Unsent messages to AARON

I miss you. I miss the butterflies I had every time I talked to you. I miss FaceTiming you at the end of every single day. I miss playing iMessage games with you until one of us eventually fell asleep. I miss our late night deep convos where we talked about what's hurt us in the past. The feeling when I first met you in person; when we locked eyes. I miss it all. but you hurt me. You walked away from me when all I wanted was to be with you. but deep down I know it's not your fault because throughout your life you've never known how to express love. you've never known what it felt like to be loved, so it was overwhelming for you. I hope one day, instead of being overwhelmed by the idea of love, you find the person you deserve. You're such an amazing person and deserve so much. Sometimes as Im sitting in my room at 3 am listening to the rain I hope that maybe one day when were both ready, we'll meet again. Until then, K

I wish you were honest with me about your feelings. I want you to feel the way I do about you. Why cant we like each other at the same time.

I wanna say I hate you but I think I just hate the fact that I love you. Every single date I go on everything reminds me of u and I wish it was your arms I was in and you smiling widely as you walked up to me. But it’s not. So I guess I’ll just keep pretending I hate you.

i love u so much, i’m sad u ended it but it’s fine ig. anything so ur happy. just a reminder i’m one sc away.

i hate you for hurting me to the point where i wont let anyone love me because i'm too scared of them hurting me the way you did

I hope you make it far, sorry I didn’t realize what we had. I know we wouldn’t have worked but it still hurts that I thought I’d marry you. I’ll love you always even if it doesn’t seem like it

i’m sorry for hurting u. i should’ve helped u through it. i was scared. imy, i wish i could tell u that i still feel the same.

I love you so much. We’re young, I hope when we both mature then we can meet again. I pray to God about you. I want you to be happy, but I’d love if it was with me. Aaron what we had wasn’t fake, you couldn’t fake the way you looked at me. Those nights when we were laughing so hard. When we both laughed together, when we said the same thing at the same exact time. I just hope we can meet when we’re both mature and older. This is right person, wrong time. I just know this is. I never used to believe in that but now I do. You’re the right person but we are young, and I can’t blame you for everything around you. I understand that you are scared and that’s okay. We can be friends till we can try again.

i love everything about you. i love your cheeky smile, your cute jokes and your secret shyness. i just wish you would feel the same way. and i wish we could have had a chance, if i hadn't dated him and she hadn't liked you first. i love every single thing about you and i only wish you would feel the same way about me. all i want is your attention. i would spend all day talking to you about nothing in particular. i would love to be the girl of your dreams. it makes me so upset it couldn't work out but i'm in love with you regardless. i'm so sorry. i love you. you're all i want. i'd do anything to be with you.

it's been a week since we went back to school and i saw your face. it's like falling in love all over again

I gave you my everything, my time, my love, my forgiveness. You cheated and now I’ll never feel truly worthy of love.

Something about this color speaks to me about how I feel when I'm with you. I haven't known you for very long but I like you and we've only hung out a couple of times. I'm scared you don't want anything more with me and you're going to stop talking to me. We’ve already kinda stopped talking and it's only been a day. :/ please don't.

I hate the fact you told me you still loved me after I moved on from you. I felt that heartbreak all over again.

i hope to God you don't find this. but if you do just listen. i miss you. i miss our friendship. i miss they way you would mess around with me in art class. i miss they way you always asked how i was doing, or asked if everything was ok. i miss your happy smile and your silly laugh. i miss they way you'd send me the dumbest pictures. i miss they way you would always take my phone and take a crazy amount of pictures of my, even though i hated it at the time. i miss the way you remembered the little things, like my dunkin order or my doctors appointment from the day before. i miss the way you always found away to make me feel included in anything, even if i didn't belong. i miss the way you desperately tried to convince me to get a stupid game on my phone. i miss your brain. god you were so smart and it made me so mad how you never had to try. i miss the little things you did, like always making sure your hair was in place or the way you grabbed the straps of your backpack or even the way your face lit up and got red when you were laughing. even though you probably don't know, you helped me get back some of my confidence. telling me to not care about what people though and just do what i want. coming from you, it meant everything. i don't know why, but it just did. even when you upset me, you made sure to apologize and made sure i knew it. you probably wouldn't remember half of these things but honestly, who cares? i wonder, could we ever become friends again? i hope it wasn't my fault that we had a falling out. i truly had all good intentions but if i did something wrong, i'm sorry. maybe it was for the better. who knows. but i just really hope one day we can be friends again. i miss you ronny.

i just wish you would’ve told me the truth. instead you led me on and made me believe that you loved me.

i’m sorry for everything. i’m sorry i couldn’t love you and for leaving you in the dust. i’m sorry for hurting you. i hope you find someone who can make you happy and be there for you.

it makes me feel guilty that we both liked you but you ended up liking me back. and it makes me feel selfish that i still have feelings for you.

I remember the first time you said you loved me. My heart stopped and in that moment I knew, you were my soulmate

remember when u told me u miss me, yeah i denied your offer, but now i regreted it, i wanna go back but i cant

A part of me is always going to love you, no matter what happens, you're one of the best things to ever happen to me

I was happy when we were together, but the way you treated me in the end was not okay. It left me with trust issues and I think about it a lot.

I still think about you every day. You have been the only person to make me feel truely valued in the world