stop steal my entire personality, stop triggering my eating problems, stop making me feel like a literal piece of shit. leave. me. alone.

at that party, last halloween, i remember. i never bought it up to you, because i didn't want you to be embarrassed, or something. but i remember what you said. and i felt the same way.

I’m sorry our friendship didn’t work out. I’m sorry I judged you too. It was fun while it lasted. Maybe in another life.

I’m letting go. I wish you peace because you couldn’t handle chaos. I loved you and would have done anything to prove it. Now I’m gone and I’m not coming back. Don’t contact me again.

you could be dead right now. gone forever. and i wouldn’t have expected it. please, talk to me when you’re getting bad. talk to me when you’re feeling this way. the weight of worrying feels like it’ll never go away.

thank you so much for being a big part of my life, even though you're on the other side of the world, you've been one of the best people in my life and have helped me through some of my lowest points without even knowing. I wish you the best that the world has to offer! ily and we'll see each other soon

you r my shawty and my gf and my wife. u rly r bestie 4 da restie. cannot believe we have been friends since freshman year of high school now we r almost 20. you make me genuinely so happy and i am so glad you are in my life miss girl :)

you’re stuck up and toxic , you deserve none of the people you have. you think life gets handed to you on a plate and use trauma as an excuse. it’s pathetic and you need to change.

I didn’t know it was possible to feel this way about a human being until I met you. I wish I had told you, I hadn’t just fallen for you. But I think I’m in love with you. Because of you I know what love feels like, and I am eternally greatful

hi hi, i miss you. im doing a little better i guess :))) not a lot has happened since the last time i wrote to you on here my birthday is in 10 days, im scared, i dont want to grow up, all of this is so scary, honestly i just wanna be a kid again, back when me and you and philip would hang out almost every day, before you passed, everything was great, i wish you were still here mads. anyways, that boy and i are still together, i feel like he's getting tired of me, and like he just doesn't really like me anymore, i hope im wrong because i really like him :(. but anyways i love you and miss you so much, till next time maddie

for my birthday im going to a harry styles concert, no one was really happy for me, i only told a few people and they all kinda made fun of me, i know you would have been happy for me. i get to bring one of my friends, i would bring you if you were still here because i know how important 1D and harry styles is to you, maybe i should bring phlilip? idk if he would want to go lol

when i talk to you i see hope that i could be happy with someone else again. im hurting so badly and i just want to talk to you all the time.

i wish we could have stayed best friends. i loved being your friend. i miss it but you have new friends now, have fun :)

thank you for sticking with me for the past 2-3 years. it's a relief to know i could rely on your unconditional support. thank you.

You occupied my mind for so long my personality became a necklace strung just for you but you couldn’t decide if you wanted it.

I'm sorry I didn't get to say goodbye before moving. I'm sorry we don't talk as much anymore. I hope you know that seeing you recently made me the happiest I've been in a long time.

I never actually said it back because I was scared, but I loved you too. I think part of me always will.

i thought it would work out. perhaps i was wrong. or perhaps it wasn't the right time, and you'll be back.

I love how we still are ok with each other. I just wanted to tell you I had real feelings for you, I know I was just an experiment but thank you for calling me during the thunderstorms and making me feel ok when I had no one.

i love you dearly, so that’s why i think i’m going to try to distance myself from you for a little, for you and for us. i don’t know what you’re thinking atm, please tell me

i love you and i miss you so much. i’ve felt empty since you moved but i don’t want to talk about it because you’re doing amazing. i hope you never stop being happy

hi. im better now, yesterday was not fun, i had another episode and i was just screaming and crying in my sleep, my mom woke me up because she was worried and i couldn't snap back into the real world and it was like i was re living one of the worst moments on my life, it was so scary. my mom took me off of my meds because she thought i was better but apparently not. i hate being like this because its causing problems in my real life like with my boyfriend, i think he understands why i am like this but im not fully sure. i told him about why i am the way i am and why i have so much ptsd and he said he understood. i have a feeling that he is gonna break up with me because of it and i honestly dont blame him, like i dont want him to because i really like him but if he did then it would make sense. i miss you a lot more than usual lately, you gave the best advice and if you were here then i know you would be able to help. some people from my school started calling me by my nickname, i hate when people do that, its kinda just a personal thing and i only like when my family and really close friends call me it, especially because you made it up for me. my dad calls me my nickname and i dont mind it honestly but its just annoying when other people do it. its been crazy here lately, like politics are scary, and just everything tbh. but yeah i miss you a lot.

I would say I am mad at you but i’m not. It hurts you say I left you out when thats all you ever did to me. I wanted to be close to you so badly and wanted to be your friend. But no matter how hard I tried people either forced me into not liking you or you turned to not like me. I want to say they turned us against eachother but you wouldn’t believe that. we used to say we were the only ones that understood eachother now that seems to be untrue. you know those things she said aren’t true? i never ever meant to treat you badly. she did she had bad intentions in the beginning and all the suddenly completely switched up. i’m sorry for hurting you maddie I wish you could see my side and understand that you are my only person that i felt i could truly feel and relate to. i wish you would tell me when i do stuff and not let her say shit. but other wise i care and love you very much.

I denied it. I denied that I was in love with you, and that I still am. But you dropped me like I was nothing so maybe it was better that I didn't say anything. Idk, because every time I pass you in the hallway I realize how bad you were to me and how I trusted you and you gave it all away. Im broken from it but I cant imagine if I had told you. Never be like that to anyone else. Dont drag them on like you did to me then drop them like that. Dont hurt anyone else like that. I dont think you noticed how bad you made me feel but if you did im happy you hurt me instead of someone you truly love.

ur my yellow, my bestfriend, my platonic soulmate, no one compares to u anymore u mean so much to me and i really don’t want to ever lose u bubs thank u for sticking around when no one else did i owe u so much ur incredible and i am so proud of u

i really feel like you stole my best friend from me but you two r obviously closer now. just please don’t take any of my other friends.

I hate you. You deserve every bad thing in the world. You made me feel like I was a terrible, unloveable monster when in reality, that's what you are.

You are the strongest person I know. I’m sorry I haven’t shown you as much love as you’ve shown me. You’re my best friend.

I did rlly like you. Like alot. U made me feel appreciated, and i liked that u still chased after me even tho I ended it.

hey i've only just realised this now, but i think i loved you. you were my everything and i would have died for you. tbh, i still think i love you. that's why it hurts so bad :(

you made me feel as if i wasn’t enough when on the contrary i was too much , my love was overwhelming and you just decided to let me go and when i got better you tried coming back to me because you realized few love the way i love

thank you for being my friend. I love talking about one direction with you. I chose this color because it is the color of your eyes.

you. fucked. me. up. but i will always love you and you were many of my firsts. you helped me discover what i wanted for myself and who i was. that night at the football game was unforgettable and even if i am moved on from you that night will always have a place in my heart.

couldn't you look into my soul and see something to love?

i’m not angry anymore

i miss you and i’m sorry i ruined everything, i still have your letters in my drawer <3

I snooped through your room when I was dog sitting and found your “special” toys… it was so hot.

I hurt you to the same extent you hurt me. And I’m sorry.

You deserve to be happy and heal. I hope you come back some day. I love you Maddie

in the end, was it all worth it?

Even though you were manipulative and mean. You were always so funny and sometimes I miss you.

i miss talking to you. i hope we get through this.

You will always be apart of my life from afar. I wish you all the best and congrats!

everytime i see u and ur new man i wanna scream cry and throw up COMEEEE HOMEEEE PLSSS I MISS U BABY

why did you take him from me. you knew abt us, but still talked to him. why.

Why did you lead me on and hurt me?

You’re one of my best friends, even if sometimes I don’t act like it

We could have been perfect together, now I'm too caught up on what could have been

Please just reach out.

I know we were only ever friends but I miss you. The way you talked about love was too sweet <3