People say young love isn’t real but, you felt pretty real. The pain in my heart felt real.I guess it wasn’t real enough.

You fucked me over. I nearly dropped one of the most important people in my life because of you and now you can’t even say hi to me over text never mind in person? Lol your loss

I knew from the beginning. From the time you chased me on the playground in third grade giving me chocolates everyday and introducing me to your mom. I knew our fates were tied together. And I knew eventually... they’d break. I knew it. Fuck I knew it. So why. Why the hell did I try anyway. I tried so goddamn hard to keep my distance. I told you one day I wouldn’t be perfect to you anymore. One day you’d see the scared coward who hides her heart because she’s too afraid of it getting broken. But I knew. I knew you’d leave. I tried so fucking hard to protect my heart but you broke it anyway. Fuck you

I know I’ve written so many about you know but I’m just so pissed. I gave everything to you. Sucked your dick when you asked even though I said no. Let you do so many things to me hell you even snuck into my house after I said no so many times. And yet you have the audacity after I open my heart to you and say let’s be friends. To ignore me. Read my fucking text messages were I’m beginning you bc you’ve been with me for years. Half of my goddamn life. Fucking begging you to say something. Anything. Silence has never been so crushing. You know that was the darkest time of my life. All that shit with my parents and my family my whole life was ripped in half and YOU SAID YOUVE FUCKING BE THERE YOU LIAR. YOUR A GODDAMN LIER AND I TRUSTED YOU. I LOVED YOU. I CRIED FOR YOU. I fucking cried for you. I loved you and you left me anyway. After everything I’d done for you. I was there when you were down on your knees. I was on mine begging you and you walked away. You walked away. I was so close to hurting myself back then bc I felt like it was me. Maybe I wasn’t pretty enough or I didn’t do enough for him. I didn’t deserve you. But I was wrong. You never deserved me and that fucking hearts because I wanted you to deserve me so fucking bad. I wanted what we could be. We could’ve been so much more. We could’ve had a tomorrow but now all we have is broken yesterday’s.

I’m writing another. god I feel pathetic. The fact that I’m pouring my heart out and your not even thinking about me. I know that’s what I wanted, atleast that’s what I said back then. It was so easy to say but when it happened. When it happens it hurt. So fucking bad. Even now it hurts. I think about you all the time. Stupid things like how you’d like this piano piece or how it felt for you to pet my hair and hold my hand. I never really understood you don’t know what you have until it’s gone. But now I know. I’m gonna stop writing messages now. I would say I have nothing else to say but that’s a lie. There’s so many more things I want to say to you. Feelings and thoughts I cant put into words. But that’s why we always were drawn together like yin and yang. I could read those thoughts and you could read mine. Always. You weren’t my other half Andrew. I needed you more than I need that. You were something indescribable. Infinite and warm. Something even though it hurts even though it’s hurts so freaking bad. I wouldn’t change for the world. You never forget your first love or atleast I know I’ll never forget mine. You made this little coward feel bold and strong. Beautiful when she felt ugly and brave when she felt nothing but. I can thank you for one thing though. Thank you for always loving me. Even when I didn’t deserve it. Especially when I didn’t deserve it. I always said I wish you’d found some other girl and not me so you could be happy with her. I knew we’d never get a happily ever after but maybe... maybe I’ll get my happily ever after. And so will you. I love you Andrew. God I still love you. I think some tiny part of me always will. You’ve taught me so much. Goodbye Andrew. I had fun.

some nights I forget that you live half the world away, I want to hug you and tell you in person how much you mean to me and that your my yellow, Then I remember that I'm too scared to confess my feelings because I'm so scared that you wont feel the same way. I've never felt this way towards anyone before and I'll never find anyone better. At the end of the day its always you.

what happened to us? we used to be best friends.... i cant let you go, you've let yourself go.. how did you get so cold?

what happened to us? we used to be best friends.... i cant let you go, you've let yourself go.. how did you get so cold?

what happened to us? we used to be best friends.... i cant let you go, you've let yourself go.. how did you get so cold?

If only you knew how many times my heart broke just so that you could be happy. And I’d do it all over again.

I wanted to be the one to save you, your life was the one I wanted to keep safe. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

I had a big fat crush on you in elementary school and some of middle school but now I don't like you at all. You're still hot though.

its been too many months since we went our separate ways but for some reason I still love you and I'm sorry for everything. I hope u know that I rlly did love you and I'm sorry if I didn't show it. I try not to cry about you but sometimes I can't help it. I really thought we were gonna last. and I hate myself for not being good enough for you. maybe one day we'll come back to each other.

i liked you so much and you sucked all the energy out of me and constantly hurt me to play some sort of game and we’d just be in this toxic cycle but i miss you everyday and i wish things would’ve worked and life is hard without you but i actually love you so much it’s sad that you don’t feel the same

I think about you constantly. It’s annoying. But I don’t think it’d be smart for us to date. I could be wrong, but I don’t think I am

We were in love but it scared you so much that you ran. I hope you don’t do that again to anyone. Let someone love you

You are a very good person, I am glad I met you, but Sometimes I feel like you exaggerate some things, I mean We could get out of this trouble together, but it seems like that's not your idea.And that hurts me.

I always wanted to tell you how I felt. We were best friends. We haven't spoken in years. I hope you still remember me.

eat my ass, i hate u. even though we broke up in sixth grade and we’re sophomores now. still, shit hurts. and the day before halloween too. my fav holiday

hey, so I know she likes you and all and she's way prettier than me but I just wanted to let you know that I really love you and I'll always be here for you. im happy for you either way.

It’s been so long I miss u! I miss staying up all night on FaceTime talking about our lives. I remember thinking u were my soulmate but Maybe I was wrong, maybe you’ll come back to me in the future. I hope so. You were the best and worst thing that has ever happened to me. Thank you for being my first love

bro. if u fall outta love with someone just tell them. don’t leave them wondering what they did wrong.

everyday i wish i can go back in time and tell u everything u did to me so it can all be stopped before it had all happened

I can’t wait until the day you text me and I can ignore it. I can’t wait until I can finally block you. I can’t wait to be over you... but not yet

you're so annoying i wish you would shut the fuck up for once you're so FUCKING UGLY it makes me gag i hate you're fucking face so much it's just soo ugly stupid dumb little bitch ass sensitive cunt go fucking cry about it i dont give a fuck about you so leave me the fuck alone i hate you fuck off goddamn

Hey Andrew, I just wanted to let you know that I’ve had feelings for you for awhile now, to be a little more specific, 3 years lmfao... idk if you ever noticed or something...I hope this does not change our friendship, or the way you see me...I obviously don’t expect you to feel the same thing for me, I just don’t want it to be awkward between us after this...this took me too much courage to tell you lmfao

i love u , maybe too much . i can't tell if this is wht u want . it breaks my heart everyday knowing u might not love me back .

I like you and i know you probably like me back but I'm scared that once you know more about me i'll be too much and you'll leave.

im just gonna be honest. i like u. ur rlly nice and just have rlly good energy. ik ur gonna ask out that girl and I wish the best 4 u bc u deserve someone amazing and im sure the girl u like likes u back

if i could go back in time, i would. i miss us and i wish we could’ve been better. ik i messed up, we both did but i wish it never came to us breaking up....i miss you. :(

i always send my prayers to u, even if im an atheist, whenever i stop to think. i just want the universe to treat u well.

i was going through a lot and i’m not good with feelings but i told u i loved u shortly after we broke up and then you started dating my best friend, you were my best friend before anything and now you don’t even talk to me anymore, i still love you i miss you

why did u make me think that we were forever. you lied. you hurt me. but i still love u and i get stupid around u.

i think i liked you. but i cant seem to let go. i don’t really know why because i have no interest in being in a relationship with you

Hey, me again i literally tell people that i am mad at you but then i find myself crying on your birthday because i forgot about it and it just shows how long i have gone without you in my life. You were my best friend and sometimes i wish i had you back

I don’t even know what we were or if we were anything in the first place. Stop fucking around with girls feelings and maybe understand that ur looks don’t get u a secure future. Just tell me the truth.

i still think about you all the time. you literally could not care less about me, i’m blocked and we haven’t talked in awhile but for some reason i can’t get you out of my head. i have so many dreams about you. ones i wish were real. this all sounds really dumb but i don’t think you have any idea how strong my feels were or are for you. i’m in love with you. no matter what other people say i know i am. it’s a really shitty first love and you can be a really really shitty person but i know you aren’t as shallow as everyone thinks you are. there’s so much more, so much good no one else sees. but i do. i need to move on but it’s hard. i don’t think i’ll ever be completely over you even if i say i am or try to tell myself i am. there will always be something there for you.

I can’t tell you how many opportunities I gave you and somehow you missed them all. Please please please know that ur in my heart forever and always even though I might not be in urs.

I think about you all the time. New Years will always hold a place in my heart because that is where u somehow got my affection. I will never forget you even if nothing ever happens with us.

I miss you more than anything in this world, you have consumed me in every way possible and i would do anything to have you back...

this is me finally letting go. thank you for everything. I’m starting to realize I was never the one you really wanted

Happy 2021. I’ll always love you. But I no longer need you and that makes me happy. Thank you for the memories. You were my first love and I will never forget you.

Dear Andrew,
I saw a blue note on here with my name on it and I think it was from you. So now i’m writing back to say that I really wanted our relationship to work, but I understand why you ended it. Just wanted to let you know that I’m okay and you have nothing to be sorry about. I loved you too and I hope I’ll see you again in the summer.

i hate you. i hate you with ounce of my body. you destroyed me tore me down and broke me. i hope she was worth it, cause you are a terrible human being and you deserve nothing in life.

You’re cool and cute, like I wish you would kiss me when I’m with you. Or just a hug, I’m scared to say anything to ruin our friendship but you say things sometimes and little compliments.

losing you helped me find myself again and i really think i’m happy again. i still pray for you everyday tho. i hope you’re well. i still miss you sometimes but then i remember that’s not who you are anymore. maybe one day our paths will cross again. i’ll always love you forever and always shark boy

your the biggest dickhead i know but i love u more than anything and i hope for us to work out one day even though ik u want nothing to do w me

You were my childhood best friend and I miss you everyday, you knew everything about me and you were the only person I could actually talk to. I miss you! Flag az, plz read this

It felt like the first time with you. Like everything was going to be okay again. Then it wasn’t.
I miss you.

Why did you leave? I’m so confused....will you ever want me again, or was that the last goodbye I’ll ever say to you?