me dolió mucho saber que no te me pudiste declarar por que yo lo estuve esperando pero bueno asi son las cosas tal vez no eras para mi o tu no me merecías pero sabes en este momento me da igual y espero algún día pueda volverte a ver la verdad me duele saber que ya no te veré mas y espero te este yendo super bien nunca te olvidare tu me hiciste sentir cosas que nunca pensé sentir y eso fue ... y espero nunca te olvides de mi por que yo nunca lo hare te quiero y chao espero y algún dia nos podamos reencontrar pero sabes ya no me importas entonces vete para la mierda ya no me gustas ni nada y eso lo se por que ya me da igual escuchar tu nombre y bye sapo hijueputa

it’s sad the way things ended, cause the bond we had was amazing. i tried my hardest but i guess it wasn't enough, but now I'm finally letting go. if there is one last thing you can do for me, take care of yourself.

4 years of being best friends gone that the drain because of your cowardice. I HATE YOUUUU and i hate that i miss your stupid ass

fuck you. you took advantage of how low i was. i hope using me was worth it because now that your gone i finally want to live.

Siempre y serás la persona que más te quiera en el Mundo aunque no lo sepas, si en esta vida no podré estar junto a ti lo haré en la otra siempre me pregunte si en algún momento te gustaba o sentías algo por mi, nunca olvidaré cuando dormí frente a ti mirándote a los ojos en este mundo de homofobia no creo que nos dejen estar juntos pero algún día lograré que los 2 seamos felices 2018-2020

You had a girlfriend. Why would you say what you said knowing what a fucked up place I was in at the time.

because you left? because that way? Didn't you realize that I really loved you? I gave you everything I could, when you were with me it was the most beautiful year that I could live alongside, I really miss you, I can't say that I no longer love you and that I am over you because I would be lying, I miss you a lot, but I I have to realize that you preferred her to me, now what do I do with all the nice details I did for when we meet again? Now, how do I explain to my mom that the only person who made me happy ... abandoned me? I try to look for a sebastian in other eyes, but I can't find him, I just hope that she makes you happy and gives you everything that I don't give you, be happy and take care of her .. sorry for not giving you what you deserve , I love you...

I hate you. I was nothing but nice to you but you always found a way to make me feel like shit for caring. I really did love you even if you won't except that, and as much as I wanted us to work out you lost more than I did.

i’m so so in love with you. you like her but i’m really hoping you will be mine someday. it sucks that you’re dating her but i love you and have since the first time i talked to you. ily bub :).

Lamento haberte dado la oportunidad de romperme, ya no puedo estar con alguien sin pensar que lo aburro o que no soy suficiente. No solo me hiciste insegura, me hiciste inestable y no sé como lidiar con eso. Pero lo peor de todo eso, es que no puedo dejarte solo, porque estás peor que yo. Ves lo que ocasionas?

I’ll always love you despite the pain you caused me, i’m too sacred to hate you. i’m now towering above you and know you’ll always be a hurt little boy in awe of everything i’m becoming.

Te amo mas de lo que imaginas, desde que llegaste a mi vida todo ha sido mejor. Gracias, por ser tú. Por ser mejor.

I wish I could talk to you more. I'm too shy to start a conversation and what I overhear about what you talk about doesn't interest me. I was to get to know you better.

Desde que hablamos sabía que ibas a ser lo mejor de mi vida. Me hiciste sentir demasiado y aunque ya no estás aquí, deseo que seas feliz. Te quiero por siempre.

I told you no. You said I didn’t love you and if I did I would let you. You manipulated a 15 year old girl into letting the first boy she ever loved do whatever he wanted. I want that piece of me back. I would do anything to take that back. I hate you for that.

la cicatriz que me dejaste, no se ha borrado. te extraño y sé que eso no esta bien porque tu me rompiste, me jodiste y ahora solo trato de salir adelante pero anhelo volver a coincidir y que funcione.

No se que tan oscuros sean tus pensamientos, pero me habría gustado que por un segundo pensaras que todo podía tornarse diferente si tan solo hubieras confiado en mi

pd: Gracias a ti, escucho mucho mas a cuarteto de nos

i wish you felt the same way about me as i do you. i cry so much every night when i know you’ll never do the same.

Lo único que hiciste en mi vida fue crear más ansiedad y desconfianza en mí, gracias por los buenos momentos, pero no quisiera verte otra vez.

I thought that maybe we were gonna end up together at one point. I want what everyone has but with you. i like get nervous when I am around you and you know what sucks its that you don't feel the same and I know it so maybe being friends is how far I will get with you.

you know, i used to think back on all of our memories and it would hurt my heart. i could actually feel my heart break with each thought. i used to see you with your new girl of the week, and it would kill me. the tears would just fill my eyes seeing you with someone who wasnt me. i loved you more than anything. it took me a long time to fully recover from my heartbreak from you. but i have finally got there. i am finally able to think back on our memories, and just smile. i am finally able to see you with someone else and feel happy for you. i thought i would never come this far. especially when we were off and on again. i thought i would always be stuck on you seb. but something i realized in my heartbreak was this: if you love them, let them go. which is such a true statement. i needed to let you go. i needed you to let me let you go. i needed to realize and accept that i am not what you need right now, and you are not what i need. and thats okay. its okay that you have moved on, because i have too.
but there is just one more thing i want to say. i believe that sometimes, when two people meet, they connect in a more powerful way than most can. they create this tie between them that cannot be severed: no matter the distance, no matter the pain, no matter the issue... it just cannot be broken. and sebastian, we have that. the way that we look at each other isn't the way exes do. there is still some sort of care there, and there always will be. we cant deny that. because of this unbreakable tie, i will always be here for you when you need me. always. not matter the distance, no matter the pain, no matter the issue.... i will be here. a piece of my heart will always belong to you seb. and i mean that.
whatever our souls are made of, yours and mine are the same.

love,

forever yours

dear, can we try this again? you call me stupid for having hope for this relationship of ours, but i still love you. it hurts knowing that you love someone else. it hurts so much. i just want to be enough for you. dear, my heart hurts for you. can you believe that i wrote one of these stupid letters on this website six months ago and here i am again. dear, i love you. i wish you loved me. i want to feel alive again.

ayo. u were a ok boyfriend ig.. being around you made me feel so shy but like in a way that i wanted to hide cause lowkey didn’t wanna date you. anyways, thank for introducing me to your ex while we were “dating”, she kinda helped me realize i was lesbian. uh that’s it, bye.

Hey seb, it’s me, I’m sorry that I’m not enough to help you, we say I love you so much but I never feel like you mean it, I mean it with every fiber of my being, I just want you but you don’t need me.

Once I heard that I would never be enough to someone who doesn't know what they want. And you definitely don't know what you want.

your pain surprisingly hurt me too. wtf lol. but i still don't want to talk to you bc well i know my worth a lil more

I didn’t wanna do this again but I couldn’t stop myself. I don’t know what I want from you. I don’t know what you want from me. I don’t know what I want for myself. I know - or at least I think? - you’re interested in somebody else and everything but I feel stuck. Like I’m caught in this limbo between wanting you and hating you. I’m stuck in the past, like always, holding on to something I’m not sure even exists anymore. I really miss you but I’m too scared to let you in again. Every time I want to get closer I stop myself. I’d rather be alone than ever let myself love you a second time because I don’t want to be forced to get used to your absence again. I’d like to think that you still think of me but I suppose I can’t be sure. Maybe we should talk about things or maybe we should just sit in silence and never acknowledge a single thing. The longer I sit here in silence though, the more these feelings brew and boil over inside of me. A large part of me genuinely hopes you’re reading this because this is the only way I can get myself to reach out. LB

I loved the idea of u. we dated for 1 week and I broke it off because u made me feel uncomfortable. that one night we shared under the bridge turned off my love. watching u so eager to put those substances in u and trying to convince me to do it. ew. but after telling everyone that u broke up w me. that's fucked up. I want someone like u but not u. I can't handle everything and u needed to understand that. I miss having someone though.

I loved you, you have no idea of how much I did. But you weren’t and will never be mine, I realised we’re just not meant to be.

the day when we facetimed and you played my favorite song for me on the guitar was the best day of my life i genuinely fell in love.

i miss you.

I wish you knew how much i think about you, i wish you could text me first every so often so i don't feel like i'm annoying you :/

I wish i would have told you about my feelings but now it‘s to late. You are happy with your girl and that is all that matters❤️ Maybe one day it is going to be us? But we are so young we will se how life is gonna end one day! You are forever in my heart❤️

i miss you, when you're not by my side. everyday i can't sleep, i just take your sweather, which smells like u and suddenly i feel safe. i feel good. i love it, how you can play with my siblings like they were yours, how you can talk to my father like he were your best friend, how you treat my mum so respectful, how i can look you in the eyes and they suddenly begin to shine.
i love you.

Not my first love but I was yours. You shouldn't have forced yourself on me. It was my first time. Hope you get what you deserve.

sebastian i love you but you love her and youll probably never see this but youre my best friend and i cant imagine life without you we used to date and i fucked up and ended it im sorry i wish i could have a second chance but youre with her now and youre happy and thats all ive ever wanted for you

I have written you at least 50 love songs that you will never hear but more then anything I just want you to know how incredible you are.

You broke me more than I ever thought someone could, but why do I still love you more and more every day??

Te quiero, pero ya no puedo esperar a que te decidas por lo que quieres, no tengo la mente ni el alma tan fuerte para seguir siendo tu indecisión.

Thank you for being with me during a time of change, you don't know what it meant... I promise to remember your beautiful face and golden hair for eternity.

Yes, I did truly like you. Its crazy how i can still be nuteral with you after all the things youve done to me

Yes, i did truly like you. Its crazy how i can still be nuteral with you after all the things youve done to me.

Hey, quizá ya no hablamos como antes, pero la verdad te extraño mucho, fuiste, eres y serás la persona que me hizo cambiar mi perspectiva respecto al amor, la persona que me enseño y dio muchas cosas, no solo físicas, sino también sentimentales, eres el amor de mi vida, o así lo siento yo, sé que nada volverá ha ser como antes, solo quería decirte que te amo demasiado y hubiera querido entregar más de mí y no simplemente dejarte ir, gracias por todo, solo recuérdame siempre y ahora hazla feliz a ella, porque si tu estas feliz yo lo estaré, te amo viejo amigo...

you were *are* my first love. you feel like home. maybe it's your smile. maybe it's the warm quintessence you carry with every step. although I couldn't read you or reach you, i'm glad to know you. i'll always be here for you. i don't know why this feeling isn't completely gone. but maybe that's because i don't want it to be.

hey. its been a while since we’ve spoken, youre not allowed to talk on insta, and i know you rejected me a while back and think we’re just friends, but i never lost feelings for you :/ i really like you, but you’ll never like me back..

your my best friend and i love you more than words can describe i know i never was good enough for u u always picked the other girl in the end and i hate u for it but i still can’t get over u it’s been over a year and everytime i see u it all comes back. i thought it went away for good but seeing u again i guess i found out it’s not gone and i hate myself for loving u like this

i don’t think you understood how much you meant to me. i loved you and i put all my trust and hope into you and you still left me. you showed me what i had ever wanted and then took it away in the matter of days. i’m sorry i wasn’t enough

hey, i miss you how you were with me. but i know if it was today you’d be acting so differently and probably treating me like shit. you wouldn’t be the same person i fell in love with 9 months ago.
you’ve made me develop as a person, i’m glad ur gone, but still miss us.

Finally i am happy away from you, you made me into a person I will never be again. You manipulated me and you made me blind to the person you started to become. I fell in love with a different version of you and sat and waited for him to come out once you changed. I will try and remember the love we had in the beginning but all that I feel is the hurt you gave in the end. I hope you figure out how to treat a girl. I will never go back to you again.

i have never loved someone quite as much as you. or in the same way. you are an amazing person, and i love everything about you. your smile is probably my favorite, though. you make me laugh harder than i have with anyone. i'm so comfortable with you, and your arms feel like home. thinking about you makes me smile and gives me butterflies. looking you in the eyes , my heart stops and i wonder how i got so lucky. i will love you forever, no matter what. that's not a promise, it's just the truth.

black was yr favorite color. i wish u still loved me because i love u. i'll wait for u. please come back