Unsent messages to DREW

fuck you. how dare you call me a cunt anonymously. grow up and actually message me without all the soppy shit. i never wanted it.

god i fucking hate you. you knew i was falling for you and fast, and you were too. then you decided to stop taking to me because of my age when you essentially sought me out because i was a minor. i hope you burn in hell.

You don’t know how much I wish we can be a thing your that typical skater,Harry Potter watcher,vibes but it’s not that it’s the way you text me and I really do smile when I see you

I know we haven't spoken in a long time and I don't know what's going on in your life right now, but I hope you're doing okay. I think about you a lot.

Sometimes i wish i told you I loved you, but every time i see you're face i wish i could forget our blip.

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you. i don't care if you think love isn't real. i can't describe what I feel for you as anything other than love

You knew I loved you. Did you post her right away just to hurt me? I was already in enough pain from you leaving but now I feel like I was just being used.

All I wanted was for us to be happy together. I guess I never made you happy enough to stay. I’m sorry.

How come i started to like you when you got over me? Was it because i missed you? Did you love me that much?

i do love you. i always have, i just didn't realize it. i need you drew. i miss everything about you. the things i would do to get you back. you're my first love, and i'll never forget that. please come back.

you aren’t coming back this time ? It’s been a year, I can’t say that I’m still waiting but sometimes I wake up and wish I’d see you in my requests.

I’m getting married tomorrow. Part of me wishes you’d call me and tell me not to and that you still love me

You're my dad. You molested me. You're dying of cancer, and now I don't know how to feel. I hope you die. I hope I die too sometimes.

I wonder if you miss me.

i hope u have a good time germany lol. sometimes i hate you sometimes i miss you, i guess thats how it worked out.

Man I really miss you. It’s been so long and you’re still in my thoughts everyday. I wonder if you ever think about me. What happened to us?

i hope when the winter is over we can try again. i know we both have SAD and i think thats what this is i think we just need a break i dont think we're going to b e apart forever oh my god im fucking insane i sound like a freak lol so glad im not actually texting u this shit

im not taking the necklace off. ive been wearing it since you put it around my neck in june. its like a part of me now.

i always take things for granted. i never realized how hard it was to be without you until i was. am. idk. suzy keeps texting me and for a split second i think its you. i dont think i can be friends with you but i cant not be your friend because i love you and we think the same things and we're the shit twins! it just really hurts when we walk to goodwill in the dark side by side and you dont hold my hand. i wanted to hold hands yesterday so fucking bad i kept switching my umbrella so my empty hand was next to your empty hand but you didnt take the hint. or maybe you did. i miss when you used to press my fingernails and i didnt even ask but you knew its what i needed.

its really hard to think about how mad i am at you while my brother is (poorly) playing recorder in the other room. he is insufferable.

funny to think that if i didnt have crippling mommy issues you would still be my boyfriend. SOCIETY *maniacal laugh*

i go on here and look up my name and pretend that you know about this websites existence and care enough about me to even fucking think about me for five seconds and i like to pretend that the people writing things to people named finn are you. i miss you.

remember when we were on the train in portland after we saw the free goats and that guy thought i was a girl

sometimes i pretend you're next to me as im falling asleep. i would do anything to go back to the morning where i swallowed ur cum and almost threw up. that says a lot because i did NOT enjoy that experience very much.

i want to hold your hand but im afraid you'll pull away. i know you know im hurting. best friends can hold hands. make the first move for once, please.

. i miss when we hopped the fence of my school and smoked under the bleachers. i miss the day i realized i liked you at the movie theater. i miss when i introduced you to dayglow and m83. i miss when you would call me while i walked my dog and i would tell you dumb stories that i've never been able to tell anyone because they wouldn't listen. i miss our first date and i miss when you came over while my parents were out but they got back too early and i had to sneak you out the back gate. i miss the day it rained so hard our socks were wet and when we got to my house i gave you my shirt and blow dried your hair. i miss when you stole a white claw from 7/11 and we sat on a log by the street and ate that weird british biscuit and i was looking at ants. i miss the day at the river with suzy and thorn and sophie and the day at the river with just us. i miss biking places with you and sitting outside the library in june. i miss your pink hair. i miss being able to look at you without having to look away once you noticed i was looking. I MISS YOUR PARENTS??? i miss being your first everything. im sorry for crying yesterday at the park and making things weird. i fucking hate you for breaking up with me on our anniversary i fucking hate you for doing exactly what im afraid of i fucking hate you so much for everything you did but i cant because you're so . you. you're an amazing person and you're so fucking smart and funny an d you're so pretty and i dont want to be with anyone else. i hate you for making me fall in love with you and i dont know how to stop and you're all i can think about and i dont want to be your friend.

i’m happy without you i genuinely am but when you blocked me i felt my heart sink, we were just starting to be friends again n i didn’t do anything wrong, ik you used me it was obvious but to go round and say it doesn’t sit right with me. i loved you and a part of me always will but i’m over your shit now.

we're gonna get married one day. watch. we're meant to be together. i've never cared about someone so much before. i don't wanna say that i love u but i think i do

thank you for teaching me that just because what you did at the time made sense, I didn't deserve it.

Even though it seemed like we literally hated each other in middle school, I actually liked you a lot because you showed me your true personality. Throughout our time knowing each other, I was able to get to know you just by sitting next to you the whole school year (which did suck in a way lol) but I got to know you without your toxic friends getting in the way (they were low-key terrible friends though, except for two nice guys). Though you didn't show it with the other girls, I felt like you were actually super nice (and incredibly helpful too) and you would be a great friend (unlike what the other girls in our class said).

We tried it again for you to be exactly how you were before? You’re not this person. I miss the guy you really are.

I fucking hate how u played me after I let you in. You are quite possibly a psychopath, the fact that you could lie to me for years. Fuck you. May every relationship you have be as cold and hollow as your heart.

I play the role as your girl bsf and help w all ur girl problems.. but little do you know how madly in love I am with you.

where do i even begin. i miss you more than you will ever know. i just wish we had a little more time together. all i want is a hug. thats all. and maybe just one last time where everything was normal again and we were both happy. and one more moment where we can just cuddle on the couch and just talk about anything and everything. i miss my best friend, my rock, my happiness. if i could go back and change anything, it would be the fact that i made you my one and only happiness. thats too much pressure to put on another person and im sorry. i miss what we had. i miss just talking to you. but theres nothing i can do now. its over and you are not coming back. sometimes i wonder if you think about me, if you miss me at all. or if you remember all the memories and get sick to your stomach like i do. or if you cant sleep because the last time i saw you and the last time i was happy with you just keep replaying in your head. or is it just me? im glad that you moved on and that you are hopefully finding the happiness that you deserve, i just wish i could be a part of the happiness.

I have loved you for years. Sometimes I think you feel the same but I don't think I am allowed to ask

your eyes were this color blue. i loved them so much. you were everything to me. and then you got bored of me. you said you lost feelings. but i never did. you will always be that one boy that if i was in a room full of the people i've ever loved, i would run right into ur arms every single time. but you wouldent run into mine. you broke me. when u ended things between us i stopped eating for days. i lost all motivation for everything. you were my world. i loved u so much more than u loved me. i miss ur blonde hair and how u would always call me beautiful. i miss how u would say how you didint deserve me because i was so perfect. how u couldent understand how someone as amazing as me could be blessed into ur life. well i guess that blessing only lasted for so long. that you stopped loving me. and when you started paying attention to me again and made me feel like we could be something real again, really was shitty. you gave me false hope that you would love me again. fuck you for how u treated me. and fuck you for making me love you so much. I hate all the things u did. but the thing i hate the most is the fact that i don't hate u. not even a little bit. not even close. and that's the problem

sorry that i was obsessive. you have a great smile, and you gave me attention. maybe one day i’ll show you the love letter.

i miss you so much. its been over a year and i regret it. i find myself wanting to text you... but i know it wont be the same.

i miss you. i was so happy with you. you were my first love

I wonder if u still wear my bracelet. I think im over u now, but its still only u I see in my future. idk

i want you to know even though you absolutely fucked me over, im doing fine without you. i dont love you anymore.

I think i love you. I want to say it so bad but I dont want to hurt you. I Want you back more than anything but I also want you happy and it seems your happy without me. I dont know if I can fight for you anymore and need you to come back to me so we can talk and flirt and i can love you. I can show you all my love and recieve yours with open arms. I am ready for your love drew and you dont need to be scared baby im ready to give you all of mine. I want it all with you and I didnt realize until it was gone and I needed it. I need your love and i would give anything to be yours.

you probably never noticed me, just another quiet girl, while you were the popular boy. except i'm not in a movie, so i don't get the guy.

Honestly dude, Fuck u. I can't believe that I kept coming back to you for 9 years. You acted like u liked me and then decided I wasn't good enough and went to one of my friends and fucked with her. I'm so sick of your bs and I'm glad I found someone who actually cares about me and doesn't treat me like u did. I fell for you more times than I can count. And I am way out of your league in the first place, and whenever I would walk away you pull something and I came crawling back like nothing ever happened. Because I wanted to be with you that bad. And I knew it was toxic, and that you would never treat me right. I never knew your feelings, but I know that you don't want to lose me. I hope that you learn how to treat a girl right. And the fact that your not even attractive makes me falling for you even worse. Dude I love you but I'm not in love with you anymore, but I hate you at the same time. Maybe we'll stay friends, but I know that probably won't end well. Hopefully I make the right decision to walk away for good when it's time, unlike all the other times I came crawling back. I hope you realize how much you miss me when I'm gone. I won't be coming back. Suck my dick;)

I'm so scared I'll never get the chance to tell you how I feel. I don't want to lose you before it even begins. But I love everything about you. No one else has ever made me feel this alive. Please don't give up on me yet.

i stil cant get over you taking your life, i know you really liked me and i'm sorry i couldn't feel the same way for you. sometimes i wish that maybe i had been striaght and couldve loved you.

idk why i thought you would ever love me back i am finally not in love with you anymore and i think i’ll be ok

please just unblock me can we at least try and be friends and forget everything in the past and idek why I would wanna be friends w you when I have changed sm but yeah lol

i hate you for making me like this for always wanting to text you. your not good for me i know this but i need you to survive to make life easier but you couldnt care less about how i felt. u care about how she feels about what shes up to at 2pm and 2am but you only care about me when its 2 am and you need a hook up then wont text me days after

people tell me i could do so much better and they're probably right but that doesn't stop me from thinking ab u constantly

I gave you all I had to offer. I tried my best and always made time for you. Still, in the end idk it wasn't enough for you to feel the same. j

I thought about you the other day. We were 12 but doesn’t mean I still don’t miss you. Say hi when you get the chance