Unsent messages to G
From: ABC
To: G
You were the first person to ever make me feel safe, and then suddenly the person who hurt me most of all.
From: ABC
To: G
I don't think I'll ever truly understand why you did what you did. I can remember telling all my friends "He's the nicest boy, he'll never do anything to hurt me." And yet you were the person who has hurt me most in my life. I've never felt so second best. I compare myself to her constantly, she is gorgeous and she is so different to me. Why would you pit me against her? I don't understand how you could lay in bed with me and tell me I was your favourite person, and that you've never felt like this for a girl before, and then drive to her house the next day. I feel physically sick when I think about the way I opened up to you. How could you watch me fall for you and know the entire time that you were going to end up hurting me so badly? You have made me feel so truly unloveable. I was your dirty little secret, hiding me away from your life at uni, but letting me believe you were telling everyone about me. Is there something so fundamentally unloveable about me that you felt ashamed of me? I have never felt so small in my life. How could someone who I thought so highly of, do something so cruel? You will never ever understand how much this has destroyed me. I am a different person now than I was before I knew you. There is a change in me and it makes me feel sick to know that you've had that effect on me. Your friends have told me about your bad ex. You are MY bad ex. I can't believe you could go through a relationship where you were treated badly, and come out the other side thinking 'yeah lets make someone else feel as bad as I felt'. You are sick in the head, your lies are so deep and so extreme and you held them up for a YEAR. No wonder you were so stressed all the time, you were leading a double life. I want to call you and scream at you and tell you every way you have hurt me, but you don't deserve to hear my voice. I have never been so hurt in all my life. I always thought you were going to be someone special in my life and instead you are a black hole that has destroyed any positive memories from the last year. I can't even eat fucking sushi without feeling physically ill because it reminds me of you. Fuck you, this is the most painful experience I've ever been through. I hope you think about me for the rest of your life, and realise what you gave up.
From: ABC
To: G
i really miss you man!! being able to see you for only a short period of time is still so nice but i miss being able to speak to you like we normally would!! i know you are busy right now but i need you g
From: ABC
To: G
the drawings you drew for me made me feel warm and soft but why does it feel like you ripped the paper apart after our love was over ?
From: ABC
To: G
hi
i still think abt you and its weird cause there isnt much to think abt.
i was a dick.
i shouldve explained what i wanted and how i felt, instead of sending a sticker to your paragraghs.
i just knew where it was heading and didnt want to seem like you hurt me and that i didnt care.
but i did. i do
i hope he makes you happy
From: ABC
To: G
im sorry things didnt work out but sometimes people grow out of one another. that's the way life works and will always work. its never really fair.
From: ABC
To: G
i hope we find a way to make it work. you havent left yet but i miss you already. please come back for me
From: ABC
To: G
you were not my first love, u were my first friend.
don’t know what i did wrong but i miss u everyday
From: ABC
To: G
You made me feel like I wasn’t good enough, pretty enough, funny enough. Without you I now see I am better than you ever deserved.
From: ABC
To: G
i know you like me. i know i told you it think i like you but i’m not sure if i like you, or just the idea of you.
From: ABC
To: G
rrfsh q mtregove sa kafsh mund t trg dikush...i hope u miss me one day so bad u cant do anything ab it..it was hard at first but im proud to say i havent love you for so long ive forgotten we ever were a thing
From: ABC
To: G
i think you know. no matter how discreet i try to be, i think you see my secret smiles and you see my lingering gazes. i think you hear the way my friends and i whisper to each other. i think you know, but i hope you don’t. i hope you don’t know that my mind wanders to you so frequently. i hope you don’t know that your face is the first one i seek in a crowd. i hope you don’t know that your laugh is the laugh i can pick out from a chorus of them. and i hope that, if you do, you don’t break my heart.
From: ABC
To: G
lo siento mucho mi amor. te amo con toda de mi corazon, pero no estas escuchando. he tomado toda la culpa, a pesar de que tienes tanto la culpa como yo. no es posible para perdir el amor para alguien en una semana
From: ABC
To: G
I don’t care. I don’t care. I’ll never care about you. I want you to die. Your very life is fucking regardless. Constantly winging about being neglected and how everyone fucking leaves. I’ve left you but yet you are still here. You’re a lost fucking puppy and I’m not going to be the one to pick you up. Do it yourself. You’re an adult now George. Act like one. Spastic fuck.
From: ABC
To: G
i know you’ll never see this, you’d think it was stupid anyway. i just needed somewhere to say it’s been a year since homecoming and i still have dreams about you.
From: ABC
To: G
I still wonder if I ever actually loved you, but you taught me what it's like to love every part of a person completely. Imperfections and all. I wish it were different. I wish you felt the same as I did.
From: ABC
To: G
im sorry. like so sorry. i dont think you understand cause whenever i apologise you reply with 'bla bla bla'. i fucked this up ik. i miss what we had already, and its only been a week. cant listen to pretty much 1/2 my playlist, especially ivy, w/out thinking of you. i do be sorry
From: ABC
To: G
i seriously can’t help but think of what we could’ve been. there was so much potential. you even liked me first, but now you won’t talk to me and i’m stuck with feelings. i wish we talked about how we liked each other instead of ignoring it. now your past it and i can’t get you out of my head.
From: ABC
To: G
i can’t face the fact i have to find someone else to spend forever with, it was always suppose to be you
From: ABC
To: G
sometimes I feel like we are pretending to be closer than they are. I wish we could become what everyone else thinks we are but you don't open up so I don't open up and we are stuck, I do love you though, I just wish you would talk to me
From: ABC
To: G
i wish we could go back and take one last lap around the block before it all changed. i miss holding your hand in mine.
From: ABC
To: G
I still think of you every day, ur on my mind on occasions. and even tho you hurt me to the point where I didn't know who I was anymore, u taught me so much and I am so grateful for that.
From: ABC
To: G
Siempre supe que no superaste a p, por eso era como era yo, no sabia si estabas ahi por compromiso pero no se sentia chido
From: ABC
To: G
Ho sempre avuto la sensazione di sentirmi al sicuro tra le tue braccia, il motivo per cui sono così innamorata di te è il modo in cui tu ti prendi cura di ciò che io trascuro.
Vorrei che tu viva nei miei abbracci, che tu viva con il
mio pensiero senza mai far diminuire l’amore nei miei confronti.
Tutto ciò è oppressivo perché non vedo fine.
From: ABC
To: G
you spent six years loving me and six months breaking my heart. why couldn’t we have kept things sweet?
From: ABC
To: G
Even though you rejected me, I still think about you 24/7 to the point that it is starting to hurt me mentally.
From: ABC
To: G
I am thankful for the memories, and you taught me so much about life. I hope you get clean and most impotantly happy one day.
From: ABC
To: G
When you left for no reason you also broke me. I never loved someone so much. But you're gone now there's nothing I can do. But I would do anything to go back to June. xoxo tt
From: ABC
To: G
do you remember the night when you stayed up until i fell asleep
From: ABC
To: G
all i know is that in my worst times, i think of you and i still miss you
From: ABC
To: G
your always in my dreams and i wonder if yk that feeling too :)) deja vu…
From: ABC
To: G
was all my efforts nothing to you? :< i really thought we were okay ;((
From: ABC
To: G
In plain sight you hid, but you are what you did.
- To the smallest man who ever lived.
From: ABC
To: G
no matter how much you hurt me, i still want you.i wish you fought for us, i wish there's still “us”
From: ABC
To: G
I’m sorry for us… someday we will fix that? Or we already defeat?
From: ABC
To: G
I have never known what it’s like to feel safe in anyone’s arms; until yours, that is.
From: ABC
To: G
i no longer recognize the past versions of myself that loved you and i love that for me
From: ABC
To: G
i still keep the fortune in my phone case from when we saw each other last
From: ABC
To: G
despite the pain you put me through, I hope you know I’m always gonna care abt you. hope you’re well
From: ABC
To: G
I am so sorry sweet boy.
I hope one day soon I can fix this.
You have my whole heart
