Nunca vas a tener ni una pizca de idea de todo el dolor que me causaste y de todas las lagrimas que me sacaste.

I really fucking like you lmao. I miss you so much too! I need you to come back and hold me in your arms again. I know we're just friends, yet I still get jealous. It is a whole new feeling and I wish you knew how much you mean to me.

Nunca imaginé que me enamoraría tan fuerte de una persona, desde que te conocí no te puedo sacar de mi mente, todos los días pienso en cómo estarás, si ya has comido, si esta bien, me preocupo mucho por ti. Lamentablemente no podemos estar otra vez juntos, aún tengo en mi mente grabado el día que empezamos a ser pareja, 26 de abril, es una fecha inolvidable, sé que si viviéramos cerca podríamos estar juntos y ser más estables, pero no es así. Me he dado cuenta que debo de dejar de sentir lo que siento y verte solo como un amigo, es muy triste todo, realmente quiero estar contigo y demostrarte todo el cariño, pero no puede ser así, talvez algún día la vida nos junte y podamos estar juntos, no lo sé, imaginalo. Eres la mejor persona que conozco, Te quiero muchísimo y espero poder estar juntos algún día.

I know your happy with her but it’s unfair how we spend so much time together and we have so many memories and you just left because it got hard

You made me feel more alive than I ever felt before. But in reality you were what was slowly killing me.

I miss you. I miss holding you, kissing you, seeing your name on my phone. When I see you now or hear your name I realize just how much I need you. I want to be with you, but I know you're scared. I fell in love with you. I want us to work.

i think about you more often than id like to admit. i miss u every day and i wish that we could just be like how we used to be. i miss being close to you. you have impacted my life a lot and i don’t know if that’s for the best. you apologize for upsetting me, and then you upset me even more. it is hard to love someone who makes you doubt yourself and your relationships all of the time.

You linger in the far back crevices of my mind, even after being apart for almost a decade.

An entire decade. Sometimes I struggle accepting how quickly time has fleeted.

Because every so often, I’ll get a breath of fresh, crisp Autumn air and it transcends me back to Germany.

I’m then filled with the most vivid memories of us.

We were so young. So vibrant. So spontaneous.

Even though I feel like we knew we weren’t right for each other, we were still somehow addicted to the moment.

I sometimes wonder where we’d be in life had we not gotten separated, or at least separated at such a young and vulnerable age.

I then wonder if you ever relive the same flashbacks that I do.

I guess I’ll never know, and that’s okay.

Every path is crossed for a reason and I wouldn’t change a thing about our history, because then that would rewrite the story I have now.

you’re the best person i could’ve ever asked for. i wanna give you the world but i’m so messed up inside i’m so sorry

Tan triste es decir adiós y admitir que me haz olvidado, devuélveme el corazón, te lo pido ser amado...

Ya va casi un año que lo nuestro termino, pero dime amor como le explico a mi corazón que ya no sientes nada por mi?

i still love you. it hurt when you left and it hurt even more that after six months you decided you wanted to be with someone else. i don’t understand why you could do that but anytime i tried to move on you would make me feel guilty, but i love you, i think i always will. i can’t imagine a life without you, you pulled me out of a very dark place and for that i’ll always be grateful. you’re my forever. i miss you

More than a year has passed by and i still love you. I’m afraid of not getting over u ever. I hope you are very happy and if you ever need a safe space again, i will be here for you. Always.

We were going to have a baby and raise a family. But when I lost her you left me. Did you even ever want me?

ik you never had feelings for me whatsoever I just really wanted to say ilysm tbh you are a fucking dick and you are literally all I hate whatsoever I can't stop to have feelings for you, yes, im talking about you the gamer boy who broke my heart, smartest boy in the class, not so many friends, but still your messages could light up my heart, you were older than me and I just instantly fell for your voice and your laughs, what makes you laugh in the middle of the class and what makes you happy, ilysm and I miss you pls answer my text ): i rlly like ill dedicate you your song heart attack by chuu.

How I want you to understand that it was really worth it, that I want something with you without being the usual classic couple :(

No sabes cuánto te extraño.
Extraño hablar contigo, verte ,todo de ti, sigo sin entender la razón por la cual me dejaste sola aquí.

Seamos felices los dos si, te amo y tu me amas, Sebastian mi bebe, mi primer amor... lo siento mucho... te tengo en mi corazón, en mis sueños soy muy feliz a tu lado, no te alejes de mi.

Fuiste importante, tal vez no supe como demostrarlo, siempre es tarde cuando se trata de ti, pero debía decirlo

i really just want to be friends but i dont know how to tell you. i've never been good at being friends with guys because i always worry about catching feelings, but i think we could be good friends. i didn't mean to hurt you. i'm sorry.

I don't believe you when you say you love me when you only look at me with loving eyes when we're having sex.

No se como decirte que solo te veo como mi hermano mayor,y no como mi pareja,y que acepte solo por que me siento sole.Lo siento. :c

Sometimes I wonder if you still think of me the way that I sometimes think of you. I'm over you ... mostly.

I have loved you for so long. I never expected to give you my heart but here we are. This break will heal us.

i wish i never fucking met your repulsive, manipulative, toxic, asshole. you promised me you'd never hurt me many times and you used like some old rag. i hate you you piece of shit. i hope you get what you deserve. and honestly she could've done better than you. oh btw youre a fucking psychopath. heartless bitch

hey, i'd never thought i'd write one of these about because you're not even worth my time. all you did was fuck me over. you fucked me over for someone that I know you could do better with. but this all goes back to you, I won here. you got heartbroken while I was at peace without you.

youre my person. i hope you arent another alex. i love you with every ounce of my being. i mean that. stay perfect babe < 3

This isn’t anything sad and gross like I always write but I feel like it’s been a while since I’ve told you how much I appreciate you. It’s been a few years actually. Things aren’t the same as they used to be and we still have some things to talk about but I just hope you know I still care about you a lot. Just as much as I did those few years ago. You’re a good friend and I don’t know how you deal with me because I’m definitely not a great friend; I’m a pretty shit one actually. I don’t know how you ever dealt with me at all to be honest but I appreciate it. You’re just a really good person and I like being around you (even though it’s been a while) and I hope you know you can always talk to me if you need anything. I don’t care how long it’s been. Our friendship is kinda complicated; we were never really friends and then somehow 6th grade happened and we talked more and then somehow 8TH GRADE happened and then we stopped talking for a while and now even though we don’t talk nearly as much as we used to, we’re kind of on speaking terms?? Kind of not?? I don’t know what happened but I’m glad we still talk at all. It makes me sad because I wish things were still like they used to be but things just happen and people change. I get it, it just kinda sucks. But yeahhhh I just really value our friendship and there’s so many things you know about me that nobody else does and I’m just glad you were there to listen when I needed someone to talk to. I just needed to write this to you even if I’m not really writing it TO YOU but screaming it out into the void helps a little. Alright I’m done, writing this makes me wanna cry

You said you loved me and we’d go through everything together. But, after we said “I love you” for the last time, you left and i still don’t know why.

I will always love you, not just for the person you are in my head but who you actually are. no guy has ever made me laugh or put the biggest smile on my face but you, you know me so well and I know check up on me from time to time. ill always miss you and this is for the better and I know you arent the guy god wants me with but I will always pray for you and your wellbeing. your family, you and your life. i want you to be happy with yourself and have both of us grow from this. i am ready to move on to myself and work on me. to focus solely on school,my body, friends and those who truly have value and not guys. to feel confident in who I am and be that person i really want to be I believe I can really do that and that's what makes me happy and keeps me going. there are moments where I have weakness and miss you but I know that it was for the better. if anything thank you so much for cheating on me. you lost me I did loose you.
ill always know that and that helps me sleep at night

I love you kid always will

swift

I'm sorry i ended things the way i did, we weren't good to each other. it never meant i loved you any less

its crazy how little i actually meant to you, how little you made me feel, and how horrible you made me feel for finally realizing my worth

You had two sides. But you really were my first love. But you would be really aggressive when you asked for pictures and made me feel uncomfortable after everything I’ve told you. I have goals and dream and you all did was make fun of make and put me down. All you wanted was a good fuck. And honestly I put that on myself because I liked the thought of you and put your image, your personality, you way of being all aside. I loved all your little things I loved all of you. You wanted to rush me when I wasn’t ready and look now I am Ready and waiting for someone better than you

thinking about you has always made me nervous but it's nothing in comparison to the butterflies i feel when i'm with you

i hate how much time i waste thinking about you when i KNOW you probably forgot all about me. when you left you should have taken all the memories we have together. what happened to all the promises we made? we were supposed to be best friends- not even that we were FAMILY. what made you decide that i wasn't worth your time anymore. i just asked you to be honest with me so you couldn't even do that. so fuck you for doing the thing that i always feared and left me without an explanation. and fuck you for making a home in my heart just for you to leave.

i am so sorry for messing things up twice. I took too long to realize whats important and i deserve how things turned out and the pain it causes me now, months after i ended us for the last time. i know you already moved on and im glad to see you happy, it just wish i was still the reason for that, and i know thats selfish. I dont know when or if i will move on, but i know i miss you. I never stopped loving you, but i know i wouldnt be good for you.

you came into my life at a bad time when i truly hated who i was and what i had become. thank you for being the best thing that's ever happened to me.

I still think of you sometimes, I wish we didn't end the way we did. I miss you once in a while but then I'm pulled back to reality by remembering how shitty you treated me :(

I wish I could have told u everything I felt that year without anyone judging us, or well, judging me.

i’m sorry i hurt you, i should’ve admitted i was scared instead of leaving. it’s been two years since we’ve dated and not a day goes by where i don’t think about you. i love you seb please come back to me :(

I was scrolling through tik tok and saw someone had a picture hanging up. It was the pinky promise drawing we bought at target earlier this year. I know you took yours down and maybe you threw it away. Seeing it made me cry for the first time in months. I’m sorry for all the broken promises. But you’re happy now. That’s all I have ever wanted. I miss you.

i only miss the idea of you. the idea of what was so easily attainable but always out of reach. i fucking hate you for just disappearing but i cant help but keep falling in love for the idea of what we couldve been.

You were my first love, but thanks to your fucking words now I have problems that I can't get over. Thank you for teaching me that sometimes who you least believe can become the best partner.

te extraño, pero no te lo diré. te veo feliz con tu nueva novia y no seré yo quien te arruine todo eso; lo que si te diré es que de verdad lo siento, porque sabemos que todo lo que pasó fue mi culpa, mi miedo me controló y me hizo alejar de ti. perdón por no tener la capacidad de quedarme contigo, por no tratarte como te merecías, porque siendo sinceros tú eras lo único bueno que estaba conmigo. la forma en que me tratabas, como me mirabas, como me sentía contigo, la manera en como me abrazabas, no me soltabas para nada. así que si, fue mi culpa por ser cobarde. tal vez esto nunca lo leas, pero quien sabe. siempre te querré. Cuídate. A

I have had a lot of boyfriends, or some atleast. But I have never felt anything like I feel for you, even tho we are not togheter or have ever been I like you alot. And its really hard to describe I feel so dumb like this matter, it doesn't and it doesn't make sense idek

Me hiciste una mejor persona, y estuviste para mí siempre. Te voy a extrañar toda la vida, te amo baboso

I was too shy to talk to you but I loved the warmth of your hugs. Your purple sweater is so warm and comfy. I wish we can be friends, my gamer boy.

Extraño hablarte como lo haciamos antes, quedarnos hablando de tonterías hasta las 5 am, te amo, perdón por nunca decírtelo

Perdóname por ese último mensaje. A veces pienso en ti y en todo lo que me hiciste sentir y crecer como persona. Te sigo queriendo a pesar de que ya pasaron años desde la última vez que te vi. Te deseo lo mejor de este mundo.

I like you so much but you don’t have the same feelings…I can’t keep waiting