I'm sorry. I never should have acted the way I did. I was so scared to lose you I freaked out and ended up pushing you more and more away. I wish things were different

did you know i wanted you? i still kinda do, i can't let you go :( we haven't talked in months, i miss u even just as a friend

do i mean anything to you? do you think about me the way i think about you.
am i the first thought on your mind when you wake up and the last thought on your mind when you go to sleep like you are mine... do you love me like i love you? because i don't think that you do. its all a game to you. i'm just something you use when you're bored and to be honest i'm tired of this game, you're slowly loosing me and there's nothing you can do... if only you had love me how i loved you but you just wanted lust instead of love.

i was stuck on the thoughts of what could have been. i was too kind, too into my own head. you made a decision and i’ve come to terms with the fact that i’m glad you did because i wouldn’t have made you choose me anyways. i don’t deserve to be an option.

seeing all of these responses makes me wonder if we all knew the same aaron. i wish you treated me better through it all haha its kind of unfortunate the way you didn’t know i noticed everything. if you didn’t want me, i wish you just could’ve told me. we’d have our freedom that you seem to so desperately want. i never wanted to be an option.

i hope ur doing good right now, i miss u so much. thank for always being there for me. i miss having u in my life. i luv you.

I want to say I hate you for the pain you put me through but I can't because you also taught me that not everything is my fault, I still don't know why you sis not respond and maybe that why I have not fully moved on, I know I never met you but you changed my life massively and I don't know to thank you but also scream at you because you put me through so much pain and made me feel like I was not great enough for anyone but I am grateful that with the pain you gave me I some how dealt with it and am gradual moving away from the pain.

you are such a hypocrite. i can’t even be mad because of how funny it is. have fun with the little ego boost.

After you broke me , I can’t help but find myself still loving you and wanting to take care of you forever

I loved you for so long. A part of me always will. But if we were meant to be together, we wouldve done something about it a long time ago. But I will always be your best buddy. I'm glad youre happy with her now.

i think about you a lot & i still listen to that playlist sometimes. you made it so easy to trust you & maybe that's where i went wrong. i allowed myself to like you & i was mad at myself for it. what happened? how can you say those things & disappear like that? i don't hate you & i don't think i ever could. i'm just confused, but i truly hope you're doing well.

You hurt me in more ways then one the memories of that night haunt me to this day I was hurt scared and I have a drinking problem but you used that to your advantage... I said no over and over again no no no no

i would have told you to chose her anyways. you could have at least told me you didn’t want me.. it would have hurt just a little less than it does.

you broke me. I wore my heart on my sleeve for you, yet you threw it all away on various occasions for fake love, and now you want to tell your “friends” that it was all my fault?

we have been friends since elementary, you have been by my side always and supporting me in every way. I love you with all my heart, I am so sad about how things went for us this year. I had to choose between 2 things and I know deep down I chose the wrong one. Even if we can't really talk and be friends like we used to be you have always managed to be right their by my side as if I didn't hurt you. I want everything to go back to when we were friends. I am so sorry I love you

It's always been an on and off crush since day one. I regret being to scared to let it happen out and i hope that someday maybe it will work out. g

I used to regret not fighting for you to stay. Now I know I deserve more than you could ever give me.

Something about this color speaks to me about how I feel when I'm with you. I haven't known you for very long but I like you and we've only hung out a couple of times. I'm scared you don't want anything more with me and you're going to stop talking to me. We’ve already kinda stopped talking and it's only been a day. :/ please don't.

we might not be perfect together but I love u so much more than anything else and never want to lose u. I’m sorry that I’m not good enough for u

u need to use soap when u shower. u also need to flush the toilet so the house doesnt smell like stale pee. idiot.

our paths had to depart as fast as they came together because right now isn’t our time, but if it’s meant to be we’ll find our way back to each other the way we always do. i love you too and i’ll be yours someday just like you said.

i think ur name was aaron but it definitely began with an A so maybe this should be titled A, but wherever you are i love you, i remember we were in love but something happened, and i wish i could go back to those times when we were happy together, do you even remember? maybe not, love N

ngl but i used to like you, until you did all that shit you did. i'm never going to forget all those jokes you made about serious things. you've made me hate myself more than i thought i really would. i hope you see this because i believe that you're so insensitive about so many things. i know you probably have something going on at home but, can you at least make an effort in being nicer? you know you can always talk to me if you have something going on but, please. i can't take this anymore. you've done more harm than good and i should consider cutting you off, but it's hard to do so when you're associated with some other friends. please. if i ever pass away, i wouldn't want you at my funeral. that's how i'll put it as. you are the last person that i want near my grave. unless you change or something. i love you but, you'll never have my respect after all of the things that you have done. all i want is just an apology. that's literally all i ask for. i know you're gonna apologise/regret your actions when someone passes away but, apologise early. please. i'm begging you aaron. just apologise, you're my 13th reason and you deserve to know that.

I gave you my everything, my time, my love, my forgiveness. You cheated and now I’ll never feel truly worthy of love.

you say one thing to me and another to everyone else and now i have to cope with the belief that love is being ripped apart and put back together all at once

I think about you all day everyday. You creep in my mind even when I don’t want you to. I’ll never be enough for you though. I’m not her and I never will be. But I love you and don’t want to lose you in my life. That’s why I let you take advantage of what little friendship we have.

why do you have to be so goddamn argumentative? would it be so hard, if just once, you cared about peoples' feelings?

it's been a week since we went back to school and i saw your face. it's like falling in love all over again

i love everything about you. i love your cheeky smile, your cute jokes and your secret shyness. i just wish you would feel the same way. and i wish we could have had a chance, if i hadn't dated him and she hadn't liked you first. i love every single thing about you and i only wish you would feel the same way about me. all i want is your attention. i would spend all day talking to you about nothing in particular. i would love to be the girl of your dreams. it makes me so upset it couldn't work out but i'm in love with you regardless. i'm so sorry. i love you. you're all i want. i'd do anything to be with you.

i still have so much love for you. and i always will. ive gotten better this past month for you, ive been eating a little more, and taking care of my mental health for you, but you havent noticed yet.

fuck you for making me feel like shit every waking day. still love u tho even tho you put me thru so much shit.

No matter how bad you were for me and how much we broke eachother, a part for me doesn’t want to let you go. Not even after a year and a half.

Why.Why did yiu ruin the rest of my life.Im now afraid of the happy things that i could have used to figure myself out with .I was so innocent and young.

I miss you so much these past days of us not being together really just has been so rough. I'm glad to say that you're my first love, and I just miss all the hours we spent talking. I look over some screenshots of our texts, and I miss all of it. I miss the way you cared for me, when you would sing songs by Giveon that you memorized for me because you knew I wanted to slow dance with you with songs by Giveon. I miss staying up to talk to you on the phone, and how I would get butterflies during class when you would text me saying you loved me. I remember our first I love you. I remember how hearing your voice made me fall asleep and how you remembered every little thing about me that I couldn't even remember. Now it's all just memories and something that I wish could last forever. You once told me that we would last forever but that that came to an end. We were toxic but I would still live through all the pain just to be happy with you again. I was in love with you and I still am. You will always be the one I think of when someone asks who I love. No matter what I could never hate you, you made me so happy and you were the reason I actually wanted to wake up. I care about you so much and I would do anything just to hear your voice again, to get back together, or to just get a text from you. I still haven't deleted the pictures of you because I just can't. You will always be my yellow, my first love, and my happiness. I love you Aaron. Just like you once said to me, I'm madly in love with you

I love you so much. We’re young, I hope when we both mature then we can meet again. I pray to God about you. I want you to be happy, but I’d love if it was with me. Aaron what we had wasn’t fake, you couldn’t fake the way you looked at me. Those nights when we were laughing so hard. When we both laughed together, when we said the same thing at the same exact time. I just hope we can meet when we’re both mature and older. This is right person, wrong time. I just know this is. I never used to believe in that but now I do. You’re the right person but we are young, and I can’t blame you for everything around you. I understand that you are scared and that’s okay. We can be friends till we can try again.

If you knew I wasn’t what you wanted from the start you could have just left me alone, but you used me anyway and then tossed me aside when you were done like I was piece of garbage. And that hurt. Now I'm left with all of the pain while you get to be ok. It’s so unfair.

If you knew I wasn’t what you wanted from the start you could have just left me alone, but you used me anyway and then tossed me aside when you were done like I was piece of garbage. And that hurt. Now I'm left with all of the pain while you get to be ok. It’s so unfair.

If you knew I wasn’t what you wanted from the start you could have just left me alone, but you used me anyway and then tossed me aside when you were done like I was piece of garbage. And that hurt. Now I'm left with all of the pain while you get to be ok. It’s so unfair.

the more i heal and move on, the more i realize what we had wasn’t love and i was naive to ever
think that it was.

i think you knew. i never told you. i didn’t want to ruin the friendship, and in not telling you i ruined it anyway. i miss your hugs, i miss you so much. i miss you. i still love you. it never would’ve worked out but sometimes i wonder what if. i wonder if you liked me back. i’m certain you knew though

I don’t know what to say anymore. I tried talking to you, I told you I was hurt but I don’t think you understand how much you broke me.

I know this is your favorite color. I know that you love video games. I know that you’re one of the best artists, even though you think you suck. I know you’re proud of what you do, but you’re scared to admit it. I know that you love your skateboard. And you hate being told what to do. I know that you want to prove them wrong. And you’re scared to share too much. I know you laugh off you’re pain because you don’t know what else to do with it. And I know you think that I know nothing about you, but I know you better than I know myself. I just wish you knew me as well as I know you.

El hecho de querer separarte de mí me dolió. Pero el saber que no seremos uno mismo otra vez duele más.

God I was so obsessed with you it hurt. But people just saying ur name put a smile on my face. Thank you

I hope you know your one of the reasons I look forward to the day. I hope you know I almost love you. In a platonic way

I know we weren't together for a long time but I am so glad I was able to have been with you. I will always love you no matter what. You came back into my life 9 months later and it has been so much easier to get through the days now that you are a part of them again.

I am sorry for everything that happened with our relationship. It failed because you left me, then because I left you. I don’t regret it, though, but I think of you often and I pray (cause now I am Catholic, ironic, huh?) that God gives you a blessed life and you find someone who can open their hearts to you. I wish you the best more than you could ever realize, even to this day. I’m sorry I cannot say this to you personally.

Goodbye, Aaron. I hope you still have that scarf.

with every reason why we weren't meant to be, you showed me love that I never received before... not even from my parents.

i loved you and i never even touched your skin. you have a girlfriend now, are you as happy as you were with me, with her? lil peep only reminds me of you. i can’t even listen to it anymore

El rojo lo asocio contigo. Temo haber cometido un error, pero tal vez solo es el remordimiento hablando. Ayer cumplimos 9 meses, y hoy te extraño mas que nunca.
Estoy sanando.
Eso creo.

Felices 9 meses a mi primer amor.