Unsent Messages

when we first met i thought you were really cute but i didn't really pay attention to you, but after a few months i noticed that i was getting more and more attached to you. and now...well now its been 3 years and here i am sitting in bed writing and thinking about you, remembering every little moment we had together, remembering every night i stayed up crying my eyes out because i wanted you soo badly but you didn't even notice me. you hurt me. more than once but here i am. for some reason i am never able to get you out of my head. i still get stupid butterflies when im around you or even just thinking about you. i get excited whenever i see a notification from you, and i smile like a weirdo every time we talk or when im around you. i don't want to like you but for some reason when i start moving on and see you i start to fall all over again. yea you are just a stupid boy but idk... i just want to wake up one day and know that you are mine and i am yours. i just want to wake up one day with a good morning text from you. and yes ik 3 years is a lot but i still have hope for some reason, even tho deep down i know you will never come back and never feel the same way but oh well. but i hope that one day you will open your eyes and realize what you left behind. i hope you realize that no girl will ever want you as much as i did. i hope you realize that no girl will care about you as much as i did. maybe one day you'll come back for me. maybe one day you will realize how much you hurt me. maybe one day you will want me just as much as i wanted you. but just so you know when that day arrives i won't be there, ill have other better things to worry about. i just want you to know that you meant a lot to me. oh well maybe one day lol.