Unsent messages to SEBASTIAN

Nunca imaginé que me enamoraría tan fuerte de una persona, desde que te conocí no te puedo sacar de mi mente, todos los días pienso en cómo estarás, si ya has comido, si esta bien, me preocupo mucho por ti. Lamentablemente no podemos estar otra vez juntos, aún tengo en mi mente grabado el día que empezamos a ser pareja, 26 de abril, es una fecha inolvidable, sé que si viviéramos cerca podríamos estar juntos y ser más estables, pero no es así. Me he dado cuenta que debo de dejar de sentir lo que siento y verte solo como un amigo, es muy triste todo, realmente quiero estar contigo y demostrarte todo el cariño, pero no puede ser así, talvez algún día la vida nos junte y podamos estar juntos, no lo sé, imaginalo. Eres la mejor persona que conozco, Te quiero muchísimo y espero poder estar juntos algún día.

black was yr favorite color. i wish u still loved me because i love u. i'll wait for u. please come back

hey, i miss you how you were with me. but i know if it was today you’d be acting so differently and probably treating me like shit. you wouldn’t be the same person i fell in love with 9 months ago.
you’ve made me develop as a person, i’m glad ur gone, but still miss us.

Thank you for being with me during a time of change, you don't know what it meant... I promise to remember your beautiful face and golden hair for eternity.

dear, can we try this again? you call me stupid for having hope for this relationship of ours, but i still love you. it hurts knowing that you love someone else. it hurts so much. i just want to be enough for you. dear, my heart hurts for you. can you believe that i wrote one of these stupid letters on this website six months ago and here i am again. dear, i love you. i wish you loved me. i want to feel alive again.

Desde el primer momento que te vi sentí lo llamado amor a primera vista, pero tal ves no soy lo suficientemente buena para alguien como tu, solo quiero que sepas que te amo.

after all the shit that we had to bear to stick together I still had the hope that u wouldn’t replace me... at least not so quickly... I guess you got tired of me and I get it. I want to convince myself that it was for the best, but the fact that I won’t be able to make u laugh again breaks my heart, I hope she makes u happy, and please treat her well... value every detail... make sure she feels loved, bc when I was with u I didn’t feel that way:/

Eres la persona que más amo y amado en toda mi vida. Ojalá pudieras cambiar tu egoísmo para ser felices. Siempre tendrás un espacio en mi corazón y en mi vida. Quiero que sepas que cuando veo las estrellas pienso en ti, y en todas aquellas promesas que fueron hechas. Eres el amor de mi vida. Gracias por en enseñarme tantas cosas. Por favor regresa pronto.

gracias Dios y la vida por cruzarme en tu camino por que gracias a eso entendi mi valor como persona.

idk if i still like you or if i just miss the feeling of when in was in love with you for like 6 years,anyways,i kinda hate you ngl

Te quiero, pero ya no puedo esperar a que te decidas por lo que quieres, no tengo la mente ni el alma tan fuerte para seguir siendo tu indecisión.

I loved you, you have no idea of how much I did. But you weren’t and will never be mine, I realised we’re just not meant to be.

Once I heard that I would never be enough to someone who doesn't know what they want. And you definitely don't know what you want.

Lo único que hiciste en mi vida fue crear más ansiedad y desconfianza en mí, gracias por los buenos momentos, pero no quisiera verte otra vez.

Me hiciste una mejor persona, y estuviste para mí siempre. Te voy a extrañar toda la vida, te amo baboso

I have had a lot of boyfriends, or some atleast. But I have never felt anything like I feel for you, even tho we are not togheter or have ever been I like you alot. And its really hard to describe I feel so dumb like this matter, it doesn't and it doesn't make sense idek

I wish I could have told u everything I felt that year without anyone judging us, or well, judging me.

I wish I could talk to you more. I'm too shy to start a conversation and what I overhear about what you talk about doesn't interest me. I was to get to know you better.

Te amo mas de lo que imaginas, desde que llegaste a mi vida todo ha sido mejor. Gracias, por ser tú. Por ser mejor.

te sigo amando aunque todo siga siendo dificil y no quiero dejar las cosas, pero nose porque me estresas a ratos

Du såra mig på en helt annan nivå ändån skulle jag gå tillbaka till dig inom ett hjärtslag ifall du frågade

WHY couldn't I have listened when they told me to never fall in love with your best friend. I did it once and it left my old friendship in ruins. Your kindness and sincerity made me fall in love with you. The last thing I want is to lose you.

i miss your hugs sometimes. even if we constantly are around each other, we still don't hang out. miss you ig

I wish you knew how much i think about you, i wish you could text me first every so often so i don't feel like i'm annoying you :/

the day when we facetimed and you played my favorite song for me on the guitar was the best day of my life i genuinely fell in love.

i miss you.

I loved the idea of u. we dated for 1 week and I broke it off because u made me feel uncomfortable. that one night we shared under the bridge turned off my love. watching u so eager to put those substances in u and trying to convince me to do it. ew. but after telling everyone that u broke up w me. that's fucked up. I want someone like u but not u. I can't handle everything and u needed to understand that. I miss having someone though.

your pain surprisingly hurt me too. wtf lol. but i still don't want to talk to you bc well i know my worth a lil more

I thought that maybe we were gonna end up together at one point. I want what everyone has but with you. i like get nervous when I am around you and you know what sucks its that you don't feel the same and I know it so maybe being friends is how far I will get with you.

i wish you felt the same way about me as i do you. i cry so much every night when i know you’ll never do the same.

No se que tan oscuros sean tus pensamientos, pero me habría gustado que por un segundo pensaras que todo podía tornarse diferente si tan solo hubieras confiado en mi

pd: Gracias a ti, escucho mucho mas a cuarteto de nos

te extraño, pero no te lo diré. te veo feliz con tu nueva novia y no seré yo quien te arruine todo eso; lo que si te diré es que de verdad lo siento, porque sabemos que todo lo que pasó fue mi culpa, mi miedo me controló y me hizo alejar de ti. perdón por no tener la capacidad de quedarme contigo, por no tratarte como te merecías, porque siendo sinceros tú eras lo único bueno que estaba conmigo. la forma en que me tratabas, como me mirabas, como me sentía contigo, la manera en como me abrazabas, no me soltabas para nada. así que si, fue mi culpa por ser cobarde. tal vez esto nunca lo leas, pero quien sabe. siempre te querré. Cuídate. A

You were my first love, but thanks to your fucking words now I have problems that I can't get over. Thank you for teaching me that sometimes who you least believe can become the best partner.

i’m sorry i hurt you, i should’ve admitted i was scared instead of leaving. it’s been two years since we’ve dated and not a day goes by where i don’t think about you. i love you seb please come back to me :(

I still think of you sometimes, I wish we didn't end the way we did. I miss you once in a while but then I'm pulled back to reality by remembering how shitty you treated me :(

You had two sides. But you really were my first love. But you would be really aggressive when you asked for pictures and made me feel uncomfortable after everything I’ve told you. I have goals and dream and you all did was make fun of make and put me down. All you wanted was a good fuck. And honestly I put that on myself because I liked the thought of you and put your image, your personality, you way of being all aside. I loved all your little things I loved all of you. You wanted to rush me when I wasn’t ready and look now I am Ready and waiting for someone better than you

its crazy how little i actually meant to you, how little you made me feel, and how horrible you made me feel for finally realizing my worth

I'm sorry i ended things the way i did, we weren't good to each other. it never meant i loved you any less

Fuiste importante, tal vez no supe como demostrarlo, siempre es tarde cuando se trata de ti, pero debía decirlo

We were going to have a baby and raise a family. But when I lost her you left me. Did you even ever want me?

More than a year has passed by and i still love you. I’m afraid of not getting over u ever. I hope you are very happy and if you ever need a safe space again, i will be here for you. Always.

Ya va casi un año que lo nuestro termino, pero dime amor como le explico a mi corazón que ya no sientes nada por mi?

Tan triste es decir adiós y admitir que me haz olvidado, devuélveme el corazón, te lo pido ser amado...

I really fucking like you lmao. I miss you so much too! I need you to come back and hold me in your arms again. I know we're just friends, yet I still get jealous. It is a whole new feeling and I wish you knew how much you mean to me.

Nunca vas a tener ni una pizca de idea de todo el dolor que me causaste y de todas las lagrimas que me sacaste.

Hi I don’t know if you’ll ever read this, but you’re with her now and I’m happy for you. All I’ve ever wanted was for you to be happy, you deserve it. I found someone too. He’s great and he makes me laugh and smile. I haven’t done that in awhile. A year ago I wouldn’t ever imagine us turning out like this. Separate. But that’s just how life goes. I hope one day we can sit down and laugh about what happened between us because you were special to me. We were special. But all I can do is hope.

Prometiste estar en mis cumpleaños, mi primer trabajo, mi graduación. ¿Dónde estás ahora? ¿Qué te hice para que me mintieras tanto?

Mandarina de mi corazón, querido mio.
Solo vengo aquí a decirte que... Me siento feliz por tener a gran persona a mi lado. No sé que hubiera sido de mi, tal vez tendría amigos pasajeros y no alguien tan tú, cuando hablo contigo o estoy contigo no tengo que preocuparme por cosas secundarias, me gusta estar contigo y me da tristeza cuando me tengo que despedir.

Esperó que sigamos siendo los mismos amigos pendejos de siempre, espero que cumplas tu sueños y cuando los estés cumpliendo poder estar a tu lado, y no solo en tus momentos de triunfo, también quiero estar en tus días grises y en todas las estaciones de tu vida. UwU

Con amor, WYOG

thinking about you has always made me nervous but it's nothing in comparison to the butterflies i feel when i'm with you

I will always love you, not just for the person you are in my head but who you actually are. no guy has ever made me laugh or put the biggest smile on my face but you, you know me so well and I know check up on me from time to time. ill always miss you and this is for the better and I know you arent the guy god wants me with but I will always pray for you and your wellbeing. your family, you and your life. i want you to be happy with yourself and have both of us grow from this. i am ready to move on to myself and work on me. to focus solely on school,my body, friends and those who truly have value and not guys. to feel confident in who I am and be that person i really want to be I believe I can really do that and that's what makes me happy and keeps me going. there are moments where I have weakness and miss you but I know that it was for the better. if anything thank you so much for cheating on me. you lost me I did loose you.
ill always know that and that helps me sleep at night

I love you kid always will

swift

hey, i'd never thought i'd write one of these about because you're not even worth my time. all you did was fuck me over. you fucked me over for someone that I know you could do better with. but this all goes back to you, I won here. you got heartbroken while I was at peace without you.