Unsent messages to ANDREW

Hey hey,
Thankyou.You are a beautiful soul and deserve the world in its entirety. Your ability to never judge someone, always have some advice and see the world in the most positive beautiful way I have always appreciated and admired. You taught me to not let people waste my time. To not be a jellyfish and to live life to the fullest. This meant the world to me and you had no idea, you had no idea what you meant to me and I’m sorry you felt I wasn’t affectionate or passionate enough. I love you. I really love you.

i sent you nudes bc thats when you loved me. now ik what you meant when you said you always loved me. but you loved her and them. i should've written a list of all the best and worse ways you made me feel, not what you said; that meant nothing. and they were really the only thing keeping us together. on the end of our last day was when words seized to have meaning. they were nothing.and now look at us. i might just be as bad as you are.

i feel like i could be myself around you. turns out all you did was use me. we had a connection. i hate you.

Hello, i first want to tell you that the summer that we hanged out everyday was the best summer of my life. I miss you so much.

It would've been perfect and I hope you feel better. Your anxiety will never be a burden on anyone that loves you

This was the color of your shirt the night i knew you would somehow change my life. I know you feel guilty for what you did but trust me I forgave you a long time ago. Please come back, I need you. Just please reach out we can start simple. Maybe we can even watch the sunrise and get coffee. I miss you and I think you miss me too.

i hate how you never cared. you used me, then turned around and made me seem like the bad guy. i hate how much i miss you

tbh the fact u cheated on me with J for some many months and how u cant let her go makes me feel that u feel some type of way with her. idk if it is lust or if it fr love u feel with her. i just think you guys would be good together because u would get everything u want and need from her whenever u want whereas with me u cant, it is all limited with me.

I wish I was good enough for you. You deserved the best in everything. Obviously, it's not me. I love you so much and I wish one day I will be successful enough to make your life easier and more enjoyable. Expect expensive gifts from an anonymous sender in the next 15 years :) I will work hard for you, even if you don't really care

i love you. i cant tell you i love you because your not there. i want you to be here for me like i was there for you. i want to be with you. i know you. please just come into my life. please. anytime soon. i miss you. i love you. xxx your soulmate xxx

today finally marks a week. i miss you. the things i would do just to be in your arms again. i hope i see you sometime again this month.

i don’t fucking care about you. i really could care less. then why do i still think about you. why do i still care. why do i want to imagine us together again and happy like it used to be. maybe if we never left each others side, we would have gone farther. i hope you are doing ok. i hope you are safe. i love you.

i wish i could see i you were always there for me like i was for you. did you really care about me or did you just want to make up the fact that you were sad for me. i guess we will never know. i just wanted to ask why didnt you ask me to the dance maybe we were both pussys but could that have made us a relationship prob not were both to busy i can feel you slipping away slowly everyday. you seem happier without to worry about .

you r so fun to be around and so incredibly sweet. you have no idea how much joy you've brought into my life. I hope you can live ur best life bc u deserve it

i’m trying to trust you and for the most part i do but i feel like a fool because i’m never this insecure when i’m not in a relationship.

i’m trying to trust you and for the most part i do but i feel like a fool because i’m never this insecure when i’m not in a relationship.

listening to that one song brings so much pain yet comfort at the same time it's hard to explain, but i know you'd get what i mean. i miss you so dear much. i hope we find each other again

I'm still appalled because I haven't felt the way I felt towards you with anyone since. I was completely in love with you. I'm not anymore. Thank you for showing me what that felt like.

You’re not even a first love, just a first boyfriend. And to be quite honest, if I could go back and stop that relationship, I would. That relationship was dumb and temperamental. However, I wish you well and hope you prosper in life.

I don’t understand what I did to make you hate me. And I’ll never know. And I think I’m ok with it now, but it hurt.

im glad you were my first love. i miss you and what we had a lot. im sorry for how things ended and for everything i did.

how can you tell me you love me and then act like you don’t even know me the next day. what’s wrong with you.

i like you. a lot. but it hurts because i know that you do not feel the same way. getting stuck in this friendzone is painful.

were you laughing at me with her? did you have to do it so close? i’m sorry i never looked you in the eyes.

You’re cool and cute, like I wish you would kiss me when I’m with you. Or just a hug, I’m scared to say anything to ruin our friendship but you say things sometimes and little compliments.

I miss you more than anything in this world, you have consumed me in every way possible and i would do anything to have you back...

I think about you all the time. New Years will always hold a place in my heart because that is where u somehow got my affection. I will never forget you even if nothing ever happens with us.

I can’t tell you how many opportunities I gave you and somehow you missed them all. Please please please know that ur in my heart forever and always even though I might not be in urs.

i think i liked you. but i cant seem to let go. i don’t really know why because i have no interest in being in a relationship with you

why did u make me think that we were forever. you lied. you hurt me. but i still love u and i get stupid around u.

im just gonna be honest. i like u. ur rlly nice and just have rlly good energy. ik ur gonna ask out that girl and I wish the best 4 u bc u deserve someone amazing and im sure the girl u like likes u back

I like you and i know you probably like me back but I'm scared that once you know more about me i'll be too much and you'll leave.

hey, so I know she likes you and all and she's way prettier than me but I just wanted to let you know that I really love you and I'll always be here for you. im happy for you either way.

We were in love but it scared you so much that you ran. I hope you don’t do that again to anyone. Let someone love you

i tried so hard to please u and treat u good and be there for u and the fact u had to go cheat on me just because of the one thing u werent getting hurts me because i tried my best for everything and im sorry i couldnt give that to u but thats dumb of u that i literally gave u my all and u still has to cheat on me. i love u so much and treated u like no one else would and ig it wasnt enough for u. sometimes i wonder why i even stayed with u if u continue. i think its just im waiting for u while staying with u because im too scared you'll find someone else.

even though you're bad for me your the only one that really comforts me and makes me calm and happy. The only issue is i feel like im losing that from u and that you're losing care for me.

u emotionally and mentally drain me and everyday im drained but i hide it because i want us to get better

the amount of love i have for u is bad and tbh i think im more in love in the relastionship than u are

Even though we were never close again, you taught me to value the people that i love, so everyday i think about what you taught me.

you seemed so charming, funny, and sweet at first. i wanted more, but you turned out to be loathsome.

I had a big fat crush on you in elementary school and some of middle school but now I don't like you at all. You're still hot though.

some nights I forget that you live half the world away, I want to hug you and tell you in person how much you mean to me and that your my yellow, Then I remember that I'm too scared to confess my feelings because I'm so scared that you wont feel the same way. I've never felt this way towards anyone before and I'll never find anyone better. At the end of the day its always you.

i know it will never happen, i can dream about it, dream about loving you and you loving me. but it's just a dream, i have nothing to make you love me that she doesn't have more of

I have liked you for a year. I recently told my friend that I liked you, then she hooked up with you.

it pains me seeing you on her story. the girl i used to be friends with and who i see everyday at school. i still think about you everyday. at least your happy with a girl who made me happy once :)

you made me learn a lot about myself and i take that as a gift. even if we were toxic together i’ll always be thankful for the way you impacted my life. we both deserved better and i hope your happy and able to heal and thrive. luv u

i wish i never wasted my time and effort on u. you never appreciated anything.. i’m way happier without u

dude I miss you. you’re the ideal person. everything I look for. I know we’re supposed to move on but i really miss you. please tell me you feel the same

remember when we promised to always be in touch, even if it meant writing letters while you were in the air force

You are the best thing that ever happened to me, maybe we aren't meant to be, but i will always love you.