Unsent messages to ANDREW

I wish I could take back hurting u, not saying I love you, and most of all breaking up with you, I wish I deserved you

How is it possible that I fell in love with you after we ended things? I listen to ur playlists just to feel close to you.

congrats you did it without realizing it. you won, are you happy? i don't even wanna try with anyone anymore. i give up.

all those plans we made, was it all a joke to you? you hurt me more than you'll ever know but i'm here and i can't even hate you for that. i want the best for you and if it's not with me i hope you truly find your happiness.

I was driving by this cafe and everyone looked so happy. I imagined you there happy without me and cried myself to sleep.

You’ve ruined everyone else for me because I find myself searching for you in everyone I see and they cant compare. Fuck you. I hate that I love you.

All I want to do is eat ramen with you and watch Disney movies. I don’t want to talk to you anymore but I want to feel as I did when you still cared about me. Everyone else is boring and it’s not the same. I guess you never meant what you said. I’ve spent such a long time figuring who I am without you and I still don’t know yet ..

you are selfish. i will never be as important as your own self-interests. that is why i am letting you go.

sometimes i still think about you from time to time and wonder what could’ve been. i hope you are doing well and i love you. just wish what happened didn’t affect us.

Why do i still like you? Every time you’re in my life you make me feel so confused. I think i love you anyway

why wont you talk to me. i remeber how we looked at eachother the first day we met. it was like amovie.

It’s been 5 months, but I still hear your voice, it haunts me. It gave me butterflies, but now it makes me sick. I was so anxious and upset around you, you only filled my heart with hurt, you still do. I only think about you ‘cause I still fucking love you, babe.

I’m sorry that I fell out of love with you but you made it near impossible. I hope the next one accepts your world.

We never would have worked but, to this day, I still hate how you just abandoned me for her. But I hate you more.

you’re not my first love, but you’re the one that feels the realest.. you’re the one that hurts the most.

I wish i never fell in love with you. It’s been a painful 2 years trying to forget you when you’re everywhere.

I'll never forgive myself for how I treated you. I'm glad you found better after me because you deserve that. just know i'm always here. and I hope you can forgive me

i don’t know why i like you so much. i wish i could stop. it’s literally been weeks since we’ve talked but i still think about you every day. i feel like an idiot. you’re absolutely perfect in every single way. and i hate that.

fuck you lol. i was so in love with you and when you left i acted like i didnt care but that shit hurt so bad its okay tho i have someone else now i moved on to better for me.

Why couldn’t you see that I was there for you? Why didn’t you want me as bad as I wanted you? Why did you push me away? :(

I thought you were different, No I knew you weren’t different but I wanted to believe you were...I know you tried your best but it just didn’t work out. I really wanted to be there for you but you didn’t allow me to do that. You were so far away yet so close & everytime we made progress you backed off. I never understood why but now it all makes sense. You weren’t ready for what I was offering and I wanted to wait on you but you never came back...maybe we’ll cross paths again but I doubt we will, anyways I wish you nothing but the best and I hope you find whatever it is you’re looking for, until next time :)

im sorry for hurting you, it was never my intention. You had poor communication. One day you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me, the next you wanted to be just friends. I wish you would've just told me how you felt rather than blaming me for everything. I still haven't got to explain myself. Please text me back.

oh how i wanted it to be you and i in the end. thank you though. thank you for showing me that there are still nice guys out there. you don't know this but i appreciate you so much.

i love you so much but we can never truly say it to each other. ik you want to love but you cant bc of ur past heartbreak. if i had a wish, i would wish for you to receive and accept the happiness u truly deserve.

Why do I think about you all the time? Why do I check to see if you viewed my stories? Why do I hope every message addressed to my name is from you? I think you think about me as much as I think about you. I'm sorry I couldn't pull myself together. You're gonna do really cool things.

I hate that all I did was love you and do everything for you and you still continue to be someone ur not just so some potheads can like you

why did you stop loving me it was a whole three years you spent together and it just ended? please just give me a chance it didn't have to end like this I can't imagine living without you please
i understand you need time for yourself but we've been long distance two years, we could keep going, i would do anything for you and you know that, you told me not to wait for you but if there's even the smallest possibility you'd come back for me I would wait for eternity
this wasn't supposed to happen i miss you i love you please don't say it's over

You hurt me a lot but I never told you. You seem so much happier with her and I am glad you are. You deserve nothing
but the best ?

It hurts having you in my life every day, knowing you chose her over me. But I’ll still always be there. Because isn’t that what love is? Staying, even though it kills you?

you played me and you know it. i wasted 10 months on you and i dont think i can give you anothe chance because you hurt me so bad

i wish we worked out–we're friends now but i wish things could've been different. hope you're doing well x

I really miss you, it’s been a while. I still remember when we had walked talkies in elementary school

I have to say something now because if I don’t say it now I don’t think I ever will and u have to know. I love you and I don’t mean that lightheartedly I mean I love u everything about u. You’re smile you’re laugh your curiosity your comfort your heart your mannerisms everything. Everything u hate about yourself I love because in my eyes u have no flaws, not a single one. And being my first love is the purest form of love because I had no expectations and I wasn’t looking for anything I just knew what I loved and it’s straight from the heart. After you I’ll start to look for things I’ll start too look for qualities to match the blueprint that u gave me but my first love is always the purest . I never thought I could fall in love with everything about a person until I met u. I’ve prayed about u and for u and you are the whole world to me. anyways gross

You never loved me you loved my body. I didn’t want to do those things why did you force me to do it? It wasn’t even once, it was multiple times. Did you really love me? Were you lying?

Dear Andrew,
I saw a blue note on here with my name on it and I think it was from you. So now i’m writing back to say that I really wanted our relationship to work, but I understand why you ended it. Just wanted to let you know that I’m okay and you have nothing to be sorry about. I loved you too and I hope I’ll see you again in the summer.

Happy 2021. I’ll always love you. But I no longer need you and that makes me happy. Thank you for the memories. You were my first love and I will never forget you.

you're so annoying i wish you would shut the fuck up for once you're so FUCKING UGLY it makes me gag i hate you're fucking face so much it's just soo ugly stupid dumb little bitch ass sensitive cunt go fucking cry about it i dont give a fuck about you so leave me the fuck alone i hate you fuck off goddamn

bro. if u fall outta love with someone just tell them. don’t leave them wondering what they did wrong.

you hurt me
you really do
you bring out the
worst of me
yet for some reason
i keep crawling back
to you
on my hands and knees,
craving for your love.

I wanted to be the one to save you, your life was the one I wanted to keep safe. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

i love you with my whole heart and miss you with my whole body. i overdosed on your love now I have to suffer.

i would give the world to be with you again nard dog :) but its not our time. i hope one day it will be.

i’ve literally liked you since the 2nd grade but we can never be together bc we always live in different places. you’re literally perfect though.

when i think of you i just think of how happy i was with you. i felt like no one can hurt me, i felt so safe with you. it hurts me knowing i no longer have you by my side anymore and the fact that i didn’t even like my name until you said it. i just hope you’re happy now.

ive never felt so sure about someone until now. we like the same things. im too scared to say how i feel towards you. i want to be close to you forever

You were so manipulative and always knew I had a soft spot for you so you took advantage of that, I wish we never met.

I’m still rooting for you, even if I can’t tell you that anymore. When I said that I loved you and that I would always be here for you, I meant it with all my heart.

What are we gonna do? This feels like such a big decision because there are so many ways that one decision could ruin so much. Say we stay together, it'd be great, but also i'm scared it would cause strain. I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to push you away either. I want to stay together because we want to not because we feel like we have to. What scares me too is that I know I believe in it, that it could work, but I know you don't.
Say we break up again, what happens then? what happens if you figure out that i'm easily replaceable? What am I suppose to do? because I don't see anyone ever being able to replace you and all our jokes and laughs and memories and dreams. I want to do whats best for us, but idk what that is, and what if we choose wrong. How are we suppose to know? I love you and I love all our dreams and I want to make them real. This is just a bump in the road, and I am just praying that we get over it together because I can't imagine my life without you.

I need you. You mean everything to me. But the unknown of whats going to happen in 6 days is terrifying me.

fuck you. i loved you and you took advantage of that. you lied and manipulated me and i am never going to forgive that.