Unsent messages to LIAM

i don’t know why i liked you so much it didn’t even make sense. but it was all-encompassing and i wish i could feel it again. and i know you felt it too at one point. if you didn’t, you would’ve put more into your relationship with her. goodbye, hope to see you next year.

I love you so much but sometimes I have doubts I don’t know why I just overthink and ruin my happiness you probably deserve better than me but I love you too much to ever tell you or let you know

You were my first taste of what love could be. I treasured every message and moment. I wish you said goodbye properly. I wish I didn’t pretend I didn’t mind being ghosted. I still think about you even though I’m with someone new.

i don’t think you knew that i just wanted to be in your presence. you made me feel warm and safe and cared for. i wish you could see all the wonderful things i see in you. i miss you.

hey. Its hard to get you off my mind. I just want to say thank you for everything. You make me so happy and I love you for that. The bond between you and me is one to remember. I miss what we had. Sometimes I still feel your hands holding mine, you rubbing my back. how your eyes looked into mine, the way your smile made me feel, I can hear your voice saying my name, Ii can hear your laugh, and I still can vividly see every memory we had together. I hate to admit it, but I miss you. And Ii keep wondering what I did wrong that I couldn't keep you, why did you feel like I wasn't good enough for you? I'm constantly wondering if I ever come across your mind, even if it's for a second. Not that it matters, but yes, I still wonder why your name pops on my mind. Despite you forgetting that I exist. Despite you leaning out of love. I know you don't need me. but I miss you. I hope you are happy. Thank you for all the memories and smiles we shared. I'll forever cherish and remember them. I will always wish the best for you. If you need someone to talk to, don't hesitate to talk to me. You were the first person I have ever loved; I had never felt this way towards no one. You brought out something in me that nobody ever had before and i love you for that. Thank you for showing me what love is. You will always hold a special place in my heart because I genuinely love you. I still think about you. I wish I had hugged and kissed you a little longer. Please don't give up on us. I miss and love you so much.

why the fuck did you care so much what other people thought of us. we were in love, it didn't matter what they thought.

i didn't love myself until i saw the way you loved me and knew there was something worth loving. hope you're well, man.

It’s been over a decade and I still think about you sometimes. I truly love my current partner, but I still think about you and I hope you’re okay. I hope you’re doing better. I wish we could’ve tried as actual adults.

i still say i love you, but to be honest i don’t think i do. you don’t say it back anyways so why do i feel bad? our relationship is one ive never had with anyone, and even if it’s narrowed down to friendship i want to keep it and feel like i can tell you anything. there’s another guy, and i like him almost as much as i liked you at first. he’s so nice and really cute... i wanna talk to you about him but i feel like you’d stop talking to me. do you still talk to me because you think i still have feelings for you?

We've grown so close over these years, but I can't tell if you still love me the way that I now love you.

I didn’t leave you because I wanted to. I left you, for you. I wish I loved myself the same way I love you

I wasted a year thinking you were my soulmate. You consistently lied to keep me around, but your lies were so beautiful. Whenever I stargaze I think of you. Goodbye

I think you might be my soulmate. I’m unsure of where I stand regarding true love and compatibility and soulmates but if anyone was going to convince me of any of it I’d think it would be you. It’d be kinda dope to get married in Chicago, you can wear the wings jersey and I’ll find a leather jacket, but I don’t think we can base our lives off of the movie too much, we have to make our own memories. I love you Cam :)

nothing will ever change what i did to you. just like nothing will ever change what you did for me. that’s what makes me the idiot who lost the best thing i’ve ever had. i’m making changes. i’ll never have the chance to treat you right, but i can make sure i don’t hurt anyone else. i miss your green eyes.

sometimes i wonder if you had never loved me in the first place, then i wish that you just hadn’t. i was so happy when i was with you but at the end of our relationship you constantly made me feel like shit. it’s been months since you dumped me for the second time and i still cry every night. i still get flashbacks of the way you manipulated me. i still believe the things you gaslighted me into thinking. even now that i’m in a healthier relationship, my thoughts that tell me i’m annoying and unlovable constantly haunt me. i’m just glad that my new partner actually gives a shit about my feelings. our relationship was beautiful but it fell apart because of you. none of it was my fault and you won’t ever be able to convince me that it was. the only thing that keeps me going is knowing that you’re miserable now that you don’t have me in your life. i know you are and i know that you will be for a long time. you hurt me so bad but i’m not miserable anymore. and quite frankly, i wish you the worst.

i’ll always love you no matter what. i’ll always think of you as my soulmate. i miss you so fucking much. my heart aches without you here. it’s been years. i don’t think i’ll ever get over you and the way you looked at me. the sound of your laugh echos in my head when i’m sad. your words have given me the courage to go on and you’ve saved me many times. i love you forever.

i hated my name so much, until you said how beautiful it was. i miss you bubs. i still hate it. aurora.

i miss you everyday, you're the first thing and last thing i think of everyday. i have a gut feeling you'll come back i'm just waiting for the text.

I hate the way you hurt me, i didn’t deserve any of that, i’ll never forgive myself for letting u do that to me.

i still feel like we’re connected somehow. you may live on the other side of the world and it has been years, but i see glimpses of you through me. thank you for showing me happiness

im sorry ive hurt you. i want to be able to talk to you again. I dont expect forgiveness, but i have grown from my actions and wish I could show you, and give you gratitude and appreciation to lengths you deserve it to. you continue to shut me out, but I hope sooner than later I will be able to talk to you and kiss you again and give you my everything because its what you deserve. I still love you, and always have. from bug

i just find myself needing you permanently around. feels as though we've met in many lifetimes before this.

I don't know why I liked you so much. I liked you for three years throughout school together. It been 3 years since then and I still miss seeing you smirk at me across the classroom. I used to sing about you. I used to write in my diary about you. Now we are almost strangers. You probably don't even remember my name. But I think about you all the time. I don't know what drew me to you but I can't get over it. It hurts even more that you never knew.

I think the hardest part would be to accept the fact you only wanted me for my body and nothing else.

what was the point in breaking up with me just to beg for me back two months later...anyway stay frigid with your new gally, good luck and god bless bubs xxx stop replaying my streaks its embarassing

i'm sorry i was always so cold to you. i wish i wasn't. i played with your feelings and i shouldn't have.

The day I ended up on your Spotify, I knew I was never going to forget you. Too many songs remind me of you.

If you loved me, why did you give up on us in the blink of an eye? Never thought I'd call us strangers, not after everything we've been through.

I thought you we’d never end up as strangers, but look where we are now. I miss you so much. I regret getting so attached, but I don’t regret the bond we had. I wish you didn’t leave me behind like you did. I wish you didn’t give up on us.

Hey u kinda broke my heart but you said you still loved me. fuck u for spreading rumors. I can’t even look at you.

Did it hurt when you ghosted me? I keep trying to convince myself it did. I hope flirting with my sister helped ease the pain.

im so sorry i wasn't a better friend to you. i wish i could go back to 8th and 9th grade and fix everything...i miss you. always.

When I unadded you I didn't mean any harm by it I just wanted you to know that I did it because it was best and I wanted to feel better and move on, I wanted you to move on and be happy too. I didn't know that it would hurt you that much and I swear that if I knew I wouldn't have ever done it. I wish you would've just talked to me and told how you felt, that's all I ever wanted to know. I don't know why you're never open with me when it comes to us. It makes me sad because you're all I've ever wanted these past couple of years. I love you so much and I know you've moved on and all but if you do decide to come back, I'll be waiting. I love you

I know i've moved on but sometimes I just remember the promises you made me and it just makes me think back to what we were and it makes me miss you all over again...

I felt like the king and you were the jester and you were made to make me laugh until the point where you made me cry

you got me out of my depression but i could only talk to you when you were high because otherwise, you were too busy for me but i wish i never let you go.you were my yellow and i can never forget you

i just wish i was good enough to be something other than a fuck buddy, its fine though. i can finally let you go now

i cut off a piece of myself writing that final letter to you. i will not lose any more of myself to you, or anyone. we are nothing, never were.

My love for you truly was bulletproof but there u stand hand on trigger me:heart in my hands a fractured love story two broken hearts

i hope you don't end up seeing this. because i'm not supposed to be contacting you rn. but i remember i showed you a post and i was sad because it explained in detail how the connection ends when the common interest, one another, the relationship ends. you promised we would never be like that. however, i've got a page glued to my wall with a 5 week plan to NOT talk to you. BTW, the call was an accident. I was trying to remove your contact from my favorites. sorry...

Do you ever think of me? Were you the one that wrote those messages with my name? Do you miss me? I miss the relationship we had. You were my best friend and I miss you so much but... I don't want to text you because I feel like I annoy you.

Juro querer algo contigo, no puedo darte todo lo que mereces, en absoluto.
Ahora eres un vivo recuerdo en mi mente de algo que no fue y te pensaré muy de lejos.

They say that if you really want something, then you'll work really hard to get it. I worked really hard for you. Waiting on your day and night, making sure that you were okay all the time, and doing things that I didn't want to do. I look back to myself and I really want to hug me. I want to give her all the attention that she was craving from you. I don't hate you. I've never hated you. I hated what happened to us and how you gave up so easily. And now all I can do is just move on.

hey im so sorry for everything im sorry for the way you feel and im sorry for the way i fucked up im glad to see that you have moved on so quickly and are happy with other girls. i read our old texts 3 times a day and i just wanna say i miss you so much liam nothing is the same without you, you mean the world to me and thank you so much you have taught me a lot

Hey, idk if you will see this or if you will know it’s from me... but I just want you to know I’m beyond happy every time I see you and you make me so so happy. I wish you liked me and not her but I’m ok being friends if you’re happy with her.

I don't know. I don't know what this feeling is or was. I had a future planned when we were just talking. But now when I talk to you, I feel nothing at all. I'm moving on. What we had was good but time to move on. Bye.

u absolute fucking cunt. u lied about everything. u framed me for that because you where embarassed that i wouldnt date you. i was so in love with u man but u had to go fuck it up. i tried my best to keep u safe when i wasnt in a good place myself and you just used me and took me for granted. i miss u so much it hurts. u where such a dick. u made me loose so many people who kept me happy and made me feel safe. u being one. what i would give to go back and fix things. im sorry i really did try i promise

I know that you left me for her. She had a boyfriend but that didn't stop you. And the messages. I know about those too. Since then, I have always wondered if I would've been better off not knowing about the messages that placed the whole image together. You completely left me just because you wanted her instead. Was it because of something I did? Something I said? Or was it because I don't look like her. I don't have the pretty blue eyes that she does, which you told her were the prettiest eyes you've seen. I don't have the body that she does, which you told her that hers was amazing. I get it. I wasn't enough for you and probably still not enough now, only because I'm not her. I'm sure God let this happen to teach me a lesson, but I feel like I'm too young to have felt that kind of pain. Now, I have learned from it and I know my worth, which I'm sure those messages have helped me realize that. I just wish we could have fixed whatever was wrong instead of you ending it with "you've changed". That was the only explanation or "closure" I got from you. Yeah, everyone changes and eventually we learn that the hard way. But was it really worth ending it just because I may have changed? I guess I'll never know. So much for my first love.

you convinced me we were forever and that you were so deeply in love and then you left me like i meant nothing.

i just started talking to you and you’ve made me feel better than anyone else ever has. you mean a lot to me.