i’m so sorry i pushed you away. you deserve so much better, i’m sorry that it was the wrong time, and i know you hate me now but i hope one day we can do it all again. you were one of the only things keeping me alive and now your gone it hurts. i want to message you and tell you how i feel but i can’t because you don’t feel the same. i cant be selfish and keep holding you back. i’m sorry.