i always take things for granted. i never realized how hard it was to be without you until i was. am. idk. suzy keeps texting me and for a split second i think its you. i dont think i can be friends with you but i cant not be your friend because i love you and we think the same things and we're the shit twins! it just really hurts when we walk to goodwill in the dark side by side and you dont hold my hand. i wanted to hold hands yesterday so fucking bad i kept switching my umbrella so my empty hand was next to your empty hand but you didnt take the hint. or maybe you did. i miss when you used to press my fingernails and i didnt even ask but you knew its what i needed.
