means.
I still need to get the fuck out of here.
I need to see something.
But I’ve never been more unsure on what I can do.
I wish I had a fucking ounce of understanding, so I can finally make a decision.
What if I’m missing it all?
I don’t know.
I guess I never will.
I love you.
I wish I didn’t. You’re not real.
It’s just the idea of you.
Fuck you.
You’ve done nothing good for me.
I cannot stand you.
Yet, I always check to see if you replied. Or I always look out for your car while I'm driving near your house.I It’s sickening.
I hate you.
I’ve been so stagnant for so long.
I want to know how to live.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 11, 2020, 8:40 pm UTC
this was the colour i chose for our bedroom, i finally realised that you were just a fantasy i tried so hard to keep.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 11, 2020, 5:00 pm UTC
Going back in a relationship is the same thing as watshing the same movie twice and hoping for another ending
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 9, 2020, 8:42 pm UTC
i really loved you if i ever told you i didn’t i was lying please come back i miss the way you talk , you were something special
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 9, 2020, 11:53 am UTC
i still don't understand why you fell off the face of the earth when i needed you most, then show up with a new girl
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 8, 2020, 4:27 pm UTC
Thank you for making me feel what being loved feels like:) thank you for being my first, I don’t regret dating you.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 7, 2020, 2:59 am UTC
I really wish I could tell this to you,but I´m not brave enough.
I´ve been in love with u this whole time,you make me so happy,like nobody has ever made me.
I´ve always had this weird feeling that we are meant to be.I wish you felt the same way.I wonder if all this pain will go away someday...x L
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 5, 2020, 11:59 pm UTC
You took a part of me and made me hate myself. You are gone but the consequences of your actions are not. I hate you.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 4, 2020, 7:59 pm UTC
i let you fuck me up more than i should've. i wish i had been strong enough to walk away before you did
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 4, 2020, 7:59 pm UTC
i let you fuck me up more than i should've. i wish i had been strong enough to walk away before you did
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 2, 2020, 4:28 am UTC
I wrote a letter to remind myself that I no longer love you. I read it for the first time and I feel a lot stronger.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 2, 2020, 4:23 am UTC
I still have a diary of everything that happened between us. There hasn't been a new entry in months.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 1, 2020, 9:37 pm UTC
You hurt me more than you’ll ever know. My best friend... really? And I was willing to give it all up for you.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: October 1, 2020, 1:54 am UTC
i dont know how me a solid 1 out of 10 got with you a solid 11 out of 10, you are gorgeous even when you dont think so, you are the nice person on this earth and you are the most simpithetic and kind hearted person in the world, you should stick up for yourself more and you should change the world to adapt you and not change to adapt to the world. you are perfect in every way and you are so pretty and so nice i didnt know god could make such a perfect perfection, you are my favorite part of my day and the best part of my life, you are with me when I sleep and you never leave my head. I dont know what I am to you but ill be whatever you want me to be , wheather its your friend or your cuddle buddy. I have a really bad memory but if their is one thing I wont forget, its where i come from.
Love,
Devon
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 30, 2020, 5:39 am UTC
hey, ever since i met you you've completely changed my life. i know i dont show it but i really care about you. no matter how many times i feel like youre plain goofy i genuinely care about you. i think i love you, i dont know in what way anymore, sometimes i feel like im in love with you, and sometimes i feel like i just love you, in a good friend way. its crazy how much you can make me laugh and smile and make me feel the things i do. when we call each other for hours and play games and laugh and you "rap" to me, those are the times i feel like im in love with you, but when i realize we cant be together i feel like i can only love you as a friend. i think youre my soulmate, whether its romaticly or platonic .i really hope i can see you soon again.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 30, 2020, 3:48 am UTC
I can’t stop thinking about you. I miss you so much it hurts me every single day. I’ve never cried for someone this much
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 23, 2020, 4:47 pm UTC
i know you’ll never see this, you’d think it was stupid anyway. i just needed somewhere to say it’s been a year since homecoming and i still have dreams about you.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 22, 2020, 6:14 am UTC
i hope we find a way to make it work. you havent left yet but i miss you already. please come back for me
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 20, 2020, 10:20 pm UTC
Damn, I sincerely hope you've gotten the help you need. And my sincerest apologies to your gf even though I don't text you at all, apart from the last message in blue. It's so funny considering all the shit you used to talk about her. I have nothing to say to you.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 18, 2020, 7:13 am UTC
promised myself i wouldn't fall for another goody 2 shoes who makes me realize what a shitty person i am in comparison & yet...
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 17, 2020, 7:40 pm UTC
i wish you knew how much it hurt me when u stopped texting me the lovey dovey way when we started dating it’s like you fell out of love that fast and i ignored it because i really liked you and didn’t want to loose u again but i always felt alone in ur presence and it sucked feeling like i was the only one happy to be in that relationship. when i broke up with you i cried for days and i know it’s probably dumb but i really really wanted us to workout lol. i still miss you i always have and you’ll always have a place in my heart i just wish i knew if u were my soulmate or not because then i’d know if i should give up on u or not.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 15, 2020, 3:10 pm UTC
i don’t know if I should love you or hate you. i love you for making me realize that I am worth so much more than I got. but I hate you for hurting me in the ways that you did
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 13, 2020, 10:01 pm UTC
I don’t know if I’m falling out of love or it’s just a rough patch. I don’t know if I trust you anymore. I’m sorry
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 13, 2020, 4:40 pm UTC
i’m sorry if you thought i hated you. i didn’t, i promise. i was just young, and trying to figure out who i was.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 13, 2020, 11:08 am UTC
you're costantly breaking a piece of me everyday and you don't even know lol. It's funny how cruel this life can be. Get out of my head, please.
XOXO
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 13, 2020, 9:45 am UTC
i did everything for u and u did just enough to keep me there. ik ur going thru stuff but it's not okay. and evertime i convince myself im done u change again. ur toxic but i need u
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 11, 2020, 7:21 pm UTC
I hope you somehow know who I am,I wish you could see how happy I get when I hear you,I wish you knew how much love I love have for you,I miss you but no one would understand
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 11, 2020, 10:33 am UTC
you're not my first love, but we were best friends. your toxicity shattered me and ruined my mental health
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 11, 2020, 5:03 am UTC
How can you ask why im annoyed and then continue to make me feel like a burden even after i tell you?
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 10, 2020, 10:52 pm UTC
i still haven’t found my outlet, not telling you everything anymore hurts so much more then i thought it would.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 10, 2020, 7:08 pm UTC
I wish i could go back to the moment in your car when you told me my eyes were pretty and i looked at your lips and we both knew it was gonna be a good kiss.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 8, 2020, 7:19 pm UTC
g,
when i first met you, i instantly found you so attractive. i remember being in the pool standing next to you thinking wow this kid is so hot. little did i know i would completely fall for you. the first time we hooked up, i was so nervous. i kept scrambling my words together and my heart was racing so fast. i really like kissing you. that whole next week i had never felt so star struck before. all i could think about was the next time i would see you and what would happen. anytime i would get a notification from you my heart would stop. hanging out with you made me the happiest girl ever. i knew that we would never date and for a while i was perfectly fine with that. then one friday, i hooked up with you and i truly started to feel something. later that night i snuck out to see you. that’s when i could tell i rlly liked u. the way i could tell was i was in the worst mood and my friends were being annoying, but i still wanted to kiss you. since that night it’s felt like nothing has been the same. i’ve been so confused bc every time i get a buzz i’m praying it’s you but it isn’t. what happened? what did i do? i rlly like you. you changed me for the better and you actually made me really happy. thank you. i pray one day you’ll answer me. my heart really hearts, g.
with so much love,
C.
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 8, 2020, 12:41 pm UTC
you showed me what love feels like. maybe next time the universe will get the timing right. i love you. always
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 7, 2020, 2:57 am UTC
I think I am really in love with you and I hope you never leave me. I don’t want to live life without you
From: ABC
To: G
Date: September 7, 2020, 2:17 am UTC
I think you were my first love even though you weren’t my first s/o. Did you feel what I felt or was it just me? .
