Unsent Messages

honestly i don’t even know i did to deserve this:( i’m sorry if i ever hurt you or said something to upset you, but i’m so confused and just hurt by the way you switched up on me suddenly after speaking for months.
i loved you so much, and you were the only person i actually got excited to speak to everyday. you were the only person i enjoyed calling for hours, and falling asleep together was literally my favourite thing ever and i got so upset when we wouldn’t so much when school started
then when we wouldn’t call even on the weekends, it just hurt so bad.
i wish i never indirected you on fake private stories, or was rude to you ever, and i never once meant to upset you. i wish we still called every weekend. i wish we still liked each other. i wish i hadn’t ever turned you away. i wish i weren’t so clingy, but you just made me feel so good.
i don’t know if it was brad, or someone else, but i’m just so hurt. i didn’t get an explanation, or a snap back, after everything i did to try and make you happy whenever you seemed sad. the biggest kick in the face was when you said “don’t be sad” the one time i really needed you. the one time i was so upset, and you just didn’t care.
i wish things could just go back to how they were, luke. i wish we could snap all day, even if we’re not saying anything, i wish we could call all night, even if it were only on the weekends. i wish we still loved each other. i just wish we hadn’t drifted.
the way we went from calling every single night, falling asleep together whilst saying i love you to each other, wanting to make plans together. to go from that, to never speaking, to being unadded. i got so attached to you, luke, and it hurts so much now we don’t talk. i didn’t even get an explanation. it’s okay if you’ve moved on, but to leave me without saying anything-
i’m so hurt

i don’t know what i did, but i wish i didn’t:(