Maybe the whole time it was just nostalgia - we didn’t know we wanted something we couldn’t have. You haunt me

i still think about you all the time and i don’t know why. i know now that you probably cheated on me and i shouldn’t be surprised by that but i trusted you with so much. 3 months later and i’m still pissed at what you did to me.

I hope you never lose that fire. And that you find that perfect person to make you feel the way you made me feel.

My world feels empty without your sweet voice or your warm smile. In the deepest of my heart, I still love u

I remember our first conversation, it happened around July or August of 2020. It led to some amazing things, one of the best times of my life, actually. Then it led to heartbreak, and heartbreak led to anger. It's really over, isn't it? All of that, for nothing? Was that a fucking joke to you? It was, wasn't it? Fuck you. I can't believe I ever wasted my time on someone like you.

i wish i could see i you were always there for me like i was for you. did you really care about me or did you just want to make up the fact that you were sad for me. i guess we will never know. i just wanted to ask why didnt you ask me to the dance maybe we were both pussys but could that have made us a relationship prob not were both to busy i can feel you slipping away slowly everyday. you seem happier without to worry about .

I know we weren’t meant to be but sometimes I wish you were still here. I will never stop loving you. I’m so proud of how you’ve changed since I left. I hope we were the right people at the wrong time and one day you’ll come back to me.

Please stay for me baby, i can't afford to loose you. I cant wait until we can actually be together. Youre truly my other half. Ive never felt more complete than when we are together.

I cant tell if I was hard to love or easy to lose feelings for. either way, thanks for coming back only to leave again.

I guess this is it. What sucks is that I prayed and prayed for you but I guess this is a sign. Thank you. Sad to say but it’s the harsh truth that I’ll be heading into 2021 without you. Goodbye Andrew.

i don’t fucking care about you. i really could care less. then why do i still think about you. why do i still care. why do i want to imagine us together again and happy like it used to be. maybe if we never left each others side, we would have gone farther. i hope you are doing ok. i hope you are safe. i love you.

You were a mystery to me. You gave me hope. I wish our story turned out differently. I wish you weren't a let down.

I’m sorry that I fell out of love with you but you made it near impossible. I hope the next one accepts your world.

I wish you wanted me as badly as I wanted you when I visited you - I’m always thinking about what could’ve happened. I guess now the tables Have turned

I hope you're happy with S. That's all I ever really wanted for you, was just to be happy. I forgive you.

you deserve nothing but happiness and i would do anything to give it to you. we were aligned for the stars i'm sure of it. but the stars aren't aligned for us right now. but one day they will be

It’s been 5 months, but I still hear your voice, it haunts me. It gave me butterflies, but now it makes me sick. I was so anxious and upset around you, you only filled my heart with hurt, you still do. I only think about you ‘cause I still fucking love you, babe.

fuck you. i loved you and you took advantage of that. you lied and manipulated me and i am never going to forgive that.

why wont you talk to me. i remeber how we looked at eachother the first day we met. it was like amovie.

"The world was collapsing, and the only thing that mattered to me was that [he] was alive" -Rick Riordan, The Last Olympian

Hey you dean kinnie,i believe in you,i believe you can change and...i know it's gonna take a while for me to fully trust you,but i know you got this baby,your strong,your amazing and,i love you,I love you so much you dork

your name is still the first thing on my mind when i wake up, and the last thing on my mind before falling asleep

Why do i still like you? Every time you’re in my life you make me feel so confused. I think i love you anyway

i know we haven’t seen each other in a long time - but i still feel a connection.
is that weird? idk.

sometimes i still think about you from time to time and wonder what could’ve been. i hope you are doing well and i love you. just wish what happened didn’t affect us.

i miss you more then anything. but we don’t talk anymore, everything i do reminds me of u and i wish we could not be strangers again.

today finally marks a week. i miss you. the things i would do just to be in your arms again. i hope i see you sometime again this month.

so this is really weird but you were my best friend in kindergarten until you just left without notice. i wanna find you. i miss you.

I know how much I hurt you and how much you would’ve done for me but I gave up on you and I regret it everyday

I need you. You mean everything to me. But the unknown of whats going to happen in 6 days is terrifying me.

you are selfish. i will never be as important as your own self-interests. that is why i am letting you go.

What are we gonna do? This feels like such a big decision because there are so many ways that one decision could ruin so much. Say we stay together, it'd be great, but also i'm scared it would cause strain. I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to push you away either. I want to stay together because we want to not because we feel like we have to. What scares me too is that I know I believe in it, that it could work, but I know you don't.
Say we break up again, what happens then? what happens if you figure out that i'm easily replaceable? What am I suppose to do? because I don't see anyone ever being able to replace you and all our jokes and laughs and memories and dreams. I want to do whats best for us, but idk what that is, and what if we choose wrong. How are we suppose to know? I love you and I love all our dreams and I want to make them real. This is just a bump in the road, and I am just praying that we get over it together because I can't imagine my life without you.

i miss you. i wish i could unblock you and things could go back to how they were but u have changed. u broke my heart but i still love you and i just want u to know i miss you.

I’m still rooting for you, even if I can’t tell you that anymore. When I said that I loved you and that I would always be here for you, I meant it with all my heart.

If you’re ever lost or need someone, you can always reach out. Even though I know, you don’t want me like that because it just cannot be like that because you don’t like attention. You’re still a great friend but I have a feeling you’ll pull away which makes me sad. But best of luck.

All I want to do is eat ramen with you and watch Disney movies. I don’t want to talk to you anymore but I want to feel as I did when you still cared about me. Everyone else is boring and it’s not the same. I guess you never meant what you said. I’ve spent such a long time figuring who I am without you and I still don’t know yet ..

You’ve ruined everyone else for me because I find myself searching for you in everyone I see and they cant compare. Fuck you. I hate that I love you.

I was driving by this cafe and everyone looked so happy. I imagined you there happy without me and cried myself to sleep.

all those plans we made, was it all a joke to you? you hurt me more than you'll ever know but i'm here and i can't even hate you for that. i want the best for you and if it's not with me i hope you truly find your happiness.

You are the best thing that ever happened to me, maybe we aren't meant to be, but i will always love you.

i will never be the same after you, thank you for teaching me all that you did. you hurt me more than you’ll ever know, but somehow i forgive you. i never hated you, i only unadded you on snap because it was too hard to keep seeing your name.

Andrew, thank you. From when we were kids, and forever on, I love you. I will always love you. Thank you for loving me.

You are the type of person I would give my love away so you could find happiness, even if it wasn't with me.

You were so manipulative and always knew I had a soft spot for you so you took advantage of that, I wish we never met.

since the day we met we’ve had an insane connection. i rlly do think that we’re “right person wrong time”. u always mess w my head. u never give me a chance. u just use me. i’ve lost so many friends bc of u. we never have even “ talked” but i’ve never liked anymore more than u. i’ve liked u since the day i met u. it really sucks seeing u with all these other girls. everyone says to just get over u bc u don’t like me & never will. but i can’t get over u. no matter how hard i try. ur always in my mind. idk why. it has to mean something tho. if u gave me a chance ik we would work great together. but i can’t force u to do anything. i just wish i meant something to u. u treat me awfully but i still will not say anything bad abt u. i just feel so comfortable w u. u have such a way w words. but apparently u talk to every girl like that. u act like u want me one day then won’t talk to me for days. i’m not mad u don’t want me. i’m just mad bc sometimes u act like u do. everyone knows i like u. i tell everyone abt u. ik your a jerk to me but i know ur a good person inside and have been through so much shit. u deserve so much. no one will ever treat u better than i could. i would literally give u anything & everything u wanted. i’ve never hated & liked someone more at the same time. i’ve tried to move on but ur always on my mind no matter what. even if i liked another guy i’ll still always like u. idk why u mean so much to me. like i rly don’t know why i like u. but i know this is all happening for a reason. idk if we’ll end up being friends, strangers, or dating. i wish i knew. god has a plan tho. i wish u the best no matter what. i sound crazy writing all this stuff bc ik u don’t like me & never have. if u gave me a chance & saw things how i see things i know we’d work out. we can never stay away from each other so it has to mean something . idk why u keep messing w my feelings tho. i don’t think i’ve ever cried harder abt any boy than i have over u. whenever i use to see pictures of u & her i would have a mental breakdown. i’ve honestly just stopped caring now. u do u. if i don’t make u happy then ok that’s fine. but i hope you’ll realize that no one will ever care abt u more than me. i’ve created this image in my head of u which is not who u rlly r. u could block me on everything say u hate me or literally do anything worse to me and i still would go back to u. i know i deserve better. i want to move on so bad. i’ve tried so hard to move on. i’m tired of feeling like this. it’s been years. i’m tired of being sad. i just wanna be in love w someone who wants me. not w someone who could care less if i was in there life or not. ive prayed for a long time that me & u will workout or that god will show me what to do. at this point i rlly just don’t even care anymore bc i’ve been in the worst place i’ve ever been in and ur making it worse. i’m going so downhill. i need to love myself. i haven’t been able to do that bc of u . u don’t love me so why should i love me? but now i realize that my mental health matters more than what u think of me. so if u wanna leave my life then that’s fine. just don’t come back when u realize that no one is down 4 u like i am.

I really liked you, and you pretended to feel the same way. I don't even know why. What did you get out of it?

congrats you did it without realizing it. you won, are you happy? i don't even wanna try with anyone anymore. i give up.

im so sorry. i love u so much. u dont deserve anything that i did to hurt u. i know u love me. i just cant love u back. im sorry.

ive never felt so sure about someone until now. we like the same things. im too scared to say how i feel towards you. i want to be close to you forever

How is it possible that I fell in love with you after we ended things? I listen to ur playlists just to feel close to you.