Unsent messages to ANGEL

i never thought we would end up like this. i loved what we had but i guess it was never enough. we didnt have any chemistry with each other but in the same time we did. i cant stop thinking about you i need you in my life right now to be by each others sides and go through it together. i guess i will never know how you truly felt. is just a dead end isnt it? i know you are never going to see these but i have to let these feelings out bc im about to actually explode

what you did to me and the other girl you also played was inhumane. i hope you live a terrible life and never find happiness, fuck you.

Who knew you'd be the reason I'd have to start over? It's been 2 years and you're still haunting my friendships. You ruined my life, you were the beginning of my end. The girl that was friends with you is gone and it's all your fault. You are the biggest fake and fraud I know to this day, you are a bitch who talks about things that don't concern you and you spread rumors because you knew I won. I walked out of your destruction clad in iron while you were left to crumble in a disaster of your own creation. And you pulled your 'best friend' down with you. Who would've thought the devil wears a cross and sits in church every Sunday?

ik you want me and think of me when you’re with other girls. no one will have you like i did. fuck you cheater

i love you so much i know ur parents are angry about us dating and against it you're still my beautiful sunshine

i miss you, you mean everything to me. although i know you dont like or probably even love me back. i remember ever single detail about you. im amazed & so interested in you. i love you mi angelito.

hola, angel la verdad te quiero mucho pero no de la forma en que tú me miras me gustaría algún día que me prestarás la atención que yo te pongo a ti, quizá algunas veces soy pesa, pero lo hago para llamar tu atención me gusta mucho cuando hacen llamadas en el grupo y esuccho tu voz no sabes lo que feliz que me pone me gustaría haber nacido cerca de tu país para poder abrazarte y pasar mucho tiempo contigo, lamentable soy de chile gracias por tu amistad y yo tampoco la quiero arruinar te amo ?

i saw you that day in temple. your brother, your friend, you. my heart stopped. i couldn’t breathe. i don’t think you ever saw me

he loves me. i love him. but i’m scared there’s a part of me that will always miss you. i wish i never loved you.

Im glad we are talking again...I just wish I could get a second chance on a relationship with you but I am glad that your girlfriend makes you happy

I miss u, I miss those late nights wit u, those walks wit u, that summer I was so broken, but u gave me the comfort, love I needed, I felt like I was flying, out of this world while talking to u, sometimes I've wonder if u still think about me, or If I come to ur mind while u listen to the songs that I showed u, what did I do wrong for u to change me? do u do and tell her the same things u, did/said to me ? U were the right person, but wrong timing, I know that one day we will encounter again, at the right time. Love U

i told God that if you weren't the one for me, that you would leave me by the end of Christmas break.

i thought i meant something to you, i really fucking did. i kept thinking you were gonna come back but you never did. how did you move on that fast? i want to move on, i just can’t, i should though, i’m only holding on to the memories of us, i wish you the best, only happiness. once again i love you so much.

just saw ur messages with her, i just broke down again. i really thought i was fully over you, i wish you still loved me, these feelings haven’t gone away and it’s been a year. i hope you’re happy, 100% happy with her, that’s all you deserve. i love you so much angel, i really do :( i miss you so fucking much as well

I really miss you I can’t lie bout that but you have her idk why I feel like your still mine but I want you to come back I still want you I need you angel ever damn day you call me or I call you and I hear you fucking voice it’s like damn he was once’s mine I can’t handle it anymore I can’t really say I love you but I do miss you I want you to come back to me I can’t stop loving you no matter what I do I still fucking miss you I don’t what to still have feeling for you or miss you cuz it fucking hurts a lot and I can’t live like this anymore I’m trying to move one but he doesn’t make me feel how you makes me feel you mean so much to me I can’t let you go as much as I know I need and what to I just can’t for some fucking reason and you even promised you won’t leave and my dumb ass couldn’t see that it was all a fucking lie you never loved me you just used me you never cared bout me

i wish you would’ve cared more for me, and less for all of the girls surrounding you. i felt so alone and the only time you wanted to talk was when you were alone or needed something.

Sabias que te amo demasiado?
Nunca te vayas de mi vida, eres mi persona favorita hoy y siempre, y jamás dudes que voy a estar para ti siempre, te he agarrado mucho cariño en poco tiempo y espero que nunca te vayas de mi vida

Te amo tanto como la última vez que te lo dije, me alegra que hayamos vuelto a hablar, no te lo dije pero te extrañé tanto y como te preocupas por mí, no te vayas nunca más. Quédate incluso si solo somos amigos, no quiero que te vayas de nuevo, no podría soportarlo

please break up with him for me. I promise it will be better this time. I know i messed up originally but I realize how much i need you.

hi angel :) i think i really like you. i'm not going to say anything because of the situation you're in right now. i miss our talks, but i'm just overall worried that you'll lose interest in me. i haven't gone through even a sliver of what you are, so i don't know how to console you and that hurts me. i suck at consoling anyway, you probably know that :( if you were here, i would probably hug the life outta you. i miss you angelic angel.

hi angel. im sad we never talk anymore. i miss it so much. school took over for me, and i kept getting in trouble for staying up so late, just to talk to you. did you know that i stayed up until 6 am to talk to you once? of course you didn't know, i played it off as if i did that everyday. at least, i tried to. i know you're going through some hard times right now, and i so wish i could be there for you. hug the life outta you and tell you that i'm here for you. i'm so confused right now haha before i met you it was just guys guys guys. but now, i don't even know. am i bi? sometimes i want to tell you how i'm feeling but sometimes i don't even know if it's worth it. what if you don't feel the same? what if i'm really just confused? fuck. why the fuck do you have to live so far away angel? right now, our conversations feel awkward and forced and i wish it wasn't like that. i can't imagine what you're going through and i have no clue how too make you feel better. it's driving me crazy. i know you have someone right now, which is part of the reason i can't confess what i'm feeling. you're in my head all the time, i can't stop thinking about you. when your name pops up on my home screen, i can barely wait to respond. i keep trying to convince myself that it's just because i've never met someone like you. i keep trying to think of more and more ways to make you laugh, but i think i'm being unsuccessful. also, if i did tell you, what would happen? we barely know each other, the real person behind the screen. both of us would have to either stay up late, or wake up early to even talk to one another. online relationships are so stupid. relationships are stupid in general, but i think i would try my hardest to make it work with you. ah what the fuck am i even saying. you have someone right now. did you know that i thought you were lying when you told me about him? yeah, i'm that selfish. i thought he was a fake story because, i don't even know, you wanted to make me jealous? i know, it's stupid and i should've never thought that. i'm sorry. i feel all of this shit but i can't decide on my life what to do with you.

I hope you know... Theres a little room in my heart with your name on it. Ill keep the lights on.. i know you stopped caring but i still miss you and im still here for you. Just like i always promised you..

i love you so much. you helped me grow as a person and i dont know how i can thank you for it. ive been so happy ever since ive met you. without you i wouldnt be as strong as i am right now. you truly helped me become so much better. im not as depressed anymore thanks to you and i cant thank you enough. i know you arent here anymore, i miss you. its been almost three years without you and every time this year you always cross my mind. ive never forgotten about you, i will never forget about you. i always wonder how life wouldve been if you were still here, i wonder if i wouldve became someone different. i wonder if you passing away was a sign for me to become stronger. no you didnt die for me of course, but your death has changed my life completely. we moved from boston, i explored my sexuality (you were right, i am gay), i opened up and become true to myself. i always keep small things that remind me of you, today i bought a strawberry hat because you love strawberries. i got into kpop because you loved it so much and literally wouldnt shut the fuck up about it, and now i cant shut the fuck up about it. i still have chubby, she sleeps on my bed everyday, i hug her thinking of you. i left the sticker you put on her foot and look at it whenever i think of you. i miss you baby, i know you are doing so much better right now.

I'm so done with you now. I can't believe that I stood by when you would forget about me for her. It was always for her. I don't get why I'm not the first choice anymore. Why bother talking to me and telling me how much you love me if you're going to pick her?

Se que tienes problemas pero eso no hace que tenga que estar contigo no bonito que estén contigo por lástima

I don't love you anymore but I can't let you go either. I don't hate you for what you did I hate that you will never own up to it.

I fell hard for you, still seem to be falling at times. But you hurt me so much at times, I don't think you realize this. I love you, I truly do, but I'm not sure if I can stand by and do nothing about this. I need to leave and never look back.

i really thought you were the one. we were together for a year, we were fully content and we never had any bad days. what we had was the ideal dream relationship. we said i love you at least ten times an hour, we told each other everything. why such the bitter, sour end? you knew i trusted you and still you pushed me away and hurt me. i can't believe that i was stupid enough to believe your excuses for not replying to me. how lucky those random guys were for getting more attention than me. you cheated on me and blamed it on my lack of effort to see you. then you snapped at me for quickly getting over you. you gave me nothing for the last four months of our relationship. i bet we went on that break just so you wouldn't feel guilty about kissing someone else. fuck. you did all of this and still i love you i miss you i cry over you i answer your every call and text. next month will be a full year since you broke up with me. last month would have been our 2 yr anniv. i never got to kiss you. i never got to feel your skin against mine. you keep telling me that you have never felt the same love for anyone as you did for me, that i treated you so well and that you were so happy. yet, here we are. i wish i could spit out a simple fuck you towards you but i dont think i even feel that way but fuck i do despise you. yet...what if i booked a flight to you? what if we made up and rediscovered the spark we had? fuck i don't know maybe this is just the hopeless romantic part of me but i cant help but feel stupid about you. would kissing you be all that bad of an idea?

i'm scared that our relationship left you so hurt that it's caused you change as much as you have. i barely know who you are anymore. i don't even know what name you go by now. when we do finally talk it's not the same connection. i'm sorry. i'm sorry that i miss you. i want to let you go but i can't. i don't want to hurt you anymore but something keeps bringing me back to you.

is it possible that we were meant to be but it's just the wrong time? remember when you said you'd wait for me? i can't even be hurt because i'm not surprised, you've always been the impatient kind

we walked pasted each other every single day without saying a word. still can’t believe i fell for a band kid

time flies by. do you ever think of me? reminiscing our moments. would've been better if we never met. wish you could've talked to me. it's ok. we moved on...or maybe you have. you make me happy and sad. the lack of communication and understanding. what a shame.
why didn't you say something?

Wish you would of treated me a lot better, I deserved more than what you showed me everyday, I deserve the love I gave you.

i love how kind you are to people and how you to eyes sparkle. your hazel eyes, just something about them made me feel like i was home. i didn’t give up on you, i just was tired of myself running and chasing i just couldn’t stand it i needed time to myself because it felt like i meant nothing to no one anymore and you took that away for a while. it wasn’t a distraction, it was because i love you. i still do. i mean that with everything in me. i love you. i know that it’s hard to process but i just wanted to let you know. i never got the chance to say all this because i was scared. when your name pops up on my phone i still get butterflies. i’m kind of waiting for you to come back even though you won’t. i can’t let you go no matter how hard i try. i can’t just block you on everything. we are still young and have a lot to look forward but i look forward to you.

I hate how much I still love you. You treated me so badly and yet, I always find my way to come back to you

I know you have a girlfriend but i just want to let you know i'm glad our friendship has matured. I still think about you everyday and i will always love you. I just really hope one day you tell me your true feelings you have/had towards me.

i hate the way you lie, i hate the way you used me, i hate how im always your second choice, I hate how you love me one day then you don't but I love you so much

I luv you 4ever & always, thank you for being my bestie and bf thru it all, just know you're appreciated

i still miss our conversations. i wish you didn't have to move so soon, i had a lot of things i wanted to tell you

your favorite color was blue. i will always remember that. im sorry we ended on the wrong foot but i want you to know that ill always miss you even though you’re gone. i send my condolences to your cousin.

chicken nugget. that was the nickname you decided to give me. i miss it. i miss us. but us was never really there now was it. :/

Im so happy i moved on and learned my worth. I hope you learn to grow the hell up and be the mature mindset you said you were.

After a few months of talking to you. I began imagining a future. My mistake, you don't care. But at night I can't stop thinking about you.

hi angel you were my first love you don’t know that bc I would say it was someone else I loved you so much even though we were never together I liked you so much in highschool and now we don’t talk it will be going on 2 years I miss you

Im not the best. Im not the greatest.
Im not the prettiest.
Im not the best gf or friend.
Yet you still choose me.
And I'm happy you did. I love you.

hi. I loved you so so much. i thought you did too but ig it wasnt meant to be. looking back now I saw how happy I was but also how mentally draining it was for me. You were in constant relationships with people i used to trust so so much. Although i do not talk to you now and we ended on a very harsh note I hope we never speak again. I loved you and I have moved on now. I still think about you but now you are out there with some girl living out something i thought i would have. i used to love you so much

Thank you for never being like the others. You’re so special. I hope you find someone just as amazing as you. Take care of yourself.

Falling in love with you is the hardest thing I could face, knowing that we’re both guys, it’s hard. See you in class.

I wish i told you had feelings for before it was to late i’m just scared of rejection you helped me find self love. x

hey bub i miss us. nothing will be like it was but all I need is a word so i can finally accept that we will no longer be